Is it common to experince intense anxiety & fear when trying to quit Procras?
Everytime i try to quit Procras i go through intense fear and anxiety (which triggers an almost OCD type response eg 'if i start tomorrow then it might not be the best day etc') . This seems to get worse the more i repeat the cycle(been doing it for nearly 20 years) i'e i'll start on X day, my thought 'oh that's not a good day because i'm feeling intense anxiety'( which i do when i try breaking the habit, to the point that it paralyzes me!), so then i'll go take 'a break for a few days and beat myself up..then try and start again..anxiety starts again and so the cycle repeats. I'll do ANYTHING to escape facing what i have to do, usually very unhealthy pleasure based things eg junk food, doing nothing, staying in bed, phoning mates,sex(just being honest), watching films, internet etc..
Any Illuminations or similar kind off feelings etc?
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