Thursday 10th October 2013

6:50pm :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 00hrs 00min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (6:50pm 10/10/2013 restarted count)
It's been 00days 00hrs 00min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (6:50pm 10/10/2013 restarted count; abs his: (/ (+ 13 1 1 5 6 6 3 6 8 5 1 2 5 2 3 8 4 2 8 5) 20.0)4.7 ave, old-new)
It's been 00days 00hrs 00min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (6:50pm 10/10/2013 restarted count; abs his: (/ (+ 5 14 8 6 12 9 8 13 11 4 2 9 23) 13.0)9.5 ave)
It's been 00days 09hrs 25min (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (6hrs 25min, 2:27-8:52am 10/10/2013 surfinq binge; abs his: 25,14,36, 93 [23days 9/18-10/10 untracked]; corrected 5/24).
It's been 0 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (6hrs 25min, 2:27-8:52am 10/10/2013 surfinq binge; before that: 78, 115days).
It's been 0 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs 25min, 2:27-8:52am 10/10/2013 surfinq binge; abs his: 193days on 10/10/2013).
It's been 329 days (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day (11/15/2012)
It's been ~429 days (mt) since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week (1year 64 days : aug 8, 2013)
It's been 12days 02hrs 50min since i last relied on self. (9/28 ~4pm i read dan's message about upstairs office wireless and started trusting god for recovery again; abs his: 14,50,92) [start clock approx ]

(mt) = not counting 5 day Mission Trip 7/15-7/19

having a lot of trouble getting down to work on my MITs today...the dis-ease wants to feel Important by swatting at flies, instead of working on the hard projects before me that are getting scarier by the hour from my procrastination.

Going to Chat for some support.

what a beautiful starter, jala, thank you.

I have missed some check-ins this week so just need to rat myself out on that. Now, resume my commitment! I admit I am powerless over compulsive procrastination, and my life has become unmanageable. I have come to believe that a Power Greater than my self can restore me to sanity. I have made the decision to turn my will and my life over the care of God as I understand God.

"Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in..."

Today I am grateful for the first flock of blackbirds migrating noisily through the trees, for a sunny cool morning, a calm heart, the chance to work at home today, and a clear understanding of the day's work ahead:

• Eat at 730, 10, 1, 430, 8 (times adjusted for meetings @6&7)
• pet care and J care
• Set up work laptop
• Create Qs for DevDiv, vet to team
• CreateQs for ESG, vet to team
• Submit requests for all DevDiv supporting docs 
• Submit requests for all ESG supporting docs
• Write org section for DevDiv
• Outline program section for DevDiv
• Dump what I can into DevDiv other sections
• Set timer hourly to check and respond to incoming emails 
• Empty Inbox at 4pm. Leave NONE for "later!" If it can't be fully addressed now, say that in response and schedule Task reminder.
• 430 walk doggie
• 5 dinner with J
• 530 leave for program planning mtg at L-Inc
• 7 Board mtg L-Inc
• 930 leave for home
• 1030 bed  

Feeling tired today. Also appetite is off, not sure what's up there.

Today I have already: 

• A lie in
• had a shower
• briefly chatted to client 

Today I will: 

• Put washing on
• Hang washing
• A Invoicing
• A post P jnl
• A post other jnls
• A check & email B
• Work for P
• Do other invoicing
• Have a good lunch
• Check RC site & send email

Woke early and am very very tired and I don't know why. So a simple list for today. I won't get anywhere by pushing myself today.

x Up prayer and reflection
x Post this
x Check emails and posts
x Tidy up eveything, clothing, washing up, paperwork, etc.
x Take it easy and relax today I need to
x Deal with post when/if any comes
x Check emails through day
x Write journal
x Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep

13.40 so far so good

23.11 and so to bed.

Peace Rexroth

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

6. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

7. Cook and eat breakfast

8. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

9. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

10. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

11. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone DA meeting

12. Do my Al-Anon Step work

13. Make a few Al-Anon phone calls

14. Call my Al-Anon sponsor at 4:15 p.m.

15. Cook and eat dinner

16. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

17. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

18. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

Thanks for letting me share