Monday 10th June 2013

So much to do before I go to bed:

X finish m to d (15 mins)
X finish m to w (10 mins)
X draft m for f (15 mins)
X draft a in support of m for f (30 mins)
X finish m to cc (10 mins)
X finish a in support of m for cc (10 mins)
X draft other a in support of m for cc (10 mins)
X decide whether to revise a in support of m for c (5 mins)
-email AJZ re: m for c (3 mins)
-make lunch for tomorrow (20 mins)
-pack briefcase (10 mins)
-log hours from today (15 mins)

I estimated the amount of time each thing will take - 153 mins total or 2.5 hours. That would mean I'd be up til 1am. I need to get up at 6am. That would give me 5 hours of sleep. I'm really feeling like I'm getting sick. Wondering if I should stay up now or go to sleep & get up early. Or I could do some stuff now & some in the morning. Maybe I can get things done more quickly than anticipated. Maybe I'll start on stuff and see how it goes. OK, online timer set to go.

OK, I did all the substantive work, which took 2 hours. Yay me! Now I'm going to bed. I'll get up a little early to make lunch, and packing the briefcase won't take as long since the files are ready to go.

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome.

The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of
the following format: running, jogging, a combination of
running-walking-jogging, swimming, walking, attending a fitness class
(something that requires me to leave the house), stationary biking,
biking, dance class, aerobic class, yoga, karate (or other martial
arts).  I am not requiring myself to wear the running clothes, but on
days I have running in my schedule I would like to remind myself that by
doing the running, I am moving forward, and that it is the only way to
move forward in my schedule.  Also, everything is easier after I've
already acclimated my body to do it once or n times.  I am doing
this because:

1. My main reason for continuing is that I want to move forward with my
   running/jogging plan.  I made some progress last week of running 2
   minutes, walking2 minutes, repeating that seven times, but I want to
   finish that week within a timely period and move on to running 2 minutes
   and walking 1 minute (times 10).  The ultimate goal is to be able to
   run/jog for 30 minutes.  I want to run a marathon at the end of this
   year or January of next.  (I have always wanted to run the Honolulu
   Marathon; I don't even know if this is something I can do, but I want to
   do it.)  I have year after year pledged to do a second marathon and
   have not, b/c I did not make headway on my running plan.
2. I feel that running or exercise will force me to own up to other
   commitments in my life, because challenges in the running sphere force
   me to have other commitments in my life met so that I can exercise
   unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
3. I want to feel good about myself when I go outside, and
4. I don't trust myself to exercise at the end of the day or at some point
   before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it.  
5. Being accountable to others by making a commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself.
6. The objective is to stick to the running plan by doing at least one
   training unit per day of the 28-week running plan I came up with, which
   is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan.  
7. practicicing being on time with this commitment, will assist me in being on time in other areas.
8. It will also help me to practice willpower for other activities that require energy.
9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable in what I am doing, b/c I am not
   constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be
   running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have
   done those things last night.
10. Exericse helps me to avoid feelings of not  being adequate, because I
    have confidence in myself as a person interacting with others.
11. I want to build trust in myself by committing to something small that
    positively affects my whole life.  Since I'm making a promise here to do
    it, that's going to help me to keep my promise to myself so that I have
    faith in myself that at some point during the day I will exericse,
    instead of feeling like crap because I don't even trust myself to get to
    the gym or go on a walk.
12. Exercise makes everything tighter, which makes me feel more comfortable
    with myself and helps me to be able to live with myself.
13. I want to be able to wear the clothes in my closet, and throw out the ones that are not useful to me.

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This plan has had a positive impact on all areas of my life, including my timing and planning -- allowing me to act as if I have an investment in myself, which is just enough for me.  And that's okay.  It's okay to start small.  It's okay to have other people's faith in me be an impetus for emulating self-esteem.

Walked twelve minutes, 35 seconds thus far today.

Housework:

•   fill dishwasher and generally tidy kitchen
• pick up stuff from hall floor

Job

• CV

Hats

•     finish ONE at least

Contact

• phone Mum 

it's been a while and I have months of unstructured work time ahead of me. I am recomitting to these check ins.

• email af
• write down deadlines
• burts first prop (tally) 
• reply to text
• authenic aft
• gym in evening

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
cl
:) time log
:) quiet time, abbreviated
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:( 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
*capture all * tasks here
j task
pl w
* pud df 6/14 can email sat
gen batt
* brk: trm r
pud re-do tasks based on new info
bill client ku - 30min
*pud raid - 4 hrs
pud av i - 5 hours
pud yt
client hrc jun 30
pu-l ip p em
pu-h rm pp

brk: p job, call wed
brk: ck shim
brk: uem 6/24 10am
brk: log c.s.l & j
brk: sw
brk: crit art
brk: clr flsh
blog legalnotice
client o
*lc sign form

*tx - 4hrs
*nativ - 20 min
pu wrk - iDev - 2hrs
kuf wrk - recontact - 15 min
later: ht task
put away clothes
reflection
pre-plan tmrw

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:38-39

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

6. Go to the 9:30 a.m. telephone PA check-in

7. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

8. Cook and eat breakfast

9. Take shower

10. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

11. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

12. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

13. Get dressed

14. Go to the library

15. Go to fill my perscription

16. Eat dinner

17. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.

Thanks for letting me share