Another new member
As seems to be the case for pretty much everyone who posts here, I found a profound sense of relief when I found this website, at seeing my experience described so neatly. I am most definitely a demand-resistant procrastinator.
I had previously looked up descriptions of obsessive-compulsive behaviour, looking for something that would neatly describe what I was experiencing, but nothing did. While I have at times played computer games, MMORPGs, or used the internet as tools of my avoidance, I wasn't quite an addict of any one of those things - and then there were all my other passing fixations: garden design; housing design; sudoku. I had a sense that my brain craved a particular type of stimulation, but what would provide that stimulation was a moveable feast.
I have visited a psychiatrist, in the hope he would decide my problem was ADD and prescribe me something that would fix it - it was the fixing it I was interested in, and if that took medication, so be it. He declined, and said it was psychological, not neurological, and recommended counselling. I was furious, and sat in the car afterwards and cried and raged. I'd had counselling before, and was quite sure that sitting round talking about being molested, or my mother, or whatever, yet again, was not going to solve the problem.
Eventually though, I did start visiting a psychologist, at considerable expense, with no noticeable outcome. He was certainly interested in my problem, but he just didn't get it.
Then I tried a hypnotherapist. He was a quirky sort of chap. He said he didn't think it mattered why people did things, only what would help them stop. I liked the sound of that very much. We tried one approach, I forget what now, and it helped a little, but wasn't quite it. Then we tried "choice", as in "I choose what I do; it is my choice". That worked very well - I felt almost giddy with it.
His method of hypnotherapy was to teach self-hypnosis, to allow his patients to become independent of him. Unfortunately, I never got into the habit of doing the self-hypnosis. In retrospect, of course, sitting down and doing a session of self-hypnosis was just another something I ought to do rather than wanted to do, so I didn't do it. However, I would suggest it as something that may provide some relief to others.
Reading the pages on here, I have come to realise that I need to accept that this is not something that I am ever going to cure, in the same way that alcoholics are never cured, they're either in perpetual recovery, or relapsing. But I am aiming to be in recovery.
Anyway, I could go on, but really this post is meant to be just saying hi, pleased to meet you, and thank you so much for this site. I will aim for my first book-ending tomorrow, or maybe even this evening!