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Thursday, 28th March 2013

You can't wait for inspiration,

you have to go after it with a club. 

Jack London 

RisingUp Check-In 3/29


On this Good Friday I want to die to my old ways, let all of my compulsions be crucified along with Him. I desperately need a turnaround.  

No, I can't wait for inspiration or motivation for that matter. I have to want it, and go after it.

I feel like screaming right now I am so frustrated. I don't dare say I've reached my "bottom" anymore because I already hit bottom and crashed right through it too many times to count.

I ask God for a miraculous change this weekend in my will so that my actions line up with the good life I want. I ask to see things differently so my motivations are healthy. 

Thank you Lord, in Jesus' name I pray, amen. 

kromer 10:20 CI

I'm sort of distractable today, so I'm gonna stick to one task at a time:
First, I'm going to work on computational tasks:
->Graph mutations by position
->Count mutation pileups in each position (working on this now)
->Make permutation files (working on this now)

ms thursday

  • take exccess to s
  • finish cleaning
  • edit!!!
  • ask ep
  • email bah


All the best with your scary phone call -Knitfisher 

@ Mole - thank you

Haven't made it yet. Am avoiding. So ridiculous. It's for more work too, but am worried I'm too expensive.

I just went and hid so I

I just went and hid so I couldn't hear the message being left in case it was the person who I need to call.

to knitfisher


hi knitfisher, just want to let you know you're not alone with this type of thing ... i am the queen of avoiding phone calls and hiding to not hear (or see) a message is exactly what I have done many times.

Today I have to call the phone co. (yet again) to get an extension and it's one of those repeat scary calls I have to face.  I cope with it by praying beforehand to my HP to help me get the outcome I want. It has always worked so I have to keep trusting. 


Oh dear, poor Knitfisher. We do so undervalue ourselves - And create scenarios about what the other person is going to think and say, and maybe even having to negotiate on the hop. I have been known not to send out accounts because I find it so hard to ask for money!

i hope a daring self enters your body for a moment and makes the call before you realise it - and that you then find yourself dealing with dread caller with  inner confidence and the knowledge that he or she is very fortunate to be being given the benefit of your time.

@mole about THE phone call

Yep. I do work for a friend and although I charge her way below everyone else, I'd almost rather do it for free than send her an invoice. Especially as she's not doing so well.

I don't know why I self sabotage like this, it's just crazy. I've not taken on any brand new clients for 6 months because of what was going on  in my life. But now is the time I can, and I thought I was being brave. It's just phone calls really get me. I find the " do it now, ready or not" of them really stressful.

i will send him an email  later today pleading bank holiday (so as to excuse not calling him today at least - partly justified) and say he can either try me again today, or he can let me know to call him,  or I wlil call him tues when we are back to work.

 I am up  at 4am thinking about this. Not good. Will try and have a read and get back to sleep now I have decided what to do.

 Thanks for thinking of me yet again Mole. Wish we were in compatible time zones! 

Vic 3/28/13

show up (done), exer, plan

Thanks for starter Mole, goes hand in hand with my meditation today:

James 2_18-24 :

18 But
someone will say, “One person has faith, another has actions.” My
answer is, “Show me how anyone can have faith without actions. I will
show you my faith by my actions.”
19 Do you believe that there is only one God? Good! The demons also believe—and tremble with fear. 20 You fool! Do you want to be shown that faith without actions is useless?[a] 21 How was our ancestor Abraham put right with God? It was through his actions, when he offered his son Isaac on the altar. 22 Can't you see? His faith and his actions worked together; his faith was made perfect through his actions. 23 And
the scripture came true that said, “Abraham believed God, and because
of his faith God accepted him as righteous.” And so Abraham was called
God's friend.
24 You see, then, that it is by our actions that we are put right with God, and not by our faith alone.


Knitfisher's Check in Thurs 28th March

Checking in while I let my breakfast go down. Trying to make good use of today. Bit late starting, but was catching up on sleep. 

Today I have already: 

  • Eaten breakfast
  • put washing on
  • put my workout clothes on 

Today I will: 

  • Do my first training run/walk (accept my limitations if it's too hard - I can always repeat) completed all the run portions. Well done me
  • Have shower
  • dry/hang washing
  • Do an hour of work for W
  • Do work for P. Say 6 poms at least, moe if available 
  • Knee exercises
  • Have LUNCH
  • Take pictures of things for FB
  • Put pics up on FB
  • Wash up
  • Study for 1 pom. JUST ONE.
  • Smile - you are doing your best. 

clement ci - day 138 attempting abstinence, 58 from self

Abstinence from unplanned time.

  • The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
  • The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self.

We reviewed our fears thoroughly. We put them on paper, even though we had no resentment in connection with them. We asked ourselves why we had them. Wasn't it because self-reliance failed us? Self-reliance was good as far as it went, but it didn't go far enough. Some of us once had great self-confidence, but it didn't fully solve the fear problem, or any other. When it made us cocky, it was worse.

Perhaps there is a better way - we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.

We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68 AA Big Book.

3:08am night before :
It's been 0hrs 08min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0hrs 08min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min
It's been 0day 0hrs 08min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (6hrs).
It's been 2day 1hrs 38min since i last relied on self.
These may not be the right durations. i'll think about them again on a designated break.

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) sched
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am appt
:) sort tasks
:) prj task
:) j task
bill pud (started)
pud wrk - power supplies (trk: wed eod) - thu? fri? sat?
p wrk
kuf wrk
ka wrk (trk: wed eod) - thu? fri?
client ku sat?
later: g wrk
later: ht task
:) 730 Maundy thu service (powerful)
put away clothes
:-( reflection
:-( pre-plan tmwr

It's been 138 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~182 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week




the touch of the master's hand:

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb


My Day Today

I want to thsnk my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank Mole for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Take shower

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Get dressed

5. Fix and eat breakfast

6. Go to group therapy at 9 a.m.

7. Go to individual therapy at 10:30 a.m.

8. Go to the 12 noon mass

9. Cook and eat lunch

10. Get medicine ready for the next two weeks

11. Study for the test

12. Warm up and eat dinner

13. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

14. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Mole's check-in


7.30 cafe with D

9-12 write with focus on stakes and  H scene


2-3.30 prov with mem 

3.30 walk to town

Eum, eggs, and echinacea 

5 -6 simulator St D


check in  

prepare for tonight agenda and my content 

9pm CCskype conf


A really good and focussed morning 

forward leap with me concept

good planning 

calm ringing 


taken better care of my arm 

made myself proper food 


D s time and patience