Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
I can't handle anything today and I'm going back to bed or the couch. Just total relapse. Need God. Can't handle the pile-up. Ashamed of this habit and just can't deal. :(
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, ”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D anything is possible in the higher "unknown"
"change from theinside out"
"The brain is the organ of change, in neuroscience, mind is the brain in action. It is consciousness that uses the brain and the body to produce many different levels of mind. And it is only when we are truly conscious and aware that we can make measurable changes in who we are and how we control our lives."By Dr. Joe Dispenza
I have a sense of urgency, at last, it's Monday, I'm going to go to the library, and not allow myself to get distracted. No computer, no smartphone, just me and a notepad. And glasses. Reading relevant material. Absorbing things. Does that sound a bit lame? I hope not. I think I need to be kind to myself and give myself encouragement, so this is intended to be a gentle-ish start to the process. I have to research and that's undeniable, if I keep it simple by using pen and paper then chances are I'll get more actual research done. Because the internet is on the computer and much as I'd love to burst in the chatbox with fellow-P-Aers I know I'd get distracted (the dark playground) so it's blinkers on for me today. Feeling positive!!!
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I haven't left yet... am having coffee and trying to find an article I downloaded yesterday... thinking I'll print it off and get reading it en route to the library. Really I'm just delaying...
Stay positive!!! Will get there!!!!
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Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor
Showing up consistently at PA is my only reliable form of self-regulation training . After 3 + years, I think some neurons have wired together. Thank you PA(ers).
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor
“If you fail to plan, you are planning to fail!”
Ben F.
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor
Feeling much better today since FINISHING the health insurance sign-up. That was rough.
Goal today is to mix in a few nice things I would like to do, along with the yucky tasks. I need some joy in my life.
stuff to do if i want to:
Exercises review for Fri
call 1-2 dr appt(s) just break it down, do what you can, ask God:
"Rundown Process"
-So, I can decide to get some contact info for the 2 doctors I want to see before the 1st. -And let's just call and see if they're available. If not, move down to 2nd,3rd choice & so on other drs. who might be.-If no one, I'll accept that and start fresh in new year with new plan. -And then start working to create an income for myself so I HAVE the money for these expenses.
(Call dental ins refund-provider/ Call Nav?) really want to avoid these two
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson
"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor"Even if we are suffering, we can show up to that experience ready to fully engage in it and learn what it has to offer. When we show up for our life, we are actively participating in being a happy person, achieving our goals, and generally living the life our soul really wants. If we need healing, we begin the process of seeking out those who can help us heal. If we need experience, we find the places and opportunities that can give us the experience we need in order to do the work we want to do in the world. Whatever we need, we look for it, and when we find it, we engage in the process of letting ourselves have it."
Grateful found PA, only place I can reliably "show up".
Oh dear, I feel very unfocused today, stayed up late, so now I'm getting up late, trying to write a list of my 'to-do's' but am already anticipating being behind all day and not fitting everything in.
walk dogs/visit friend
some shopping (fruit and veg, milk, bread)
MUST do some housework!!!! vacuum, mop, declutter
take overdue books back to library
cinema?
get the 500 word reflection done (surely doable!!! 500 words!!!)
walk dogs again
meditate
bed
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Okay, somehow 2 weeks have gone by since last check-in ... how did that happen?
My latest avoidance: phone calls for dr. appts. and gathering info for health ins. plan.
i have to admit I am avoiding those phone calls at the end of the day.
My new approach for today:
I need to break those down in my head into one call only at a time.
i don't need to do all calls at once, just start with one and then assess if I want to do another one after that
if i can just do ONE call later, then usually it is easier to do more later
so just get contact info for ONE doctor on my plan, get out my info sheet, and then do only that ONE call
i am only going to think of it like that for today until this afternoon at around 3-3:30 when it's time to deal with it.
M.O. -- Do NOT try to think of every potential future what-if issue as a precondition of making the call. Just do the freakin' call and let God take care of the rest!!!!
hazyjane ci friday 26th December
Ok, am going to read some articles (3) and take notes.
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December 26, 2014 - Chatty
Journal
Avoid Celebrity newsAvoid FacebookTake J shopping, as promisedGo to TWC -customer service window - want final bill and refund.Go to gym - cancel membership.FloorClosetClothesReorganize furnitureMake sure someone, doesn't have to be me, sets the table for dinnerSeasons Greetings!
Vic 12/24/14 Wednes 12/25/14 Thurs
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, the best i can today.
Today this week and next
.T S - get some quotes ideas: the guy down the block Adam and in Sd.
Prep G PC and C
emails to Pell and St and post hw
send email to Yu R
prep Fin and 9M and 10M
look @ Fin papers
750 and Hisb Learn
schedule meetings
schedule N trip an other decision
Play Ord P
Do inv research
buy an organizer
household chores
look into C12
greenbook
Progress not prefection
exercise
Order my tasks #1 (just made a decision)
Wednesday December 24, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Things I have done today
1. Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting2. Went to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting3. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meetingThings I will do today
1. Test blood sugar2. Cook and eat breakfast
3. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting
4. Pack my stuff
5. Go to the store
6. Go to group therapy at 10:45 a.m.
7. Eat lunch
8. Go to group therapy at 1 p.m.9. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
10. Go to my mom's apartment
11. Cook and eat dinner
12. Test blood sugar
13. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
RisingUp Day 26: Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Trying to be true to my name here, I'm trying to get out of this depression I've been in.
I set my alarm earlier this morning and forced myself out of the house.
So far, these are done:
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Took out trash-Got the mail-Drank water with probiotic-Went for 25-min. walk-Canceled dr. appt for today-Canceled ent for fri but kept the one on mon-Made breakfast shake-Emailed two relativesTuesday December 23, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Things I have done today
1. Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting2. Went to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting3. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meetingThinigs I will do today
1. Test blood sugar2. Cook and eat breakfast
3. Get dressed
4. Go to individual therapy at 10 a.m.
5. Go to group therapy at 11 a.m.
6. Eat lunch
7. Go to group therapy at 1 p.m.
8. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone DA meeting
9. Do ACA work
10. Warm up and eat dinner
11. Go to the 6 p.m. telephone OA meeting
12. Go to the 7 p.m. telephone OA meeting
13. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone ACA meeting
14. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting
15. Wash dishes
16. Test blood sugar
17. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA
18. Write list for tomorrow
19. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
tuesday 23 dec
people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily
zig ziglar
minimal day, not feeling too good
contact SB
reply texts
wash sheets
go shop
smoothie
wash up
tidy kitchen
ledge
dry sheets
make bed
eat
tidy bedroom
wash brushes
wash clothes
tablets
bath/hair
dinner
teeth
Mon Dec 22
To Do:
1) Complete Resume
2) Medical Appointment
3) Job Search Online
4) Make dinner
RisingUp Day 25: Monday, December 22, 2014
I can't handle anything today and I'm going back to bed or the couch. Just total relapse. Need God. Can't handle the pile-up. Ashamed of this habit and just can't deal. :(
12.22.14 Babarino CI
call (done)
Other calls (done)
books (done)
bags (done)
manaul (in progress)
talk
updates to assignment sheet
follow up on KA meeting-type into doc and action items
Vic 12/22/14 Mon.& 12/23/14 Tues
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, ”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D anything is possible in the higher "unknown"
"change from theinside out"
"The brain is the organ of change, in neuroscience, mind is the brain in action. It is consciousness that uses the brain and the body to produce many different levels of mind. And it is only when we are truly conscious and aware that we can make measurable changes in who we are and how we control our lives."By Dr. Joe Dispenza
Monday December 22, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Thing I have done today
Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meetingThings I will do today
1. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting3. Test blood sugar4. Cook and eat breakfast
5. Take shower
6. Get dressed
7. Go to the mental health center
8. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone UA meeting
9. Do ACA work10. Wash dishes
11. Clear tables
12. Do recycling
13. Warm up and eat dinner14. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting
15. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA session16. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
17. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting
18. Wash dishes
19. Test blood sugar
20. Do 11th Step inventory for OA
21. Write list for tomorrow
22. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
Hazyjane check-in Monday 22nd December
I have a sense of urgency, at last, it's Monday, I'm going to go to the library, and not allow myself to get distracted. No computer, no smartphone, just me and a notepad. And glasses. Reading relevant material. Absorbing things. Does that sound a bit lame? I hope not. I think I need to be kind to myself and give myself encouragement, so this is intended to be a gentle-ish start to the process. I have to research and that's undeniable, if I keep it simple by using pen and paper then chances are I'll get more actual research done. Because the internet is on the computer and much as I'd love to burst in the chatbox with fellow-P-Aers I know I'd get distracted (the dark playground) so it's blinkers on for me today. Feeling positive!!!
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not in the library...
I haven't left yet... am having coffee and trying to find an article I downloaded yesterday... thinking I'll print it off and get reading it en route to the library. Really I'm just delaying...
Stay positive!!! Will get there!!!!
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On my way!!!
Am departing... nothing to distract me... fingers crossed I start to enjoy all this...
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monday 22 dec
people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily
zig ziglar
smoothie
bath
contacts
wash on
ledge
wash up
phone mum
phone SB
nye
tidy bedroom
tablets
Saturday December 20, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Things I have done today
1. Got dressed2. Fixed and ate breakfast3. Went to the mental health center4. Ate lunch5. Did numbersThings I will do today
1. Get medicine ready for the next two weeks
2. Cook and eat dinner
3. Go to the 8 p.m. face to face NA meeting
4. Wash dishes
5. Write list for tomorrow
6. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
12/20-12/21
Order Mom's Christmas gift.Pay car paymentSchedule December budget
Schedule January budget
Write out checks/envelopes/stamps for mailing
Menu for tonight
Walk the dogsCheck on gardenWriting Project No. 1 -TTD
Writing Project No. 2 -MM
Read TWF
Writing Project No. 3 - TWF
Writing Project No. 4 - LDW
Read Nobody's Business
Vic 12/20/14 SAT amd 12/21/14 sun
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor
Showing up consistently at PA is my only reliable form of self-regulation training . After 3 + years, I think some neurons have wired together. Thank you PA(ers).
12/19
Prune 3 palm trees turned out to be 4 treesString lights on treePick up boots
Pick up purseVacuum hard wood floor
Have J. pick up his mess in the kitchenOrganize today's material into workable chunks.
tiptree12/19 ci
- test/commit fix for notes bug
- step through all diffs involving viewer issues
- clean office
- read paper
- read 25-50 pp
- meditate
- exercise
- practice guitar and/or piano
Friday December 19, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life
Things I have done today
1. Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting2. Went to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting3. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meetingThings I will do today
1. Get dressed
2. Fix and eat breakfast
3. Put things in the mail
4. Go to group therapy at 9 a.m.
5. Go to group therapy at 10:45 a.m.
6. Eat lunch
7. Go to the store
8. Go to the library and print out some material
9. Cook and eat dinner
10. Go to the 4 p.m. telephone DA meeting
11. Go to the 5 p.m. telephone OA meeting
12. Go to the 6:30 p.m. face to face OA meeting
13. Go to the 8 p.m. face to face NA meeting
14. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting
15. Wash dishes
16. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA
17. Write list for tomorrow
18. Do numbers
19. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
Vic 12/18/14 thurs& 12/19/14fri
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor
“If you fail to plan, you are planning to fail!”
Ben F.
http://www.timeanddate.com/calendar/create.html
Thursday
Thursday December 18, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting
2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting
3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting4. Cook and eat breakfast
5. Call the pharmacy about some medicine
6. Take shower
7. Get dressed
8. Call a CLA member
9. Go to get some food from the food bank
10. Go to the library and print out material
11. Go to my mom's and get food11. Wash dishes
12. Clear table
13. Get mail
14. Warm up and eat dinner
15. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
16. Go to the 9:30 p.m. online EA meeting
17. Wash dishes
18. Do my 11th Step inventory for tonight
19. Write list for tomorrow
20. Do numbers
21. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
WED 17
people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily
zig ziglar
PUT FOOD ON 8.50
RUN BATH
TIDY BEDROOM
EAT 9.10
HAVE BATH 9.40
WASH HAIR
TEETH 10,40
12,00 BED
Hazyjane check-in Wendesday 17th December
Just had a coffee so... get to work!!!
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Wednesday December 17, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Things I did today
1. Went to the 6:30 a.m. telephone ACA meeting2. Went to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting3. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meetingThings I will do today
1. Cook and eat breakfast
2. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting
3. Go to the bus station and get a bus pass4. Go to the Post Office and get my package5. Go to group therapy at 10:45 a.m.
6. Eat lunch
7. Go to group therapy at 1 p.m.8. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
9. Go to the taped CLA meeting
10. Wipe off my stove
11. Wash dishes
12. Clear up table near the computer
13. Eat dinner
14. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting
15. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone DA-HOW meeting
16. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
17. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting18. Go to the 9:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
19. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA
20. Wash dishes
21. Write list for tomorrow
22. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
Vic 12/16/14 tues& 12/17/14
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor
http://www.wikihow.com/Gain-Control-of-Your-Emotions
"We cannot change the direction of the wind, but we can adjust our sail!"
RisingUp Day 24: Tuesday, December 16, 2014
Feeling much better today since FINISHING the health insurance sign-up. That was rough.
Goal today is to mix in a few nice things I would like to do, along with the yucky tasks. I need some joy in my life.
stuff to do if i want to:
Exercises review for Fri
call 1-2 dr appt(s) just break it down, do what you can, ask God:
"Rundown Process"
-So, I can decide to get some contact info for the 2 doctors I want to see before the 1st. -And let's just call and see if they're available. If not, move down to 2nd,3rd choice & so on other drs. who might be.-If no one, I'll accept that and start fresh in new year with new plan. -And then start working to create an income for myself so I HAVE the money for these expenses.
(Call dental ins refund-provider/ Call Nav?) really want to avoid these two
call P.O. & texted landlord: problem solved!Walk in park
pharm/mail/trash
Bank deposit & refund
New nail polishFind songsFill out form/other info for UI appt: for Thurs
Note/late bills FS for Thurs/Fri(also upload)Check out FJ/apply
SOON (NEXT WEEK, FRI 12/19-TUES 12/23):
Call HC re: prem. tx cred.
Need PT/HealthIns payments
Mail Jan rent
Tuesday December 16, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Thing I have done today
Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meetingThings I will do today
1. Go to the 6;45 a.m. telephone OA meeting2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting3. Test blood sugar4. Cook and eat breakfast
5. Take shower
6. Get dressed
7. Do hair
8. Go to group therapy at 11 a.m.
9. Eat lunch
10. Go to group therapy at 1 p.m.
11. Eat dinner
12. Go to the bus station and get a bus pass
13. Go to the 6 p.m. telephone OA meeting
14. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone ACA meeting
15. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting
16. Test blood sugar
17. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA
18. Write list for tomorrow
19. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
Hazyjane check-in Tuesday 16th December
Step work
meditation
walk dogs
shower
library: no phone!!!
Leave phone at home!!!! (Andreturn books)Appointment no 1: 2.15-3.15
Appointment no 2: 4-4.30
restore order to living room (but clean it)
cook
walk dogs
PI meeting 7-9
walk dogs again??
.bed before midnight..
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tuesday morning
editing pomos
,1
2,3,4,5,6,7,8
Tuesday
12.15.14 CI Babarino
welcome to the union pamphlet (in progress)
sign and send letter (done)
orientation book (in progress)
read bylaws (done)
review agenda (done)
send names (done)
prep for meet with K
personal
speech for Wednesday (done)
physical training (done)
vacuum (done)
laundry-drop off or one load (half done didn't fold)
write up a report
email blast invite to assembly with link to info
RisingUp Day 23: Monday, December 15, 2014
On tap for today:
1. submit claim
2. sign up health ins (last day to do so)
3. check ins. pd Dec
4. Return library bookHazyjane check-in Monday 15th December
Am in the library. AM going to do some work. Reader's reports x 2, one before lunch and one after lunch.
Just need to get started.
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Sunday
monday 15 december
people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily
zig ziglar
COUNCIL TAX ??
BULBS
SCRIPT
cds
bath
po coins essential shopping
phone dentist
AWM
phone mum
make bed
tablets
tidy dressing table
tidy bedroom
clothes away from living room
cook
finances for month
walk
phone M
replt to texts emails ect
sc watch read
make to do list for tomorrow
Sunday December 14, 2014
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting
2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting
3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA business meeting
4. Test blood sugar
5. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting
6. Get dressed
7. Fix and eat breakfast
8. Go to church at 9:45 a.m.
9. Wash dishes
10. Clear tables
11. Write three questions for tonight's meeting
12. Cook and eat dinner
13. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting
14. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA session
15. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
16. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone PA meeting
17. Test blood sugar
18. Mail registration and get mail
19. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA
20. Write list for tomorrow
21. Put insullin in me
Thanks for letting me share
saturday 13 dec
people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily
zig ziglar
text g
phone mum
all texts/phonecalls
phone specs
smoothie
wash sheets
dry sheets
MAKE BED
COOK
check bank
ledge
tablets/clear draw
clean out dressing table
CHRISTMAS??
put clothes away
vic12/13/14 sat
Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, think good thoughts someone said “all action is born in thought, life is reflection of thinking”To change is to think greaterthan how we feel." J.D.Life is a process--just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”R.Carlson
"If you show up for yourself in your life, the universe will show up for you."by Madisyn Taylor"Even if we are suffering, we can show up to that experience ready to fully engage in it and learn what it has to offer. When we show up for our life, we are actively participating in being a happy person, achieving our goals, and generally living the life our soul really wants. If we need healing, we begin the process of seeking out those who can help us heal. If we need experience, we find the places and opportunities that can give us the experience we need in order to do the work we want to do in the world. Whatever we need, we look for it, and when we find it, we engage in the process of letting ourselves have it."
Grateful found PA, only place I can reliably "show up".
Hazyjane check-in saturday 13th December
Oh dear, I feel very unfocused today, stayed up late, so now I'm getting up late, trying to write a list of my 'to-do's' but am already anticipating being behind all day and not fitting everything in.
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Saturday
hazyjane ci friday 12th December
Urgent:
meditate for ten minutes
then walk dogs/go to post office/send card
call friend about visiting her today
buy gifts x 2 plus cards
get to uni for some performances I want to see
get to friend's birthday party
at some point walk the dogs again??
home, bed
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Friday
on not overthinking it ...
Note to self:
Listen to what RisingUp said in another post:
Just do the freakin' call and let God take care of the rest!!!!
Act, breathe, trust.
RisingUp Day 22: Thursday, December 11, 2014
Okay, somehow 2 weeks have gone by since last check-in ... how did that happen?
My latest avoidance: phone calls for dr. appts. and gathering info for health ins. plan.
i have to admit I am avoiding those phone calls at the end of the day.
My new approach for today:
I need to break those down in my head into one call only at a time.