Sunday, 25th August 2013

I haven't been this out of sync in awhile. I feel healthy and fine and it is a beautiful day, but I have done Nothing. 

I do have to do the newsletter... Tonight.

and I need to walk outside to feel like I am alive. Duh.

before I ssleep

make layout be 16 pages... Add photos....

draw and sketch the solution 

buy a plane tticket be ready for phone edits 

X i will walk now.  Nic and muggy

X I will do an errand or two. Grocery shopping for week done 

i wish I'd gone swimming. 

Gnothi Seauton ~ Know Thyself

11:36:23 ‹clement› so hard to do things. need blinders, microbursting, timers
11:37:27 ‹clement› timers started. now post sched
11:39:49 ‹clement› 2 min on plan. now i have to go up and do something. rly dowanna
11:48:11 ‹clement› 2 5min timers went off. could not paste into my other christian chat, so i was researching that
11:48:21 ‹clement› 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.
11:49:13 ‹clement› that was all to bolster my will to go upstairs. or to do God's will (go upstairs) vs my own (stay put)
11:53:43 ‹clement› i did it. God did it. no by might might nor power, but by His Spirit.

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

• I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
  • "15 Points" point 5 says:
    

    5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.

    My Plan is this:

    1. read "15 Points"
    2. Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God

:) ci
:) start timers
:) v task
:-( cL (do tomorrow)
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 9am church
:) sort tasks
j task
:) do tasks
:) put away clothes
:) abstinence day counts
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw

3:52pm : "The curious thing is that lovers themselves, while they remain really in love, know this better than those who talk about love. As Chesterton pointed out, those who are in love have a natural inclination to bind themselves by promises. Love songs all over the world are full of vows of eternal constancy. The Christian law is not forcing upon the passion of love something which is foreign to that passion's own nature: it is demanding that lovers should take serious something which their passion of itself impels them to do" - c.s.lewis, Book III, chapter 6, "Christian Marriage"

• Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
  ---- yes at end of day when task took too long.
• Do we owe an apology?
• Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
• Were we kind and loving toward all?
  ---- not toward myself. Pause and realize god STILL loves me, after i have confessed my sin.
• What could we have done better?
  ---- pre-planned task with time budget instead of doing impulsively w/o looking at clock.
  ---- restarted timer after getting back to the PC each time.
• Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
• Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Dinner w/ family.
I am still in recovery.
Christian chat.
That it is only 11pm, only 1 hr later than i planned. Could have been worse. Has been MUCH worse.
The number of un-done tasks on my task list went DOWN today!

Thanks to Mole for starting this trend and encouragement to other 'recoverers' for today.

I admit that I am powerless over my procrastination and debt and that my life had become unmanageable.  I came to believe that a Power greater than myself could restore me to sanity and I made a decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God.

 "Its not about the tasks - its about listening to the moment and going with the flow of the spirit.

Its not about the money, its about listening to the simplicity of need and contentment.

 730 church

10 markets - only buy vegies on this list and treat is a yummy coffee only.

1100 take grandma to war memorial service ; lunch afterwards

1400 a few jobs - email, ring back some people

1500 coffee w M

1730 leave for k&s for restful evening before a busy week - sleep well.

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank Mole for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to the 9:50 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

7. Cook and eat breakfast

8. Take shower

9. Get dressed

10. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

11. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

12. Go to the 3:30 p.m. online PA meeting

13. Go to the 4 p.m. telephone Al-Anon meeting

14. Eat dinner

15. Go to the 5:30 p.m. telephone DA meeting

16. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

17. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

18. Go to the telephone PA workshop after 9 p.m.

Thanks for letting me share