Friday 14th June, 2013

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

ci
start Instant Boss
v task
cl
time log
quiet time
r task
s task
t task
11am pa phone mtg
sort tasks
*capture all * tasks here
j task
pl w
* pud df 2pm
gen batt
* brk: trm r
pud re-do tasks based on new info
bill client ku - 30min
*pud raid - 4 hrs
pud av i - 5 hours
pud yt
client hrc jun 30
pu-l ip p em
pu-h rm pp

brk: p job, call wed
brk: ck shim
brk: uem 6/24 10am
brk: log c.s.l & j
brk: sw
brk: crit art
brk: clr flsh
blog legalnotice
client o
*lc sign form

*tx - 4hrs
*nativ - 20 min
pu wrk - iDev - 2hrs
kuf wrk - recontact - 15 min
later: ht task
put away clothes
put away clothes
reflection
pre-plan tmrw

4:34pm :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 14hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (2hrs 11min, 12:22-2:33am 6/14 (late on the 13th) work binging on hc website)
It's been 00days 14hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (2hrs 11min, 12:22-2:33am 6/14 (late on the 13th) work binging on hc website; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3,6 old-new)
It's been 00days 14hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 11min, 12:22-2:33am 6/14 (late on the 13th) work binging on hc website; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12,9)
It's been 01days 13hrs 08min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; abs his: 25,14,36; corrected 5/24).
It's been 2 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (4hrs 1min, 11:25pm-3:26am 6/12-13 q surfing binge; before that: 78days).
It's been >80 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 216 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~316 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 01days 05hrs 49min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)

6:18pm : yep, i broke my 78 days of abstinence with a bad surf binge.

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

So far I'm counting four job applications.  I need to aim for jobs that are junior level in the java, c++ area.