Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
"self-love" makes me uncomfortable. Sometimes i have had a big ego. And the whole thrust of the New Testament of the Bible, Jesus' teaching, is self-SACRIFICE.
However,
Yesterday, after an off-plan binge, i was feeling extremely guilty and like there was no hope for recovery, it suddenly popped into my head, "how would i treat a good friend who was dealing with exactly my situation?"
Well, i would encourage them. Help them to start from here and look forward. I would not try to excuse or make light of mistakes in the past, but i would try to help them see that they are the past, they are not the future, and they are mistakes, they are not fatal, and there's a very good chance he can overcome them.
That is a form of self-love, or maybe self-care. And that makes sense to me.
And that, with the divine intervention from yesterday, makes me ready to do it today. So what would i say to a good friend who was going thru exactly what i'm going thru?
I understand how you feel. You're right, most of today is gone. There's nothing we can do about that. But life is not over. It's not the end. You have the rest of today. You have your family coming tonight, that should be fun. There's Saturday. And next week. You're on the path of recovery, and you've made great strides. There is a pattern of more and more recovery here. Yes, today may have been a setback, but if we view that set back in the context of increasing recovery, then the progress you've made over the last year is the big story, and yesterday and this morning are just a blip. This mistake is the exception for your life right now, recovery has become the rule. And that's how you know God is with you, because you are now doing things you could never have done before. And you can trust that he will Guide you in the future.
Wow. i actually feel a whole lot better. amazing.
Abstinence from unplanned time.
The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.
Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"
I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
"15 Points" point 5 says:
5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.
My Plan is this:
read "15 Points"
Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God
:) ci
:) start timers
:) v task
cL
time log
quiet time
r task
s task
t task
:-( 11am pa phone mtg
sort tasks
j task
do tasks
put away clothes
abstinence day counts
reflection
pre-plan tmrw
When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).
Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
Do we owe an apology?
Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
Were we kind and loving toward all?
What could we have done better?
Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)
Late check in today. I let myself get sucked into non-chargable help for a friend. And I ducked out of running again today. Tut tut.
Had a great training day yesterday which has lead to lots of brain activity and ideas, but getting myself to concentrate on other things is a bit difficult. Will try and re-direct my enthusiasm a little.
Today I have already:
Put the washing on
had breakfast
had a shower
put washing on line
sent emails to my friend for his new business - work-related but not chargeable (yet ;-) )
Today I will:
Smile. I am a good person with intelligence. I just need to be kind with myself when my implementation is not great.
Plan for Silver
Reply to J
Email Silver with instructions for entering sales. JUST MAKE A START spent way too much time on this.
Silver Make a list of info/items needed. inc MLR
email request for items and docs required for last year
LoE for Silver
MLR update and PL (just do what you can right now)done done done done
Complete W bank recs
Solicitor/C questions, confirmations
W - entered extra invs, recon'd supplier and emailed other supplier for copies.
X Cat plate, food, littler, wipes, medicine,
X Update and finalize to dos
X Update game of life
X Clean bathroom
Do dishes
Tidy living room
Take out trash
Call dad
Work on tshirt biz
Sched vet appointment
Get bookshop directions from suzy
Atm 200
buy jim voucher
Jim and zeek outing
Cat food, litter, wipes, med
Extreme profile
Write
Check the news
Update proc and game of life
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
X Cat plate, food, littler, wipes, medicine,
X Update and finalize to dos
X Update game of life
X Clean bathroom
X Do dishes
Tidy living room
X Take out trash
X Call dad
Work on tshirt biz
Sched vet appointment
XGet bookshop directions from suzy
X Atm 200
Xbuy jim voucher
Jim and zeek outing
Cat food, litter, wipes, med
Extreme profile
Write
X Check the news
X Update proc and game of life
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Thank you dear Jalla - so much appreciated this on such a pressured day.
Okay - so I am now really hard against my deadline and I have to allow the P project eat into the time of my main work. grr
9.30 now. I have until 12 - 5 poms. Pom 1- break down project into five parts, decide on format, work out sequence. Poms 2-4 complete allocated sites. Pom 5 complete map, neaten up and send.
let C know about plt hse
12.30 lunch with K re A
2-3.30 prov project
4.30 walk w C
6 -7 plt hse
home an eat.
1 hr read MS
relax
check in
bed by 11
THINGS I DID WELL TODAY
I completed the P project stage by 12 as intended - miraculous
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
am still very tired and need to send the inner critic on a cruise.
Vic 7/26/13
Show up (done), exer, plan, follow through
clement ci - day 258 attempting abstinence, 178 from self
"self-love" makes me uncomfortable. Sometimes i have had a big ego. And the whole thrust of the New Testament of the Bible, Jesus' teaching, is self-SACRIFICE.
However,
Yesterday, after an off-plan binge, i was feeling extremely guilty and like there was no hope for recovery, it suddenly popped into my head, "how would i treat a good friend who was dealing with exactly my situation?"
Well, i would encourage them. Help them to start from here and look forward. I would not try to excuse or make light of mistakes in the past, but i would try to help them see that they are the past, they are not the future, and they are mistakes, they are not fatal, and there's a very good chance he can overcome them.
That is a form of self-love, or maybe self-care. And that makes sense to me.
Vic's post yesterday "Vic 7/25/13" http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/4935#comment-62659 was about self love.
And that, with the divine intervention from yesterday, makes me ready to do it today. So what would i say to a good friend who was going thru exactly what i'm going thru?
Wow. i actually feel a whole lot better. amazing.
Abstinence from unplanned time.
Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"
My Plan is this:
:) ci
:) start timers
:) v task
cL
time log
quiet time
r task
s task
t task
:-( 11am pa phone mtg
sort tasks
j task
do tasks
put away clothes
abstinence day counts
reflection
pre-plan tmrw
When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
KF check in Friday 26th July 10:30am
Late check in today. I let myself get sucked into non-chargable help for a friend. And I ducked out of running again today. Tut tut.
Had a great training day yesterday which has lead to lots of brain activity and ideas, but getting myself to concentrate on other things is a bit difficult. Will try and re-direct my enthusiasm a little.
Today I have already:
Today I will:
Plan for SilverReply to JSilver Make a list of info/items needed. inc MLRemail request for items and docs required for last yearMLR update and PL (just do what you can right now)done done done doneComplete W bank recsW - entered extra invs, recon'd supplier and emailed other supplier for copies.HAVE LUNCHGet washing inHypatia's check-in
clinicmeetingaction Taction DH.
edge's ci
X Cat plate, food, littler, wipes, medicine,
X Update and finalize to dos
X Update game of life
X Clean bathroom
Do dishes
Tidy living room
Take out trash
Call dad
Work on tshirt biz
Sched vet appointment
Get bookshop directions from suzy
Atm 200
buy jim voucher
Jim and zeek outing
Cat food, litter, wipes, med
Extreme profile
Write
Check the news
Update proc and game of life
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
edge's update ci
X Cat plate, food, littler, wipes, medicine,
X Update and finalize to dos
X Update game of life
X Clean bathroom
X Do dishes
Tidy living room
X Take out trash
X Call dad
Work on tshirt biz
Sched vet appointment
XGet bookshop directions from suzy
X Atm 200
Xbuy jim voucher
Jim and zeek outing
Cat food, litter, wipes, med
Extreme profile
Write
X Check the news
X Update proc and game of life
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Mole's check in
Thank you dear Jalla - so much appreciated this on such a pressured day.
Okay - so I am now really hard against my deadline and I have to allow the P project eat into the time of my main work. grr
9.30 now. I have until 12 - 5 poms. Pom 1- break down project into five parts, decide on format, work out sequence. Poms 2-4 complete allocated sites. Pom 5 complete map, neaten up and send.
let C know about plt hse
12.30 lunch with K re A
2-3.30 prov project
4.30 walk w C
6 -7 plt hse
home an eat.
1 hr read MS
relax
check in
bed by 11
THINGS I DID WELL TODAY
I completed the P project stage by 12 as intended - miraculous
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
am still very tired and need to send the inner critic on a cruise.
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR
Restorative walk with K
that the washing dried on the line
Friday
readingstidylaundryfloorss&hpool rehabgo meetingcall a and mcall mpcall d and dbankget bag ready for wsdinnerwrite histand drehab excercisesMy Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank jalla for starting this trend
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting
2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting
3. Take shower
4. Fix and eat breakfast
5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting
6. Go to the clinic to get my INR
7. Fix and eat dinner
8. Go to work at 5:30
9. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone OA meeting
10. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting
Thanks for letting me share