Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Well, I submitted my stuff on Sunday but since then I have not had the usual sense of relief/euphoria: I cannot help but feel disappointed with what I produced. I have had three months but how much effective time have I spent on it?
Oh, well. Trying to be resilient and move on. Now I want to:
The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.
Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"
I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
"15 Points" point 5 says:
5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.
My Plan is this:
read "15 Points"
Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God
:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
?capture all * tasks here
j task
:) do tasks
:) put away clothes
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw
11:43am :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 23hrs 17min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (23min, 12:03-12:26pm 7/1 email reply but unplanned)
It's been 04days 12hrs 51min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 26min, 9:26-10:52pm 6/27 researched remote VKM-Audio; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3,6,8,5,1,2 old-new)
It's been 11days 07hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 5min, 2:37-4:42am 6/21 early morning surfinq; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12,9,8 )
It's been 19days 08hrs 17min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 20 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >98 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 234 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~334 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 19days 00hrs 58min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)
When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).
Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
- several times
Do we owe an apology?
- to god, yes. Sorry god.
Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
Were we kind and loving toward all?
- mostly
What could we have done better?
- off plan a little this morning, could not finish everything before appt.
- had lousy, unfulfilling appt w/ unemployment agency. Affected my mood. If i fully trusted God and allowed him to be Present in my life, i would not have had to suffer any ill affects.
- i suffered from several bouts of agitation / anger / frustration.
- I attribute these to withdrawal symptoms of not getting my hit from being impulsive with tasks and time
Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
- yes, a lot of the time
Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)
The way "15 points" and meditating on God's Mercy and Patience and Wisdom and Omniscience transformed my mood from very grumpy to positive, hopeful, happy. I love it when that happens.
Good appt w/ Dr.
Particularly good phone meeting.
When i was getting behind schedule this morning, i realized it, checked my appt time, and adjusted my time to get there on time (well i was actually 5 min late).
Vic 7/2/13
show up (done), exer, pan, follow thrOugh
marcelor Tuesday CI
Well, I submitted my stuff on Sunday but since then I have not had the usual sense of relief/euphoria: I cannot help but feel disappointed with what I produced. I have had three months but how much effective time have I spent on it?
Oh, well. Trying to be resilient and move on. Now I want to:
shower and get dressed
errand * 2
start on 2 mtg docs
Good work marcelor! Small
Good work marcelor! Small steps, big destinations!
thank you, thesis!
good to see you here :-)
katia july 2
more stuff!
-email finaid-email careercenter-email math prof-job apps 1 / 2/ 3/ 4 / 5EFF YEAH-dressed/teeth/hair-follow up HDand 1 other-call hardware place
-call SL
-make healthy dinner-dishesms tuesday
yesterday i missed a deadline but got a 24 hour extention. I must use this wisely.
bursts on statement for 1hr (1,2)send to bfill out restask re codeemail it by 3!Tuesday Blue-eyes
I am so tired and there's so much to do. The procrastination monster is peering around the corner. Thank you, PA, for being there!
1. one hour for client (almost finished project!!)
2. Lesson plans!
3. Make one big to-do list
4. Finish laundry
5. groceries
6. Walk dog before 1 pm
clement ci - day 234 attempting abstinence, 154 from self
Abstinence from unplanned time.
Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"
My Plan is this:
:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
?capture all * tasks here
j task
:) do tasks
:) put away clothes
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw
11:43am :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 23hrs 17min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (23min, 12:03-12:26pm 7/1 email reply but unplanned)
It's been 04days 12hrs 51min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 26min, 9:26-10:52pm 6/27 researched remote VKM-Audio; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3,6,8,5,1,2 old-new)
It's been 11days 07hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 5min, 2:37-4:42am 6/21 early morning surfinq; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12,9,8 )
It's been 19days 08hrs 17min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 20 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >98 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 234 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~334 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 19days 00hrs 58min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)
When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).
- several times
- to god, yes. Sorry god.
- mostly
- off plan a little this morning, could not finish everything before appt.
- had lousy, unfulfilling appt w/ unemployment agency. Affected my mood. If i fully trusted God and allowed him to be Present in my life, i would not have had to suffer any ill affects.
- i suffered from several bouts of agitation / anger / frustration.
- I attribute these to withdrawal symptoms of not getting my hit from being impulsive with tasks and time
- yes, a lot of the time
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)
The way "15 points" and meditating on God's Mercy and Patience and Wisdom and Omniscience transformed my mood from very grumpy to positive, hopeful, happy. I love it when that happens.
Good appt w/ Dr.
Particularly good phone meeting.
When i was getting behind schedule this morning, i realized it, checked my appt time, and adjusted my time to get there on time (well i was actually 5 min late).
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank Mole for starting this trend.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting
2. Take shower
3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting
4. Go to group therapy at 9 a.m.
5. Eat breakfast
6. Go to vocational group at 11 a.m.
7. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line
8. Go to my mom's apartment
9. Warm up dinner
10. Test blood sugar twice
11. Go to the 6 p.m. telephone OA meeting12. Go to the 7 p.m. telephone OA meeting
13. Go to the 8:30 p.m. telephone ACA meeting
14. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting
Thanks for letting me share
Mole's Check in
7.30 cafe J and C
delivery to L or T?
8.30-9.30 tidy bedroom, kitchen and living room
9.30. - 12 work on writing.
lunch
1.30-3.30 project at prov
che ck in w L and T
July Planning 30 mins
declutter 30mins
exercises
eat
relax
check in
bed by 11
THINGS I DID WELL TODAY
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR
C 's storyre scrubbing out swimming ppools
T creating calm
revelation of SW's insights
dreaming