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Friday 28th June 2013
Friday 28th June 2013
"Come, come, whoever you are.
Wonderer, worshipper, lover of leaving.
It doesn't matter.
Ours is not a caravan of despair.
Come, come again.
Even if you have broken your vow one thousand times,
Come, yet again, come, come.
Ours is the portal of hope, come as you are."
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fudoshin: checkin: 5:23pm
Please do not leave advice or feedback. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
I need to fix my sleeping schedule. Tomorrow I'm waking up by 4pm. Sunday I'm waking up by 3pm. Monday I'm waking up by 1:30pm. Tuesday I'm waking up by 12:30pm, etc. Until I start waking up at 8am again. I think I may have an unconscious desire to isolate so that I can get a vacation from reality, but sleeping when it's light out is really not fun, and having to be awake at night is also not fun. Missing phone calls that are important is also not fun, although maybe I am looking for a break from people, I prefer to be sleeping at night.
So I'm going to have to get ready for sleep by 7am, which is weird, b/c I did that. Oh well. I'll have a couple tired days. Setting my alarm clock for 4pm tomorrow and calling my chiropractor to cancel my appointment tomorrow.
show up (done), exer, plan, flllow through
good reading today;
Friday, June 28, 2013 When Things Don't Work
when faced with a problem, we may attempt to solve it in a particular
way. When that way doesn't work, we may continue trying to solve the
problem in that same way.
get frustrated, try harder, get more frustrated, and then exert more
energy and influence into forcing the same solution that we have already
tried and that didn't work.
That approach makes us crazy. It tends to get us stuck and trapped. It is the stuff that unmanageability is made of.
can get caught in this same difficult pattern in relationships, in
tasks, in any area of our life. We initiate something, it doesn't work,
doesn't flow, we feel badly, then try the same approach harder, even
though it's not working and flowing.
it's appropriate not to give up and to try harder. Sometimes, it's more
appropriate to let go, detach, and stop trying so hard.
it doesn't work, if it doesn't flow, maybe life is trying to tell us
something. Life is a gentle teacher. She doesn't always send neon road
signs to guide us. Sometimes, the signs are more subtle. Something not
working may be a sign!
If we have become frustrated by repeated efforts that aren't producing
desired results, we may be trying to force ourselves down the wrong
path. Sometimes, a different solution is appropriate. Sometimes, a
different path opens up. Often, the answer will emerge more clearly in
the quietness of letting go than it will in the urgency, frustration,
and desperation of pushing harder.
Learn to recognize when something isn't working or isn't flowing. Step back and wait for clear guidance.
I will not make myself crazy by repeatedly trying solutions that have
proven themselves unsuccessful. If something isn't working, I will step
back and wait for guidance.
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie
clement ci - day 230 attempting abstinence, 150 from self
That poem reminds me of a bible verse I love that has helped me numerous times: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." -- Jesus, in Matthew 11:28-29
It is the transformation of the soul via His "yoke" that provides rest.
Abstinence from unplanned time.
Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"
My Plan is this:
start Instant Boss
11am pa phone mtg
?capture all * tasks here
put away clothes
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 00hrs 10min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (15min, 2:02-2:17pm 6/28 reading about the 10 commandments)
It's been 00days 15hrs 35min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 26min, 9:26-10:52pm 6/27 researched remote VKM-Audio; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3,6,8,5,1,2 old-new)
It's been 07days 09hrs 45min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 5min, 2:37-4:42am 6/21 early morning surfinq; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12,9,8 )
It's been 15days 11hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 16 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >94 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 230 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~330 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 15days 03hrs 42min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)
When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
Do It Now goals today DONE
1. take a very small step with apps DONE
2. R ken maybe? DONE
money bal ckbk DONE
345 DRG DONE
tax forms for YKP
tax take one small step
marcelor CI Friday
I want to start checking in regularly. Today:
Work with poms: set quantitative targets
Start a list for next week to keep mind clear
Pay student loan
fudoshin: 77 days of exercise: day 76
Please do not leave advice or feedback. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of
the following format: running, jogging, a combination of
running-walking-jogging, swimming, walking, attending a fitness class
(something that requires me to leave the house), stationary biking,
biking, dance class, aerobic class, yoga, karate (or other martial
arts). I am not requiring myself to wear the running clothes, but on
days I have running in my schedule I would like to remind myself that by
doing the running, I am moving forward, and that it is the only way to
move forward in my schedule. Also, everything is easier after I've
already acclimated my body to do it once or n times. I am doing
running/jogging plan. I made some progress last week of running 2
minutes, walking2 minutes, repeating that seven times, but I want to
finish that week within a timely period and move on to running 2 minutes
and walking 1 minute (times 10). The ultimate goal is to be able to
run/jog for 30 minutes. I want to run a marathon at the end of this
year or January of next. (I have always wanted to run the Honolulu
Marathon; I don't even know if this is something I can do, but I want to
do it.) I have year after year pledged to do a second marathon and
have not, b/c I did not make headway on my running plan.
commitments in my life, because challenges in the running sphere force
me to have other commitments in my life met so that I can exercise
unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it.
training unit per day of the 28-week running plan I came up with, which
is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan.
constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be
running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have
done those things last night.
have confidence in myself as a person interacting with others.
positively affects my whole life. Since I'm making a promise here to do
it, that's going to help me to keep my promise to myself so that I have
faith in myself that at some point during the day I will exericse,
instead of feeling like crap because I don't even trust myself to get to
the gym or go on a walk.
with myself and helps me to be able to live with myself.
Walked eight minutes.
I can't sleep, so I posted this here.
tidy readings laundry s & h p appointment journal buy files meet c dinner rest tidy pack for r laundry accounts wrap baby gift hair BS 10 BS 11 BS 12 BS 13 fix files s + h rehab excercises
Mole's check in
What a beautiful thread starter movingalong - it nearly made me cry.
7.30 cafe - respond to K, L, And B. notes on next SW chapter
9-12 work with discipline AND intuition , half hour noting, walk, half hour noting walk, half hour noting
lunch with K ref to GB
prov with project
4.30 walk w C
7.40 L to pick me up for dinner
bed by 11
THINGS I DID WELL TODAY
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank movingalong for starting this trend.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting 2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting 3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting
4. Go to the 7:30 a.m. telephone OA meeting
5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting
6. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line
7. Cook and eat breakfast
8. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting
9. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting
10. Prayer and meditation morning and evening
11. Take shower
12. Get dressed
13. Warm up dinner
14. Eat snack
15. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.
16. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting
17. Go to the taped CLA meeting
Thanks for letting me share