Thursday, 28th March 2013

I'm sort of distractable today, so I'm gonna stick to one task at a time:
First, I'm going to work on computational tasks:
->Graph mutations by position
->Count mutation pileups in each position (working on this now)
->Make permutation files (working on this now)

show up (done), exer, plan

Thanks for starter Mole, goes hand in hand with my meditation today:

James 2_18-24 :

18 But
someone will say, “One person has faith, another has actions.” My
answer is, “Show me how anyone can have faith without actions. I will
show you my faith by my actions.” 19 Do you believe that there is only one God? Good! The demons also believe—and tremble with fear. 20 You fool! Do you want to be shown that faith without actions is useless?[a] 21 How was our ancestor Abraham put right with God? It was through his actions, when he offered his son Isaac on the altar. 22 Can't you see? His faith and his actions worked together; his faith was made perfect through his actions. 23 And
the scripture came true that said, “Abraham believed God, and because
of his faith God accepted him as righteous.” And so Abraham was called
God's friend. 24 You see, then, that it is by our actions that we are put right with God, and not by our faith alone.

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self.

We reviewed our fears thoroughly. We put them on paper, even though we had no resentment in connection with them. We asked ourselves why we had them. Wasn't it because self-reliance failed us? Self-reliance was good as far as it went, but it didn't go far enough. Some of us once had great self-confidence, but it didn't fully solve the fear problem, or any other. When it made us cocky, it was worse.

Perhaps there is a better way - we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.

We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68 AA Big Book.

3:08am night before :
It's been 0hrs 08min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0hrs 08min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min
It's been 0day 0hrs 08min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (6hrs).
It's been 2day 1hrs 38min since i last relied on self.
These may not be the right durations. i'll think about them again on a designated break.

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) sched
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am appt
:) sort tasks
:) prj task
:) j task
bill pud (started)
p.o.
pud wrk - power supplies (trk: wed eod) - thu? fri? sat?
p wrk
kuf wrk
ka wrk (trk: wed eod) - thu? fri?
client ku sat?
later: g wrk
later: ht task
:) 730 Maundy thu service (powerful)
put away clothes
:-( reflection
:-( pre-plan tmwr

It's been 138 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~182 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week

THINGS I DID WELL TODAY

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR