Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Friday October 26, 2012

HAPPY FRIDAY, EVERYBODY!

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

Promise One of PA:

We will release the need for perfectionism, and be willing to begin imperfectly trusting our Higher Power will reveal to us our enormous potential thus enabling us to trust our actions are good enough. 

Have a great proactive day!

Peace

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V 26-10-12

Won't use the regular format today. I will focus on the critical things only.

1. Chop wood


2. Bake for tomorrow 

3. Tarp  

4. Organise clothes, esp for tomorrow 

5. Coding (indeterminate amount of time; see what works) 

Bed around midnight for 1000 shift tomorrow

 

- "'It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things.' - da Vinci"

Hamlet's checkin

just 1 task that must be accomplished today:  Finish the VN LEP EOI.  Will work in 1-11/2 blocks interspersed with 15-20 minute blocks of household chores, meditation, exercise, etc.

elvira's evening

At last I have some energy! But I mustn't squander it.

Top things to do today are:

 

  • Empty and refill dishwasher
  • unpack suitcase done most of it
  • get food 
  • wash clothes

 

Innertruth's check-in

Went for along walk today and joined a friend for coffee.

Puttered around and wasted the last two hours.

To do's from noon to 5 pm

Finish newsletter

Prospect top 10 companies

Run

More prospecting

1/2 hour reading for tomorrow's class

Early dinner @ 4:30

Leave for work

Come home @ 11 pm

Wash blouse and some dishes

Set both alarms for 7:15 am

Go to bed @ midnight

Lavida CI Fri. 10/26

"Surrender and Take the Next Right Action"

Thank you lennon, and thank you clement for this: 

"Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves, but on God who raises the dead.
2 Corinthians 1:9"

This is also where I'm at, an incredibly difficult trial in my life that is truly forcing me on my knees to be totally dependent on God - and that's because he wants a relationship with me. 

I'm having a breakthrough today about my need for REAL recovery. Though I've been using good PA tools, I realize the tools in themselves are truly not enough for me to "recover." So I dug up all my 12 step workbooks and printouts, and I'm starting working Step 1 tonight ... when I am ready, I will seek a sponsor, but I know I'm just not quite there yet. I will use my 12-step literature and phone meetings to propel me towards getting a sponsorship when the moment comes. 

I'm not posting a task list here today because I want my focus to be on the bigger picture today which is the need for a recovery PROGRAM. And working step 1: 

We admitted that we were powerless over our procrastination, avoidance, underearning and underbeing and that our lives had become unmanageable. 

I really cannot recover on my own. I am finally admitting my powerlessness, and that I cannot succeed of my own will by myself. It won't work, and I am ready to release my stubbornness over this issue of trying to do it on my own. I am willing to at least start. Willing to be willing to be willing to reach out to other people in recovery. 

Another issue that has come up for me today that is VERY painful is that I feel ashamed that I have these problems. I wanted so badly to be a perfect person who has it all together! I am so ashamed at the failures in my life and so upset that I have this disease and that I can't fix it with my own disordered, dysfunctional mind. This is NOT to put myself down - just to release it, be open and honest that this is how I feel, and I believe that with recovery, I will learn to see my problem with a more positive and self-affirming outlook someday. 

Another insight today is that how I do my recovery program is how I will ultimately do my life. If I keep hiding and trying to do recovery by myself, I will keep hiding and trying to do life isolated by myself. IT WON'T WORK, BECAUSE IT JUST CAN'T. I admit that hiding is one of my worst character defects. Hiding, isolating, avoiding and procrastinating in every way that I possibly can. If I want to recover, I can't do these behaviors anymore, behaviors I've relied on for so long. I need help. I am scared to come out of hiding. I am trusting my HP to help me with this. 

I heard someone say that recovery is gradual, but a BREAKTHROUGH can happen in an instant. I do believe I am having a breakthrough today and very grateful for it. 

to lavida

i relate to your post alot. I keep backsliding from "i am powerless." I think you're on the right track. I pray God will help both of us ;^) I do feel we need his guidance or else we're lost.

I think a lot about whether to make my membership in this program public or not. I am very conflicted about it. Please continue to share developments in this area with you cuz they're helpful to me as i navigate this space too. I am glad that, at least, i can reveal it all here! If you want to contact me directly, you can do it by clicking on my name, cuz i allow being contacted in my profile. We also have a sunday night meeting that focuses on the steps. We're already up to step 4. Maybe not right for you cuz you're starting at step 1, but i thot i'd mention it.

the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb

bookmarks

to clement

 

Hi clement, thanks for your post! I relate to your posts a lot too and hearing about your journey helps me. I would like to work step 4 and believe I desperately need to, but part of my procrastination problem is avoiding that which I most need to do ... I'm working on this though. Started attending Big Book study phone meetings which I think are going to really help me. 

Feel free to stay in touch too here! I am also praying God helps us both ... 

Lavida

to lavida

totally understand. i skipped the meetings for a month. Maybe more. Just could not get myself to do what i know i needed to do. That the disease. I am so glad you found something that's working for you. That's what's important. May God help us both. I totally trust he will.

the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb

bookmarks

kromer 11 CI

This is going to be a really short workday, since I have a lot of church stuff to do, also I stayed up late last night.

That said, I want to accomplish a few things:
*Email list of ingredients to TH
*Come up with halloween costume
*1 pg of results (working on this now)
*Sketches of figures
*Nice figures for 1/2
*Mtg
*Teen halloween party

*Emails/texts about deacon mtg

*dNTPs
*Find slide

clement ci

It is amazing how often my pre-schedule bible reading relates directly to my life on a given day.

background: the bible teaches that we should depend on God, not ourselves.

But i go thru procrastination cycles of, 1) procrastinating, not getting things done, getting into trouble, and turning to God and depending on him, 2) doing better and starting to think i dont have a problem and that i can do this, 3) procrastinating again... on and on. It's a months-long cycle.

I have asked God to teach me to depend on him always, in good times and bad. Sometimes God uses trials, bad times, as a tool to teach his children, and i feel like that's happening to me.

Then i read this today:

Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves, but on God who raises the dead.
2 Corinthians 1:9

It's things like this that convince me that God has my back.

the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb

bookmarks

jay's friday

cook lentil stewSmile

wash up kitchen
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bedroom-new bed clothes and tidy
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pack all r's clothesSmile

organise living room COMPLETELY
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hoover living roomSmile

box ebay in spare room-all accessableSmile

phone about soupmaker

drop scripts

buy L
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bedtime bath early

it feels so different to be sitting in a living room that is tidy, maybe now i'll be able to think straight Smile

well i managed most things on my list except early to bed

Kodos check-in

Thanks, Lennon. 

So, my main goal is to clear my decks so I can start writing again on Nov. 1...


7:45 coffee/bb


8:00 clean/laundry


8:20 lectio divina

8:45 get ready for work

9:10-9:30 commute, call Dr. H

4:45 work (pr. rev. and NNWM) (breaks for lunch and e-mail)

4:45-6:00 bank, St., call Walter

6-10 mail, dinner, clean, lang, read 100 pp 

 

 

Hypatia's check-in

Feeling overwhelemd at work - several clients chasing me for work that hasn't been done.  Backlog of reports (again!). At least my afternoon client cancelled.

Baby steps - I'm not even going to post the full list here to start with because I'll only depress myself.

  • write up phone call
  • today's report

I managed to get a number of other bits of things done, including going through  a 3 week old pile of reports and letters that came in while I was on holiday.

After lunch and a quick trip to the stationers the plan is

2pm urgent letters

3pm LAC reports

5pm type up job planning diary

H.

Jack's check-in for the day

1. breakfast
2. start pomodoro log and contents so that I know how I've spent my day  
3. email YV
4. polish FT docs, email to MLC - 1 x pomo
5. weekly planning & check email inc email LT and LC - 1 x pomodoro
6. work on FT for 2 pomos then email to MLC
7. lunch at 12:30pm
8. read lease x 1 pomo
9. room tidy 25 mins x 1 pomos
10. confirm EW 
11. email friends, social events StH, JS, LUM, BrY, MH (optional)  
12. at 1:45pm vacuum then shower
13. leave for AC by 2:45pm
 
14. start de-frosting freezer
 
15. to gently work through any unpleasant withdrawal symptoms from any increased productivity today Friday as I move to recovery from my debilitating addiction to procrastination & compulsive task avoidance to alacrity and task perseverance. Be clear with, loving and forgiving to myself. And when I am up to it to gently analyse how to describe this fear that grips me, to love the neglected baby in me, cherish him, and ask what he needs. And to be aware of my inner angel too. And now my inner 'ghost' who I properly met yesterday!
16. start getting ready for bed at 11pm to wind down and develop bedtime anticrastination to be asleep by midnight. 
Innocent 

Calypso's check-in

Grateful this morning, and about to start morning routine, and ask for fogiveness for waking up so late.

 

Today to finish list of things on my to do list- same as yesterday. Hp will be done not mine. I hereby create being 10 times more excited and creative and energetic and intrigued of my tasks, and enjoyiing them and getting fulflilment out of doing them.

 

Calypso

My Day Today

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

4. eat breakfast

5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

6. Go to the 9:30 and 10:30 a.m. telephone BDA meeting

7. Take shower

8. Get dressed

9. Go to diabetic group at 1 p.m.

10. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone OA meeting

11. Go to the 4 p.m. telephone DA meeting

12. Cook and eat dinner

13. Go to the 8 p.m. face to face NA meing

14. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting

15. Wash dishes

16. Read the EA reflections for today

17. Do my 11th Step Inventory

Thanks for letting me share

Mole's check-in

Thank you lennon - makes me think how in some cultures perfectionism is disrespectful to that higher power.

yesterday was a public holiday and I decided not to check-in. My demand resistant self LOVED it and soared off creatively. Inow have a very sore arm. Back to moderation - what a blow.

Sorted responsibilities for ringing business

Wrote well this morning and handed over scene, tho it was a bit skimpy what with being sick and some unexpected ethics  editing work.

Had a lovely lunch with K

Contacted water people. Glad tha is off the list.

this afternoon I wwill practise blue line

do one exercise  

half an hour of ddecluttering

washing up 

Dig garden bed if not too wet

or

walk to PO and pay bills

filing from intray 

Blue line

Eat healthy meal

Make food shopping and activity list for Sat

Write if hand is ok

Relax

Go to bed by 11

EleanorBE's Friday list

Thanks Lennon!

Here's my Friday


Finish SFE on train


Get images for class


Get video clip for class


Plan class


Ask AV to come and set up laptop

Check out what class do next week


Teach class


Remind re. visit and speaker


Observe E


Arrange post-obs meeting with E

Write up E obs - didn't manage this


Write re proofs of article

Do proofs of  article- or this!


Meet W 2pm


Write to J re painting


Write to N and R re Uc days

If time, work on LA chapter- hahaha!


1/2 hour brisk walk on way home

 

ms friday

thanks lennon.

 

  • eat with self care
  • no naps
  • watch spending
  • post card
  • go to drs
  • pick up computer
  • 2 hr of march work
  • put drill away
  • call re wtc.
  • vacume
  • look through potential apps. 
  • find some fun friday night plans!