I am very lucky to have found this site. I'm in my first year of law school, and while last semester went well, this one is feeling like a disaster. The last five weeks are going to be very interesting, as I've not been doing the reading for some time now.
I'm in my mid-thirties, and I've avoided doing anything difficult my entire life, for exactly this reason. I've always known on some level that I would eventually just stop doing the work necessary for a real career. This is my last best chance to start over in life (it's a good law school), and I'm watching myself throw it away.
This is not the first time this has happened. I pulled my first all-nighter in fourth grade (I'm only now realizing that's probably unusual). I failed English in 7th grade for no apparent reason. I dropped out of undergrad my first time through after getting a 0.0 for the last semester. I had a landlord show up with a constable once to take a lein on my property for non-payment of rent--it was almost comical, because I had the money right there and we were able to settle things immediately. I've paid my taxes late twice, both times over multiple years. I've twice been in situations where I should have lost my job because of my procrastination, and it has damaged relationships and friendships.
This site has already been very helpful. Reading The Master's Hand was very moving for me. I've been very mean to myself for a very long time, and this whole approach feels like a way out of that. Who knows if I'll be able to turn things around this semester, but I'm more hopeful than I have been in a long while. Thanks everyone, and thanks pro.