Sunday 10th February 2013

Great quote, thanks. 

Today is a rough day, as was the past week. 

I'm trying to breathe through the constant anxiety. I mean, I feel physically filled with dread every minute. 

Yet again, I can't pay my bills. 

The house owner where I'm staying apparently wants me out, as do the teens who live here. They apparently don't like me, which is fine because I don't like them either. They are slovenly slobs.  I might have another opportunity to move to a nicer place though near here. I guess I'll find out soon enough. 

So, late on the rent, late on the phone, late on the car insurance. Late, late, late, late. 

I am dealing with my work paralysis with God who understands that it exists because of early childhood trauma and trauma from the hell of the last 4 years, not to mention the last decade. 

I am trying to realize that there are significant reasons why I have behaved with this sick level of avoidance. Issues with fear of (human) authority seem to be the biggest. 

Thank you to my Higher Power, the Lord Jesus Christ, for continuing to protect me, giving me safety and comfort. I love you, God, for all you have done and continue to do for me. 

show up (done), plan, exer
There is no wisdom, nor understanding, nor counsel against HP

Thanks for starter Jal, pa is my road to help me through.

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

4. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

5. Cook and eat breakfast

6. Wash dishes

7. Take shower

8. Declutter some mail

9. Go to the 2:30 p.m. online PA meeting

10. Type three questions for tonight's meeting

11. Cook and eat dinner

12. Wash dishes

13. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting

14. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

15. Go to the PA workshop at 9 p.m.

Thanks for letting me share

• get up at 7.00
• be at s at 8.00
• collect all list of objects needed
• I have a longer list and will be away from the computer, but the main to do is getting though that list and do so with confidence in the outcime and without feeling shame when I am vulnerabe.

322am early sat morn : planning early for the transition from the end of my weekend into real life. I'm feeling withdrawal.

:) arrive early for church for lyrics and communion
:) v task
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) arrive early for church for lyrics and communion
:) after church:
:) ci
:) quiet time
:) 12:40 rball
:) 1:20 wko tr
:-( prj task
:-( sort tasks
shovel do mon
:-( do tasks
:) 5pm mtg
:) step study