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Friday 28th June 2013

Friday 28th June 2013

"Come, come, whoever you are.
Wonderer, worshipper, lover of leaving.
It doesn't matter.
Ours is not a caravan of despair.
Come, come again.
Even if you have broken your vow one thousand times,
Come, yet again, come, come.
Ours is the portal of hope, come as you are."

-- Rumi

fudoshin: checkin: 5:23pm

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 


I need to fix my sleeping schedule.  Tomorrow I'm waking up by 4pm.  Sunday I'm waking up by 3pm.  Monday I'm waking up by 1:30pm.  Tuesday I'm waking up by 12:30pm, etc.  Until I start waking up at 8am again.  I think I may have an unconscious desire to isolate so that I can get a vacation from reality, but sleeping when it's light out is really not fun, and having to be awake at night is also not fun.  Missing phone calls that are important is also not fun, although maybe I am looking for a break from people, I prefer to be sleeping at night.

So I'm going to have to get ready for sleep by 7am, which is weird, b/c I did that.  Oh well.  I'll have a couple tired days.  Setting my alarm clock for 4pm tomorrow and calling my chiropractor to cancel my appointment tomorrow.

Vic 6/28/13

 show up (done), exer, plan, flllow through

good reading today;

Friday, June 28, 2013 When Things Don't Work

when faced with a problem, we may attempt to solve it in a particular
way. When that way doesn't work, we may continue trying to solve the
problem in that same way.

We may
get frustrated, try harder, get more frustrated, and then exert more
energy and influence into forcing the same solution that we have already
tried and that didn't work.

That approach makes us crazy. It tends to get us stuck and trapped. It is the stuff that unmanageability is made of.

can get caught in this same difficult pattern in relationships, in
tasks, in any area of our life. We initiate something, it doesn't work,
doesn't flow, we feel badly, then try the same approach harder, even
though it's not working and flowing.

it's appropriate not to give up and to try harder. Sometimes, it's more
appropriate to let go, detach, and stop trying so hard.

it doesn't work, if it doesn't flow, maybe life is trying to tell us
something. Life is a gentle teacher. She doesn't always send neon road
signs to guide us. Sometimes, the signs are more subtle. Something not
working may be a sign!

Let go.
If we have become frustrated by repeated efforts that aren't producing
desired results, we may be trying to force ourselves down the wrong
path. Sometimes, a different solution is appropriate. Sometimes, a
different path opens up. Often, the answer will emerge more clearly in
the quietness of letting go than it will in the urgency, frustration,
and desperation of pushing harder.

Learn to recognize when something isn't working or isn't flowing. Step back and wait for clear guidance.

I will not make myself crazy by repeatedly trying solutions that have
proven themselves unsuccessful. If something isn't working, I will step
back and wait for guidance.

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie


clement ci - day 230 attempting abstinence, 150 from self

That poem reminds me of a bible verse I love that has helped me numerous times: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." -- Jesus, in Matthew 11:28-29
It is the transformation of the soul via His "yoke" that provides rest.

Abstinence from unplanned time.
  • The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
  • The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

  • I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
    • "15 Points" point 5 says:
      5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.

      My Plan is this:

      1. read "15 Points"
      2. Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God

start Instant Boss
v task
time log
quiet time
r task
s task
t task
11am pa phone mtg
sort tasks
?capture all * tasks here
j task
do tasks
put away clothes
pre-plan tmrw

2:27pm :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 00hrs 10min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (15min, 2:02-2:17pm 6/28 reading about the 10 commandments)
It's been 00days 15hrs 35min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 26min, 9:26-10:52pm 6/27 researched remote VKM-Audio; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3,6,8,5,1,2 old-new)
It's been 07days 09hrs 45min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 5min, 2:37-4:42am 6/21 early morning surfinq; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12,9,8 )
It's been 15days 11hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 16 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >94 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 230 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~330 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 15days 03hrs 42min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)

When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).

  • Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
  • Do we owe an apology?
  • Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
  • Were we kind and loving toward all?
  • What could we have done better?
  • Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
  • Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

the touch of the master's hand:

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb


Do It Now goals today DONE

1. take a very small step with apps DONE

2. R ken maybe?  DONE

money bal ckbk  DONE

sched  DID

Shimmy DONE


Order checks 



tax forms for YKP

tax take one small step 

marcelor CI Friday

I want to start checking in regularly. Today:

Work with poms: set quantitative targets

Start a list for next week to keep mind clear

Pay student loan



fudoshin: 77 days of exercise: day 76

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome.

The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of
the following format: running, jogging, a combination of
running-walking-jogging, swimming, walking, attending a fitness class
(something that requires me to leave the house), stationary biking,
biking, dance class, aerobic class, yoga, karate (or other martial
arts).  I am not requiring myself to wear the running clothes, but on
days I have running in my schedule I would like to remind myself that by
doing the running, I am moving forward, and that it is the only way to
move forward in my schedule.  Also, everything is easier after I've
already acclimated my body to do it once or n times.  I am doing
this because:

  1. My main reason for continuing is that I want to move forward with my
    running/jogging plan.  I made some progress last week of running 2
    minutes, walking2 minutes, repeating that seven times, but I want to
    finish that week within a timely period and move on to running 2 minutes
    and walking 1 minute (times 10).  The ultimate goal is to be able to
    run/jog for 30 minutes.  I want to run a marathon at the end of this
    year or January of next.  (I have always wanted to run the Honolulu
    Marathon; I don't even know if this is something I can do, but I want to
    do it.)  I have year after year pledged to do a second marathon and
    have not, b/c I did not make headway on my running plan.
  2. I feel that running or exercise will force me to own up to other
    commitments in my life, because challenges in the running sphere force
    me to have other commitments in my life met so that I can exercise
    unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
  3. I want to feel good about myself when I go outside, and
  4. I don't trust myself to exercise at the end of the day or at some point
    before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it.  
  5. Being accountable to others by making a commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself.
  6. The objective is to stick to the running plan by doing at least one
    training unit per day of the 28-week running plan I came up with, which
    is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan.  
  7. practicicing being on time with this commitment, will assist me in being on time in other areas.
  8. It will also help me to practice willpower for other activities that require energy.
  9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable in what I am doing, b/c I am not
    constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be
    running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have
    done those things last night.
  10. Exericse helps me to avoid feelings of not  being adequate, because I
    have confidence in myself as a person interacting with others.
  11. I want to build trust in myself by committing to something small that
    positively affects my whole life.  Since I'm making a promise here to do
    it, that's going to help me to keep my promise to myself so that I have
    faith in myself that at some point during the day I will exericse,
    instead of feeling like crap because I don't even trust myself to get to
    the gym or go on a walk.
  12. Exercise makes everything tighter, which makes me feel more comfortable
    with myself and helps me to be able to live with myself.
  13. I want to be able to wear the clothes in my closet, and throw out the ones that are not useful to me.


Walked eight minutes.


I can't sleep, so I posted this here.


Oh Rumi-wordsmith of the soul! Thanks movingalong!
  • tidy
  • readings
  • laundry
  • s & h
  • p appointment
  • journal
  • buy files
  • meet c
  • dinner 
  • rest 
  • tidy
  • floors
  • pack for r
  • laundry
  • accounts
  • wrap baby gift
  • hair
  • BS 10
  • BS 11
  • BS 12
  • BS 13
  • put printing away
  • fix files
  • redo 13
  • s + h
  • tidy bedroom 
  • laundry away
  • put originals away
  • rehab excercises



Mole's check in

What a beautiful thread starter movingalong - it nearly made me cry.

7.30 cafe - respond to K, L, And B. notes on next SW chapter


9-12 work with discipline AND intuition , half hour noting, walk, half hour noting walk, half hour noting

lunch with K ref to GB

prov with project

4.30 walk w C


ring P's 

7.40 L to pick me up for dinner 

bed by 11





My Day Today

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank movingalong for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 7:30 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

6. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

7. Cook and eat breakfast

8. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

9. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

10. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

11. Take shower

12. Get dressed

13. Warm up dinner

14. Eat snack

15. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.

16. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting

17. Go to the taped CLA meeting

Thanks for letting me share