Thursday 24 October 2013

todo left

-2 math problems
-Optics problem 4
-Optics problem 2
-Optics problem 3
-email CS prof

Commitment- I am driving home now. I WILL be a good girl and work on my Optics hw tonite! I will not go near the bed, I will not pass GO, I will NOT collect $200!!!

maint basics, exer, plan follow throughTHANKS moving for starter.Sometimes I find it easier to "embrace" imperfection because I am perfectly imperfect.NO MATTER WHAT.

"Today, I will open myself to the love that is coming to me from the Universe. I will accept it and enjoy it when it comes."
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie 

USE S.N. NEXT 3

returning phone call, then making list of priority assignments, answering email, then checking back here.

Eo follow up

comps

parly

interview
(done)

vigi
(done)

Woke at 4.35 worrying about new flat, old flat, tax, old legal problems, etc. and could not get back to sleep so spent time praying to hand it all over. I feel like doing nothing until I know for sure I have my new flat. I say to myaelf I am too stressed and tired to do anything. This is not exactly true. My place and myself are both becoming a mess. So list for today.

x Up prayer and reflection
x Make this list
x Check emails and posts
x Check post when/if any comes
x Tidy papers on desk and all over everywhere
x Check flat todo list and file all papers
x Find other admin todo list or make new one and put it somewhere safe
x Finish reading book on self development
x Check book which friend gave me - is it the same as the one I read while staying with her? - no but it is very similar
x Put dry white washing away
x Wash up dishes
x Clean kitchen floor
Exercise including checking on questions to ask friend when she visits next week
Walk even if only a short one
Shower or bath
x Rest a lot
x Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep

This seems a long list but many tasks won't take long if I do them.

Update 11.18 x done and now for a rest

Update 21.16 after which I did not do much else except watch my emails like a cat at a mousehole waiting to hear from my solicitor which I haven't. I would have done better to go walking in the sunshine.

Peace Rexroth

Thanks for the great starter, movingalong!

I am in a funk - again! So tired of getting scared of so many things. And a lot of tasks tugging at my attention all at once. Have cancelled one outing to give myself more time. The main task is to quote on G, but need to work out when I will do some more minor tasks as well. I think I'll run chat box style updates again, that seemed to help the other day. So,

9.40 am: look at today's tasks and make a plan - done, had to cut out a lot of non-urgent tasks, I wish those didn't tend to pile up, but at least I feel a bit less panicked.

10.05 am: important details for sending G- feeling ridiculously anxious - done, now feeling a lot better!

10.30 am: making juice for sore throat, then I will do next step for G

11.25 am: had juice but not next step for G, had to deal with one unexpected phone call then brought other phone call forward. Now behind schedule :( . But at least not wasting time myself.

12.15 pm: next step for G is done, but can see that there is not time for music and bike ride before lunch. Music will have to be later :( . Will go on bike ride now, but check in again before lunch to keep accountable on length of lunch break - long lunches are a big weakness for me

12.45 pm: short bike ride as it was raining. Lunch now, aim to be back no later than 1.45 pm. 

2.35 pm: Late back from lunch again. Somehow I think there will always be extra time to do stuff, but there isn't! Thinking that is really a symptom of the problem. There are only so many hours in the day. Next I am going to look up another job and ring the client

3.50 pm: Some progress (slow). Don't have all the information I need, but should ring client anyway.

5.05 pm: Left message for client, missed meditation group, will have a cup of tea now and stop paid work for today. Next: bin out and watering

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone meetings, and my life.

I want to thank movingalong for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Take shower

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Fix and eat breakfast

5. Get dressed

6. Go to group therapy at 9 a.m.

7. Go to individual therapy at 10:30 a.m.

8. Go to the post office

9. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone DA meeting

10. Do Al-Anon work

11. Get my medicine ready for the next two weeks

12. Call my Al-Anon sponsor

13. Eat dinner

14. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

15. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

16. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

Thanks for letting me share