Saturday 6th July 2013

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

• I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
  • "15 Points" point 5 says:
    

    5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.

    My Plan is this:

    1. read "15 Points"
    2. Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
(skip) 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
j task
:) do tasks
:) put away clothes
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw

9:58pm :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 01days 18hrs 06min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (2hr 2min, 1:50-3:52am 7/5 early am surq2hr 2min, 1:50-3:52am 7/5 early am surq)
It's been 01days 18hrs 06min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (2hr 2min, 1:50-3:52am 7/5 early am surq2hr 2min, 1:50-3:52am 7/5 early am surq; abs his: (/ (+ 13 1 1 5 6 6 3 6 8 5 1 2 5 2) 14.0)4.6 ave old-new)
It's been 01days 18hrs 06min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hr 2min, 1:50-3:52am 7/5 early am surq2hr 2min, 1:50-3:52am 7/5 early am surq; abs his: (/ (+ 5 14 8 6 12 9 8 13) 8.0)9.4 ave)
It's been 23days 18hrs 32min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 24 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >102 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 238 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~338 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 23days 11hrs 13min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)

• Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
  - yes once late. God deliver me from this.
• Do we owe an apology?
• Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
• Were we kind and loving toward all?
  - yes, except in some of my thots.
• What could we have done better?
  - left tennis a little earlier. family time was over, essentially.
• Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
• Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Recovery.
Good moving day.
Whole family together.
Rescue from bad conversation topic last night.
Godly music.
That i'm on plan even this late at night.
That you're teaching me that i'm an addict, when i wake up. every hour of every day, when i got to bed, and when i wake up the next day.

show up (done), exer, pan, follow through

myck in must have got lost yesterday, but did it. Need to stay "Humble enough" too use the tools that work and ask for help. 

great starter jalla,(also one on monday) my good friend once said "Better done than perfect" I love that slogan too. chatbox yesterday helped me over hump of 3 procratination items. thanks pa.

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

6. Go to the 9:30 a.m. telephone OA meeting

7. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

8. Go to the 10 a.m. telephone DA meeting

9. Cook and eat breakfast

10. Go to the 11:15 telephone DA workshop

11. Get medicine ready for the next two weeks

12. Sweep floor to a pile

13. Clear tables

14. Wash dishes

15. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

16. Test blood sugar twice

17. Wash and dry clothes

18. Take shower

19. Get dressed

20. Cook and eat dinner

21. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

22. Go to the 7:30 p.m. face to face NA meeting

23. Go to the face to face NA business meeting after the meeting

Thanks for letting me share