Monday, 9th September 2013

thanks dear Mole for the great starter.

• readings
• text a
• text m
• tidy 
• rest
• laundry away
• pool & rehab
• groceries on way home
• rest
• visit from M
• rest
• edit AD hard copy( 5 poms?)
• put in edits
• check off references(5 poms)
• put in doc
• rest
• dinner
• input reciepts(4 poms)
• rest
• call A
• rehab excercises
• HIO

Morning to fellow journey-ers and thanks to Mole for starting the thread and your example of accountability - much appreciated!

Sunday was out of control 'unmanageable' as we say - I could 'hear' what the flow was and yet chose to ignore it. Sigh.  I am choosing to be 'open' and take a fearless inventory of Sunday, to 'feel' the pain and uncomfortable feelings, to 'release', to move beyond denial, to be 'open' and accept forgiveness & healing, realise and decide that I am willing to stop my compulsive behaviours and denial, to ask for the wisdom and power for today only so that I may begin to be healed, healthy and whole.

Its not about the tasks - its about listening to the moment and going with the flow of the spirit - today.

Its not about the money, its about listening to the simplicity of need and contentment - today.

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So far today - got up when alarm went off, healthy bfast, prayer and devotion.

Important reflection on yesterday esp with vic's posting on The language of Letting Go.

I also recognize that I am quite anxious about restarting work on Wednesday - it often happens that the things I am good at I want to be 'perfect' (whatever that means) and not let my mentors/people I love down --- so put more pressure on myself which often leads to let myself down on unrealistic expectations, self sabotage and self punishment.

There is a Sia song where she sings... "We like you, this is a game already done, your time has come, stop trying."

Two big life changing things have just happened already this morning:

1/ my tax refund came through much sooner than I expect which is a release for one part of my mind: I have clear plans how to give and use this money to extricate my debt free aim by NYE and share

2/ I just got a call telling me I was unsuccessful for my Plan A job for 2014 - no huge surprise as competitive but still a bit of a sting. BUT I have a fantastic Plan B who have been lovely enough to wait for my results so I will be moving halfway across the country next year to start work in a fascinating town. I am so grateful for having opportunities and choices in jobs in a time where they are thin on the ground.

It will soon be 10am and my concentration will start to kick in (my body clock is nocturnally orientated! - it totally changes my day planning knowing this).

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10 anat - upper limb

1130 walk to stationary shop and print out payslips & photocopy ltter

1230 healthy lunch

130 anat lower limb

300 walk to m's - plan trip

430 revise physiology

1800 go for run

1900 dinner at gran

2030 neck anat, cranial n

11pm bedtime

Important tasks:

- college accred - press slightly off since my job offers have changed

less important

payslips

ring m

post letter

get work clothes ready

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THanks for letting me share safely.

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Not by might or power but by the spirit of God. Zach 4v6

people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily

zig ziglar

order prescription
+ letter

smoothie

wash up

tidy kitchen

put on wash

make bed

quick bath

wash coat/zip

tidy bedroom

texts

mobile pictures

cameras

list of week

sort money/budget

wash out/air suitcase

get bedding ready & decide how to pack

decant toiletries & make list to buy

pack make up/ decant