Thursday 4th July 2013

show up (done), exer, pan, follow through

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

• I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
  • "15 Points" point 5 says:
    

    5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.

    My Plan is this:

    1. read "15 Points"
    2. Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
sort tasks
?capture all * tasks here
j task
:) do tasks
:-( put away clothes
:-( reflection
:-( pre-plan tmrw

12:37pm :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 16hrs 58min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (23min, 12:07-12:30pm 7/4 watching tv)
It's been 01days 14hrs 56min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 13min, 20:28-21:41 7/2 improving (not just fiddling with, real operational efficiency improvement) my task list, but off-plan; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3,6,8,5,1,2,5 old-new)
It's been 13days 07hrs 55min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 5min, 2:37-4:42am 6/21 early morning surfinq; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12,9,8 )

It's been 21days 09hrs 11min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 22 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >100 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 236 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~336 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 21days 01hrs 52min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)

When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).

• Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
• Do we owe an apology?
• Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
• Were we kind and loving toward all?
• What could we have done better?
• Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
• Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Happy 4th of July to anyone celebrating that today.

Today I have already: 

• Had a lie in
• Had breakfast
• Had a shower
• Put the washing in

Thank you for your star-studded thread starter dear movingalong

deliver present to S

cafe w D. Neuroscience and ineffability

9-12  write with poms 

eat well

deliver parcel to Y 

1.30-3 prov with project

walk to NH and locate dentist,

secateurs

5 -6 St D 

Home and eat well 

check planner  

relax

check in

BED BY 11 (unlike tonight)

THINGS I DID WELL TODAY

made an appoint ment with a dentist THIS HAS TAKEN ME THREE YEARS. 

Stopped myself from playing games just in time

organised and delivered birthday ppresents

made proper meal

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

be more attentive to posture and exercises

got to bed earlier - this has become a really bad habit 

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR 

D'S encouragement

T's ccalming influence

My friendly neighbourhood