Sunday 30th June 2013

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

I need to fix my sleeping schedule. Today I woke up at 3:00.  After the
alarm went off I did some stretches, and got up at around 3:03pm.  Tomorrow I'm waking up by 1:30pm because I have an appointment at 2pm.  Tuesday
I'm waking up by 12:30pm, etc.  Until I start waking up at 8am again.  I
think I may have an unconscious desire to isolate so that I can get a
vacation from reality, but sleeping when it's light out is really not
fun, and having to be awake at night is also not fun.  Missing phone
calls that are important is also not fun.  While I may be looking
for a break from people, I prefer to be sleeping at night.

So I'm going to have to get ready for sleep by 4:20am.  Oh well. I've set my alarm clock to go off at 1:21pm, because I need to eat something or have some tea, before I leave.I tod myself these would be some tired days; and that is what it is.

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website,k the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

7. Cook and eat breakfast

8. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

9. Test blood sugar twice

10. Take shower

11. Get dressed

12. Go to the store

13. Put away my groceries

14. Do numbers

15. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

16. Write three questions for tonight's meeting

17. Go to the 3:30 p.m. online PA meeting

18. Go to the 5:30 p.m. telephone DA meeting

19. Cook and eat dinner

20. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

21. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

22. Go to the PA workshop at 9 p.m.

Thanks for letting me share

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

• I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
  • "15 Points" point 5 says:
    

    5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.

    My Plan is this:

    1. read "15 Points"
    2. Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 9am church
:) sort tasks
?capture all * tasks here
j task
:) do tasks
:) put away clothes
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw

4:03pm:
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 19hrs 46min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (29min, 19:48-20:17 6/29 search for and dl 17 new beginnings graphics)
It's been 02days 17hrs 11min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 26min, 9:26-10:52pm 6/27 researched remote VKM-Audio; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3,6,8,5,1,2 old-new)
It's been 09days 11hrs 21min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 5min, 2:37-4:42am 6/21 early morning surfinq; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12,9,8 )
It's been 17days 12hrs 37min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 18 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >96 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 232 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~332 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 17days 05hrs 18min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)

When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).

• Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
  - yes twice
• Do we owe an apology?
• Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
• Were we kind and loving toward all?
  - not all day
• What could we have done better?
  - not gone off plan at bedtime
• Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
• Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Church sermon. Quote on Facebook.
Overcoming H.A.L.T. Angry.
Recovery in general.
Fun with Family