Thursday, 13th June 2013

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
quiet time
r task
s task
t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
sort tasks
*capture all * tasks here
j task
pl w
* pud df 2pm
gen batt
* brk: trm r
pud re-do tasks based on new info
bill client ku - 30min
*pud raid - 4 hrs
pud av i - 5 hours
pud yt
client hrc jun 30
pu-l ip p em
pu-h rm pp

brk: p job, call wed
brk: ck shim
brk: uem 6/24 10am
brk: log c.s.l & j
brk: sw
brk: crit art
brk: clr flsh
blog legalnotice
client o
*lc sign form

*tx - 4hrs
*nativ - 20 min
pu wrk - iDev - 2hrs
kuf wrk - recontact - 15 min
later: ht task
put away clothes
reflection
pre-plan tmrw

2:01pm :
[not tracking <15 min anymore (for now)]
It's been 00days 23hrs 26min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (26min 12:30-12:56pm 6/13 ruminating)
It's been 05days 12hrs 32min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 34min, 23:55-01:29 6/7-8 email, mostly legitimate, but unplanned work; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6,3 old-new)
It's been 08days 15hrs 28min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 15min, 19:08-21:23 6/5 did a different blog entry than i planned; abs his: 5,14,8,6,12)
It's been 35days 12hrs 17min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (3hrs 14min, 11:30pm-02:44am 5/8-9 raid work binge, abs his: 25,14; corrected 5/24).
It's been 79 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been >79 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 215 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~315 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 00days 03hrs 16min since i last relied on self. (6/10-6/13 10:45am overwhelmed with too many medium important tasks, no MITs; abs his: 14,50)

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily

zig ziglar

LEAVE HOUSE AT 1.00 FOR APT

BEFORE THAT

BRUSH TEETH

BATH

TIDY KITCHEN

PUT RUBBISH OUT

TIDY LIVING ROOM

CLEAR AWAY FILES

TIDY BEDROOM

DECIDE ON QUILT & SEND EMAIL

phone college

AFTER APT

ebay

CHART

BOOK TRAIN TICKETS

SORT OUT FINANNES

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank Mole for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Take shower

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Get dressed

5. Fix and eat breakfast

6. Go to group therapy at 9 a.m.

7. Go to individual therapy at 10:25 a.m.

8. Go to the library

9. Go to the taped CLA meeting

10. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

11. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

12. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone OA meeting

13. Warm up and eat dinner

Thanks for letting me share