Sometimes it seems all too much
Sometimes it seems all too much to organise and to get control over. I am the one who does the housework and cooking and washing but I also have to finish this project I am working on. Yes I procrastinate by doing housework but it also needs to be done. I do the basics and although things are very untidy, I keep everything very clean, vacuum and there is no garbage lying around or anything. But doing even the basics actually takes a lot of time and energy. I cook when I can as I know I especially need the nutrition. And then there is also self-care of course and that takes time.
I have very limited energy and I cannot cope with all this normal, everyday upkeep and work on my project. I feel guilty that I am not like a "normal" person my age that can cope with this all. Thinking of just minimising the work I do for the housekeeping makes me cringe because that means untidiness AND dirt. I think being surrounded by untidiness and dirt is not good for the psyche and productivity. I just don't know how to cope!