Friday 16th August 2013

13:05:25 ‹clement› c.s.lewis in Ch 4 of Mere Christianity talks about being saddled with a wretched psychological outfit, which provides corrupt raw materials to our choice-making true self
13:05:49 ‹clement› That fits addiction perfectly. It fits the dopamine theory perfectly. Most people receive reward for doing their daily tasks. I (we?) do not.
13:06:04 ‹clement› so the biological equation presented to the normal person is different from that presented to me.
13:06:19 ‹clement› they require a small moral effort to keep moving and fulfill their commitments.
13:06:47 ‹clement› i require a huge moral effort to compensate for the lack of dopamine providing reward for dong tasks.
13:07:58 ‹clement› this idea, as riddled's did, moves my addiction out of "me" and into my circumstance, which makes it much easier to deal with, when i disown it

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I did today

1. Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Went to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Took shower

4. Went to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

2. Read the meditations

3. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

4. Cook and eat breakfast

5. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

6. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

7. Call the library and see if it is open

8. Go to the library

9. Go to the taped CLA meeting

10. Do numbers

11. Cook and eat dinner

12. Get cart ready

13. Get dressed

14. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.

15. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone OA meeting

16. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Jaila, I think you must have been listening to my counsellor yesterday! Thank you for the starter.

A full day for paperwork today - I hope I can use it well.

• complete clinic returns took me all morning, but it's done, and is the basis for the catch-up programme
• finish SEN reports
• catch-up one set of reports
• break
• clear in-tray
• lunch
• meeting
• find and file all notes in office

to be done if time (ie probably not)

• K and K's reports
• catch-up one set of records
• AH forms to J
• deal with phone book

H.

• some household chores before work & on train (hang up laundry, take glass to recycling container, mend t-shirt)
• productive workday (better than yesterday, but could still be better)
• clean stairs (not a joke - still paint spots & 2 cm of dirt + dust on it from renovating, which was weeks ago) (Not finished, but did the 20% that make the 80% difference. I want to continue tomorrow, but if I don't, the neighbours will survive now. Too late in the evening to continue now.)
• dishes
• unpack bag, clear table
• clear desk as far as possible today (the famous stack of papers one should do something about, file away, or throw away) (desk not completely cleaned but worked steadily and got a bunch done)

I love these focuses, movingalong, your collection of courage quotes, and now this one.  

focus on the positives.
do the possibles.