Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Friday October 26, 2012
HAPPY FRIDAY, EVERYBODY!
THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!
Promise One of PA:
We will release the need for perfectionism, and be willing to begin imperfectly trusting our Higher Power will reveal to us our enormous potential thus enabling us to trust our actions are good enough.
Have a great proactive day!
Peace
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V 26-10-12
Won't use the regular format today. I will focus on the critical things only.
1. Chop wood2. Bake for tomorrow
3. Tarp4. Organise clothes, esp for tomorrow5. Coding (indeterminate amount of time; see what works)
Bed around midnight for 1000 shift tomorrow
- "'It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things.' - da Vinci"
Hamlet's checkin
just 1 task that must be accomplished today: Finish the VN LEP EOI. Will work in 1-11/2 blocks interspersed with 15-20 minute blocks of household chores, meditation, exercise, etc.
elvira's evening
At last I have some energy! But I mustn't squander it.
Top things to do today are:
Empty and refill dishwasherget foodwash clothesInnertruth's check-in
Went for along walk today and joined a friend for coffee.
Puttered around and wasted the last two hours.
To do's from noon to 5 pm
Finish newsletter
Prospect top 10 companies
Run
More prospecting
1/2 hour reading for tomorrow's class
Early dinner @ 4:30
Leave for work
Come home @ 11 pm
Wash blouse and some dishes
Set both alarms for 7:15 am
Go to bed @ midnight
Lavida CI Fri. 10/26
"Surrender and Take the Next Right Action"
Thank you lennon, and thank you clement for this:
"Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves, but on God who raises the dead.
2 Corinthians 1:9"
This is also where I'm at, an incredibly difficult trial in my life that is truly forcing me on my knees to be totally dependent on God - and that's because he wants a relationship with me.
I'm having a breakthrough today about my need for REAL recovery. Though I've been using good PA tools, I realize the tools in themselves are truly not enough for me to "recover." So I dug up all my 12 step workbooks and printouts, and I'm starting working Step 1 tonight ... when I am ready, I will seek a sponsor, but I know I'm just not quite there yet. I will use my 12-step literature and phone meetings to propel me towards getting a sponsorship when the moment comes.
I'm not posting a task list here today because I want my focus to be on the bigger picture today which is the need for a recovery PROGRAM. And working step 1:
We admitted that we were powerless over our procrastination, avoidance, underearning and underbeing and that our lives had become unmanageable.
I really cannot recover on my own. I am finally admitting my powerlessness, and that I cannot succeed of my own will by myself. It won't work, and I am ready to release my stubbornness over this issue of trying to do it on my own. I am willing to at least start. Willing to be willing to be willing to reach out to other people in recovery.
Another issue that has come up for me today that is VERY painful is that I feel ashamed that I have these problems. I wanted so badly to be a perfect person who has it all together! I am so ashamed at the failures in my life and so upset that I have this disease and that I can't fix it with my own disordered, dysfunctional mind. This is NOT to put myself down - just to release it, be open and honest that this is how I feel, and I believe that with recovery, I will learn to see my problem with a more positive and self-affirming outlook someday.
Another insight today is that how I do my recovery program is how I will ultimately do my life. If I keep hiding and trying to do recovery by myself, I will keep hiding and trying to do life isolated by myself. IT WON'T WORK, BECAUSE IT JUST CAN'T. I admit that hiding is one of my worst character defects. Hiding, isolating, avoiding and procrastinating in every way that I possibly can. If I want to recover, I can't do these behaviors anymore, behaviors I've relied on for so long. I need help. I am scared to come out of hiding. I am trusting my HP to help me with this.
I heard someone say that recovery is gradual, but a BREAKTHROUGH can happen in an instant. I do believe I am having a breakthrough today and very grateful for it.
to lavida
i relate to your post alot. I keep backsliding from "i am powerless." I think you're on the right track. I pray God will help both of us ;^) I do feel we need his guidance or else we're lost.
I think a lot about whether to make my membership in this program public or not. I am very conflicted about it. Please continue to share developments in this area with you cuz they're helpful to me as i navigate this space too. I am glad that, at least, i can reveal it all here! If you want to contact me directly, you can do it by clicking on my name, cuz i allow being contacted in my profile. We also have a sunday night meeting that focuses on the steps. We're already up to step 4. Maybe not right for you cuz you're starting at step 1, but i thot i'd mention it.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
to clement
Hi clement, thanks for your post! I relate to your posts a lot too and hearing about your journey helps me. I would like to work step 4 and believe I desperately need to, but part of my procrastination problem is avoiding that which I most need to do ... I'm working on this though. Started attending Big Book study phone meetings which I think are going to really help me.
Feel free to stay in touch too here! I am also praying God helps us both ...
Lavida
to lavida
totally understand. i skipped the meetings for a month. Maybe more. Just could not get myself to do what i know i needed to do. That the disease. I am so glad you found something that's working for you. That's what's important. May God help us both. I totally trust he will.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
kromer 11 CI
This is going to be a really short workday, since I have a lot of church stuff to do, also I stayed up late last night.
That said, I want to accomplish a few things:
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Email list of ingredients to TH*Come up with halloween costume*1 pg of results (working on this now)
*Sketches of figures
*Nice figures for 1/2*Mtg*Teen halloween party
*Emails/texts about deacon mtg
*dNTPs
*Find slideclement ci
It is amazing how often my pre-schedule bible reading relates directly to my life on a given day.
background: the bible teaches that we should depend on God, not ourselves.
But i go thru procrastination cycles of, 1) procrastinating, not getting things done, getting into trouble, and turning to God and depending on him, 2) doing better and starting to think i dont have a problem and that i can do this, 3) procrastinating again... on and on. It's a months-long cycle.
I have asked God to teach me to depend on him always, in good times and bad. Sometimes God uses trials, bad times, as a tool to teach his children, and i feel like that's happening to me.
Then i read this today:
It's things like this that convince me that God has my back.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
jay's friday
cook lentil stew
wash up kitchen
bedroom-new bed clothes and tidy
pack all r's clothes
organise living room COMPLETELY
hoover living room
box ebay in spare room-all accessable
phone about soupmaker
drop scripts
buy L
bedtime bath early
it feels so different to be sitting in a living room that is tidy, maybe now i'll be able to think straight
well i managed most things on my list except early to bed
Kodos check-in
Thanks, Lennon.
So, my main goal is to clear my decks so I can start writing again on Nov. 1...
7:45 coffee/bb
8:00 clean/laundry
8:20 lectio divina
8:45 get ready for work
9:10-9:30 commute, call Dr. H
4:45 work (pr. rev. and NNWM) (breaks for lunch and e-mail)
4:45-6:00 bank, St., call Walter
6-10 mail, dinner, clean, lang, read 100 pp
Hypatia's check-in
Feeling overwhelemd at work - several clients chasing me for work that hasn't been done. Backlog of reports (again!). At least my afternoon client cancelled.
Baby steps - I'm not even going to post the full list here to start with because I'll only depress myself.
write up phone calltoday's reportI managed to get a number of other bits of things done, including going through a 3 week old pile of reports and letters that came in while I was on holiday.
After
lunch and a quick trip to the stationersthe plan is2pm urgent letters
3pm LAC reports
5pm type up job planning diary
H.
Jack's check-in for the day
Calypso's check-in
Grateful this morning, and about to start morning routine, and ask for fogiveness for waking up so late.
Today to finish list of things on my to do list- same as yesterday. Hp will be done not mine. I hereby create being 10 times more excited and creative and energetic and intrigued of my tasks, and enjoyiing them and getting fulflilment out of doing them.
Calypso
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting
2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting
3. Go to the 7:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting
4. eat breakfast5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting
6. Go to the 9:30 and
10:30 a.m. telephone BDA meeting7. Take shower8. Get dressed9. Go to diabetic group at 1 p.m.10. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone OA meeting
11. Go to the 4 p.m. telephone DA meeting
12. Cook and eat dinner13. Go to the 8 p.m. face to face NA meing14. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting
15. Wash dishes
16. Read the EA reflections for today
17. Do my 11th Step Inventory
Thanks for letting me share
Mole's check-in
Thank you lennon - makes me think how in some cultures perfectionism is disrespectful to that higher power.
yesterday was a public holiday and I decided not to check-in. My demand resistant self LOVED it and soared off creatively. Inow have a very sore arm. Back to moderation - what a blow.
Sorted responsibilities for ringing business
Wrote well this morning and handed over scene, tho it was a bit skimpy what with being sick and some unexpected ethics editing work.
Had a lovely lunch with K
Contacted water people. Glad tha is off the list.
this afternoon I wwill practise blue line
do one exercise
half an hour of ddecluttering
washing up
Dig garden bed if not too wet
or
walk to PO and pay bills
filing from intray
Blue line
Eat healthy meal
Make food shopping and activity list for Sat
Write if hand is ok
Relax
Go to bed by 11
EleanorBE's Friday list
Thanks Lennon!
Here's my Friday
Finish SFE on train
Get images for class
Get video clip for class
Plan class
Ask AV to come and set up laptop
Check out what class do next weekTeach class
Remind re. visit and speaker
Observe E
Arrange post-obs meeting with E
Write up E obs - didn't manage this
Write re proofs of article
Do proofs of article- or this!
Meet W 2pm
Write to J re painting
Write to N and R re Uc days
If time, work on LA chapter- hahaha!
1/2 hour brisk walk on way home
ms friday
thanks lennon.
go to drspick up computerlook through potential apps.find some fun friday night plans!