Sunday, 21st July 2013

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

• I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
  • "15 Points" point 5 says:
    

    5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.

    My Plan is this:

    1. read "15 Points"
    2. Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God

:) ci
:) start timers
:) v task
:) cL
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 9am church (christmas in july ;) :D
:) sort tasks
j task
:) do tasks
:) put away clothes
:) abstinence day counts
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw

12:39am (technically jul 22) :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 08hrs 43min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (45min, 15:11-15:56 7/21 searching for music on youtube)
It's been 01days 02hrs 16min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (2hr 5min, 20:18-22:23 7/20 web searq; abs his: (/ (+ 13 1 1 5 6 6 3 6 8 5 1 2 5 2 3 8 ) 16.0)4.6875 ave, old-new)
It's been 01days 02hrs 16min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hr 5min, 20:18-22:23 7/20 web searq; abs his: (/ (+ 5 14 8 6 12 9 8 13 11) 9.0)9.55 ave)
It's been 33days 21hrs 13min (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 34 days (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >112 days (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25/2013).
It's been 248 days (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day (11/15/2012)
It's been ~348 days (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week (18 days til 1 year, aug 8, 2013)
It's been 33days 13hrs 54min (mt) since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)

(mt) = not counting 5 day Mission Trip 7/15-7/19

• Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
  -- oh yeah. i prayed thru it.
• Do we owe an apology?
• Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
• Were we kind and loving toward all?
  -- not all the time
• What could we have done better?
  -- not gone off plan looking for music on youtube.
  -- less tv tonight.
• Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
  -- a lot of the time. acedia.
• Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Not one, but two, sessions to motivate myself for M-task. the 2nd was harder than the first.
God was with me today. had a hard time staying on plan, but i did.
Luke 4:18-19 and the surrounding story. What a story! What a phenomena!

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people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily

zig ziglar

thank you mole

work in 1 hour sections on computer lessons

email sol

tidy as i go and eat regularly

exercises

hair

bath tonight

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank Mole for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to the 9:50 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

7. Test blood sugar twice

8. Cook and eat breakfast

9. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

10. Take shower

11. Get dressed

12. Research in religious literature

13. Read the topic for the religious meeting

14. Go to the religious meeting at 2 p.m.

15. Cook and eat dinner

16. Go to the 5:30 p.m. telephone DA meeting

17. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

18. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting

19. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

20. Go to the 8:30 p.m. telephone PA workshop

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