Friday 29th March 2013

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self.

We reviewed our fears thoroughly. We put them on paper, even though we had no resentment in connection with them. We asked ourselves why we had them. Wasn't it because self-reliance failed us? Self-reliance was good as far as it went, but it didn't go far enough. Some of us once had great self-confidence, but it didn't fully solve the fear problem, or any other. When it made us cocky, it was worse.

Perhaps there is a better way - we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.

We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68 AA Big Book.

12:00pm noon :
It's been 0hrs 12min since i last got distracted.
It's been 1hrs 00min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min
It's been 1day 9hrs 00min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (6hrs).
It's been 3day 10hrs 30min since i last relied on self.
It's been 139 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~183 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
These may not be the right durations. i'll think about them again on a designated break.

:) ci
start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) sched
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
:) prj task
:) j task
:) bill pud
:) p.o.
ebands
deposits
pud wrk - power supplies (trk: wed eod) - thu? fri? sat?
p wrk
kuf wrk
ka wrk (trk: wed eod) - thu? fri?
client ku sat?
later: g wrk
later: ht task
put away clothes
reflection
pre-plan tmwr

1:56pm : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. <15min. ty God for another chance.

2:45pm : "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things." - Philippians 4:8. I guess this the "how" or part of it behind Paul's exhortation earlier "Rejoice in the lord; again i will say; Rejoice." (Phil 4:4)

THINGS I DID WELL TODAY

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR

The Garden of Gethsemene where Jesus suffered the anguish of taking on himself the world's sin. He begged for God to take it away from him, but also said "Your will be done." That inspires me today.

My radio station's song log (used in designated break) yes.com/wawz

I completed 2 tasks on my list using small blocks of time here and there and today i could check them off w/o ever allocating time for them. God your are good and know how to give me good gifts. TY!

Funny old day today. Good friday is a bank holiday here, but we're not leaving for our trip until this evening.

Today I have already: 

• Done my strength workout
• had a shower
• had breakfast
• written the menu and shopping list
• replied to my friend
• bought vitamins online

Today I will: 

• Do online shop (45 mins)
• Have lunch (30 mins)
• Write scary email, to replace scary phone call
• Pack bag (30 mins)
• Research for J (15 mins)
• Call J
• Do work for P until we need to leave (at least 3 poms) did 2
• Get ready to leave at 5pm
• Smile, because you're spending the weekend in beautiful countryside

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a,m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Eat breakfast

3. Take shower

4. Get dressed

5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting