Monday 17th March 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Things I have done today

1. Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Went to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA session

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone CLA session

2. Wash dishes

3. Cook and eat breakfast

4. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

5. Go to the support group at 3 p.m.

6. Go to the support group at 4:30 p.m.

7. Get mail

8. Warm up and eat dinner

9. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

10. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

11. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

12. Wash dishes

13. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

14. Write list for tomorrow

15. Put insullin in me

Thanks for letting me share

people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily

zig ziglar

wash up 

tidy kitchen 

ledge 

cook 

rubbish out 

gas reading 

unpack, tidy living room 

clear desk/fill diary 

make bed 

make r bed 

put wash on 

this eve-- phone calls

tidy bedroom, hang clothes 

tablets tidy 

cook dinner 

wash up, kitchen ready morning 

bath before bed

mobile stop 

mediataion, sc email, cc??

finances

PAINT--READY

REPAYMENTS---- DESK--- SORT

list for tomorrow 

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Thing I have done today

Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

4. Get dressed

5. Fix and eat breakfast

6. Go to church at 9:45 a.m.

7. Eat lunch

8. Wash dishes

9. Start to clear off my other table

10. Go to the Step Study partnership at 3 p.m.

11. Go to my mom's apartment

12. Eat dinner

13. Watch the football game

Thanks for letting me share

I came across this website and thought PAers might like this ... I have not read through this whole site yet, but at first glance it looks like just the sort of thing many of us might benefit from, since we love those lists!

http://www.bulletjournal.com/

I am in mega-procrastination mode and I need help from God today.

I have figured out that my extreme perfectionism is the root cause of it. It's not that I am unmotivated or unambitious, in fact it is that I am TOO motivated and ambitious inwardly. Which is putting SO MUCH PRESSURE ON ME that I can't get anything done. If there is even the slightest chance of something not being "right" I can't get myself to move. Ugh. 

I know this comes from my upbringing and it is a pattern only God can break. Lord Jesus, please remove this yoke from me and my thinking. I just can't change this on my own, never have been able to. 

Lord, I won't write a list right now. I already know what needs to be done. I already wrote my lists today. It's no use to keep rewriting them. 

God please just give me the next right thing to do. That's all I can tolerate. Amen. 

ETA: Okay, I lied about the list. Had to make a short version just so I have some focus!

These are the most important items: 

6.5 hours total

tomorrow is groceries, post office, and possibly bank.

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Things I did today

1. Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Pay a fine for a book

3. Renewed a couple of books

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Test blood sugar

4. Get dressed

5. Fix and eat breakfast

6. Make a couple of phone calls

7. Go to group therapy at 9 a.m.

8. Go to group therapy at 10:45 a.m.

9. Eat lunch

10. Do chores

11. Go to the store

12. Go to the pharmacy

13. Go to the library

14. Go to the 5 p.m. telephone OA meeting

15. Cook and eat breakfast

16. Go to the step study partnership at 7 p.m.

17. Go to the 8 p.m. online EA meeting

18. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone OA meeting

19. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting

20. Wash dishes

21. Test blood sugar

22. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

23. Write list for tomorrow

24. Put insullin in me

25. Do numbers

Thanks for letting me share 

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Thing I did today

Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Cook and eat breakfast

4. Watch the game

5. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA session

6. Get dressed

7. Go to the food bank

8. Fix and eat lunch

9. Go to group therapy at 1 p.m.

10. Go to support group at 3 p.m.

11. Go to support group at 4:30 p.m.

12. Warm up and eat dinner

13. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

14. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA session

15. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

16. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

17. Wash dishes

18. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

19. Write list for tomorrow

20. Put insullin in me

Thanks for letting me share

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Thing I did today

Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Cook and eat breakfast

4. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting

5. Go to group therapy at 10:45 a.m.

6. Eat lunch

7. Go to group therapy at 1 p.m.

8. Go to individual therapy at 2:30 p.m.

9. Get mail

10. See the person to give me my gift card

11. Cook dinner and do a little bit of housecleaning

12. Warm up and eat dinner

13. Listen to two telephone CLA meetings

14. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

15. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone DA-HOW meeting

16. Go to the 8:30 p.m. telephone CLA business meeting

17. Wash dishes

18. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

19. Write list for tomorrow

20. Put insullin in me

Thanks for letting me share

people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily

zig ziglar

sc email? 

MAKE DOC APT 

RE PAYMENTS 

mobile

unpack

put wash on

ledge

empty bin

mediation SC CC??

skincare order

phone mum, dad, R

phone M, BG

tidy kitchen

FILL diary

clear desk

FOUNDATION

reaseach condition

 Very depressed since last night. I feel like I can handle the job tasks today, but not the health. I can't do everything every day. That's not realistic. Maybe today is better for job stuff, and another day can focus on the health. Maybe switching every other day? I'll let God figure it out.
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Seek God first, He will help me. Prayer for today, "Lord, give me Your Will." Amen. 

TIME: 15 MINUTES FOR EACH MINIMUM /

30 MINUTES FOR EACH MAX

TODAY: 
✔

AM: 

Read Bible

Pray w/devos

✔Find 10  

✔File claim   

Read industry books (small sections only)

Workout program

Apply to 10 jobs w/job kit help

View webinar

Find software training

PM: 

Food shop/mail/dump boxes
(get batteries/water/paper) 

Get perio info ASAP / Call dental ins. cancel one plan, get $ info for Friday

Catch up Bible (3 days)

Make salad for dinner

Call back G, C? (ask God, feeling very resistant)

3 bxs

Start research b: Print emails, gather papers, hole-punch, sort by topic

Start research h.i.

Plan "local" vac. spots for this week

BY FRIDAY/WEEKEND

Make ot appt (possibly general pt)

Get DA support started: to send letters maybe by end of Jan. 

Call AC appt

Start potting plants

Start planning car maintenance

WEEKEND: 

Finish laundry

Clean bathroom

Rehearse

'The best way to get something done is to begin.'

Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, the best I can today.

"Inherent in every intention and desire is the mechanics for its
fulfillment . . . intention and desire in the field of pure potentiality
have infinite organizing power. And when we introduce an intention in
the fertile ground of pure potentiality, we put this infinite organizing
power to work for us."http://www.chopra.com/the-law-of-intention-and-desire

So bit of a shock yesterday as found out my dad is I hospital for bilateral pneumonia in a very different country to where I live and work - bit stressful as not quite sure how sick he is or the level of care but I have a strange peace that this illness has forced his workaholic person to stop. Mm that sounded wrong but you hopefully get what I mean.

Meanwhile, his insomniac anxious daughter across the globe has 2 days off - well 1.5 as slept in after going to b Ed late.

I am powerless over my procrastination and recognise my need for the will and power of God.

Aims today:

Renal phys and cranial nerve anatomy

Errands:

Washing

Post office, Coles 

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I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Things I have done today

1. Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Test blood sugar

2. Get dressed

3. Fix and eat breakfast

4. Go to group therapy at 9 a.m.

5. Clear tables

6. Sweep floor to a pile

7. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

8. Cook and eat lunch

9. Go to the support group at 3 p.m.

10. Go to the support group at 4:30 p.m.

11. Eat dinner

12. Go to the 6:30 p.m. face to face NA business meeting

13. Go to the 7:30 p.m. face to face NA meeting

14. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

15. Test blood sugar

16. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

17. Write list for tomorrow

18. Put insullin in me

19. Call my dad to wish him Happy Belated Birthday

20. Go to the store

21. Do numbers

Thanks for letting me share

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Wash dishes

2. Clear tables

3. Sweep floor to a pile

4. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

5. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

6. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

7. Test blood sugar

8. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

9. Fix and eat breakfast

10. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

11. Get dressed

12. Go to church at 9:45 a.m.

13. Do ACA work

14. Write three questions for tonight's meeting

15. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone DA Step Study

16. Cook and eat dinner

17. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting

18. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA session

19. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

20. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone CLA business meeting

21. Wash dishes

22. Test blood sugar

23. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

24. Write list for tomorrow

25. Put insullin in me

Thanks for letting me share

Had a lie-in, did my morning routine, had breakfast, walked the dogs, got some pet food.

NOW I have some catching up to do:

• read the readings!! Print them off
• update blog!
• research some potential case studies
• break and review, possibly incorporating purchase of notebook and coffee...

Aaaarrgghh... interruption!!! Ok never mind, post this...

___________________________________________________________________________
It's an inside job...

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Things I did today

1. Went to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Went to the library website and renewed my books

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 6;45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Cook and eat breakfast

4. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

5. Get dressed

6. Go to the bus station

7. Go to the library and return a book

8. Go to group therapy at 10:45 a.m.

9. Go to the end of the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

10. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone ACA business meeting

11. Go to my doctor's appointment at 2 p.m.

12. Do numbers

13. Go to the 5 p.m. telephone OA meeting

14. Eat dinner

15. Go to the 7 p.m. telephone DA Step study

16. Go to the 8 p.m. online EA meeting

17. Wash dishes

18. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

19. Write list for tomorrow

20. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting

21. Put insullin in me

Thanks for letting me share

'The best way to get something done is to begin.'

Seek God first, He will help me. 

TODAY: 

AM: 

✔Read Bible/pray  

Apply to 10 jobs w/job kit help

Find 10 more + view webinar

Read industry books (small sections only)

Find software training

Walk + Workout program

PM: 

File claim tonite 

Make salad for dinner

Do dishes 

Call C? (ask God, feeling very resistant)

3 bxs

Start research b: Print emails, gather papers, hole-punch, sort by topic

Start research h.i. half hour

Plan "local" vac. spots

BY FRIDAY/WEEKEND

Call dental ins. to cancel one plan, get $ info for next wk

Make ot appt (possibly general pt)

Nails

Food shop/mail 
(get batteries/water/paper)

Get DA support started: to send letters maybe by end of Jan. 

Call AC appt

Start potting plants

Start planning car maintenance

WEEKEND: 

Finish laundry

Clean bathroom

Rehearse

Maintenance tasks, do what works for me, the best I can today.

This Too Shall Pass, One Day at a Time

Borrowing this from Steppin (thanks!):

'The best way to get something done is to begin.'

TODAY: 

AM: 

Read Bible/pray  

Apply to 10 jobs w/job kit help

Find 10 more + view webinar

Read industry books (small sections only)

Find software training

Make salad for lunch

Walk + Workout program

PM: 

Call C.+ do dishes

File claim late tonite

3 bxs

Start research b. half hour

Start research h.i. half hour

Plan "local" vac. spots

BY FRIDAY

Nails

Food shop/mail 
(get batteries/water/paper)

Call dental ins. to cancel one plan, get $ info for next wk

Make ot appt

Get DA support started: to send letters maybe by end of Jan. 

Call AC appt

Start potting plants

Start planning car maintenance

WEEKEND: 

Finish laundry

Clean bathroom

Rehearse

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 6 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Test blood sugar

5. Cook and eat breakfast

6. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting

7. Get dressed

8. Go to group therapy at 10:45 a.m.

9. Eat lunch

10. Go to group therapy at 1 p.m.

11. Go to individual therapy at 2:30 p.m.

12. Put clothes away

13. Cook and eat dinner

14. Go to taped CLA meeting

15. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

16. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

17. Go to the 9:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

18. Test blood sugar

19. Wash dishes

20. Take shower

21. Do my 11th Step inventory for OA

22. Write list for tomorrow

23. Put insullin in me

Thanks for letting me share

This day is gonna be pretty good I think. Mostly nice things on my schedule (wafflebaking! and seeing some good ol friends)

However I DO need to make a thorough cleaning of the appartment so here goes:

-Vacuum all floors

-Light cleaning of floors

-Clean bathroom (mirrors!)

-Dusting

-Take out trash + papers

-Put on new linnen

-Laundry

-If time: Wipe down cupboards and clean out inside

Other:

-Message S about JF

-Message S, M and K about concert 

-Put up post about books

'The best way to get something done is to begin.'

Just need to speak my truth, bc I tried to shrug it off but I feel bad .. I really liked the chatbox for support with most being so supportive, just to bookend, but to be repeatedly slighted (as in, ignored every time) if only by one person for no reason whatsoever is making me feel really uncomfortable. It feels silly and sad, but obvious by now that it's not from timeouts or reloads, lol. I'm nice to everyone, try to always say hi (and of course no one can respond to everyone all the time in that format, which I get), and yet being ignored in someone's obvious presence is just not something necessary where instead I need support like everyone else. What do you do when you're the only one refused a simple "hi!"? After giving the benefit of the doubt and repeatedly saying hi yourself ... You give up and move on. In life there's always going to be one who just doesn't like me, which is weird here because I'm anonymous and just posting my activities and feelings to process them. I can live with not everyone liking me, but don't need to be around it on a daily basis for hours straight when I didn't do anything wrong. I really love everyone here at PA otherwise. That's why I keep coming back bc we get each other.

I'll just do more posts on the Bookend thread I guess Besides, once I get the job, the chatbox during daytime will not be an option anyway so I should get used to not using it.

Anyway, to-do list for today: 

Apply to 10 jobs

Find 10 more

Read industry books (small sections only

Make salad for lunch

Walk + Workout program

Call to reserve tix for weekend Call again AM

Call dental ins. AM

(Call M in town tomorrow)

Read Bible/pray

3 bxs

Start research b. half hour

Start research h.i. half hour

Make ot appt.

Food shop/mail