Tuesday, 4th June 2013

I accomplished a lot yesterday and feel proud of myself. I didn't manage my time well so I ended up finishing my last project at 3 am.

I'm going to take it easy on myself today and not beat myself up for my late start, however, I spent far to much time surfing the net today before buckling down to work.

Task list for today:

Items 1 to 6 are high-priority items, 7 to 9 can be put off until Wednesday and the remaining are personal items to sandwich between items 1 and 6

1. email Geoff
2. answer important emails (done at 2:30 pm and will do again this evening)
3. finish observation journal and email to CP (will work on it for 2 hours on Wednesday)
4. photocopy degrees and evaluations
5. mail evaluations to SP
6. locate and review TESL certification info
7. review resume and covering letter info
8. finish data base for LC schools
9. research ESL classes at community colleges, universities, LINC and other local school board
10. go for a much needed one hour walk
11. buy fruit
12. wash t-shirt for tomorrow's meeting
13. wash dishes 
14. visit sister and watch Mad Men (to do on Friday night)
15. put bad food in fridge in garbage




16. throw out garbage
17. recycle one bag of stuff

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome.

The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of
the following format: running, jogging, a combination of
running-walking-jogging, swimming, walking, attending a fitness class
(something that requires me to leave the house), stationary biking,
biking, dance class, aerobic class, yoga, karate (or other martial
arts).  I am not requiring myself to wear the running clothes, but on
days I have running in my schedule I would like to remind myself that by
doing the running, I am moving forward, and that it is the only way to
move forward in my schedule.  Also, everything is easier after I've
already acclimated my body to do it once or n times.  I am doing
this because:

1. My main reason for continuing is that I want to move forward with my
   running/jogging plan.  I made some progress last week of running 2
   minutes, walking2 minutes, repeating that seven times, but I want to
   finish that week within a timely period and move on to running 2 minutes
   and walking 1 minute (times 10).  The ultimate goal is to be able to
   run/jog for 30 minutes.  I want to run a marathon at the end of this
   year or January of next.  (I have always wanted to run the Honolulu
   Marathon; I don't even know if this is something I can do, but I want to
   do it.)  I have year after year pledging to do a second marathon and
   have not, b/c I did not make headway on my running plan.
2. I feel that running or exercise will force me to own up to other
   commitments in my life, because challenges in the running sphere force
   me to have other commitments in my life met so that I can exercise
   unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
3. I want to feel good about myself when I go outside, and
4. I don't trust myself to exercise at the end of the day or at some point
   before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it.  
5. Being accountable to others by making a commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself.
6. The objective is to stick to the running plan by doing at least one
   training unit per day of the 28-week running plan I came up with, which
   is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan.  
7. practicicing being on time with this commitment, will assist me in being on time in other areas.
8. It will also help me to practice willpower for other activities that require energy.
9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable in what I am doing, b/c I am not
   constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be
   running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have
   done those things last night.
10. Exericse helps me to avoid feelings of not  being adequate, because I
    have confidence in myself as a person interacting with others.
11. I want to build trust in myself by committing to something small that
    positively affects my whole life.  Since I'm making a promise here to do
    it, that's going to help me to keep my promise to myself so that I have
    faith in myself that at some point during the day I will exericse,
    instead of feeling like crap because I don't even trust myself to get to
    the gym or go on a walk.
12. Exercise makes everything tighter, which makes me feel more comfortable
    with myself and helps me to be able to live with myself.
13. I want to be able to wear the clothes in my closet, and throw out the ones that are not useful to me.

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Walked ten seconds.  Ran two minutes.  Walked 3 minutes, 12 seconds.  Biked six minutes forward and back.  Did stretches.  I'm clocking 11 minutes and 22 seconds for the day thus far.

Walked 21 minutes and 26 seconds.

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:-( 11am pa phone mtg, reminder problem
:) sort tasks
:) *capture all * tasks here
j task
brk: p job, call mon
brk: fam ph
:) *brk: *unemp pend
:) *brk: *dom f
brk: trm r
brk: log c.s.l & j
brk: sw
:) brk: *kal fafsa mon
brk: crit art
brk: clr flsh
blog legalnotice
client o
grad/qinc
wko tr

*lc sign form
*pud raid - 4 hrs
pud av i - 5 hours
*g wrk - bill, 45 min

*tx - 4hrs
*nativ - 20 min
pu wrk - iDev - 2hrs
bill client ku - 30min
kuf wrk - recontact - 15 min
later: ht task
:) put away clothes
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw

9:51am
It's been 00days 09hrs 31min since i last got distracted (31min 23:49-00:20 6/3-4 shopping apc ups, needed but not planned)
It's been 00days 09hrs 31min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (31min 23:49-00:20 6/3-4 shopping apc ups, needed but not planned)
It's been 02days 15hrs 33min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 4min 4:56-6:00pm 6/1 worship vids on youtube, eg blessed redeemer; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6,6 old-new)
It's been 11days 07hrs 10min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 43min, 11:58pm-02:41am 5/22-23 qtweb; abs his: 5,14,8,6)
It's been 25days 07hrs 07min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (3hrs 14min, 11:30pm-02:44am 5/8-9 raid work binge, abs his: 25,14; corrected 5/24).
It's been 70 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been >70 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 206 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~306 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 45days 11hrs 40min since i last relied on self. (abs his: 14)

"He who goes out weeping, bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy, bringing his sheaves with him." -Psalm 126:6

• i think this speaks to my recovery from addiction. "Goes out weeping" is the initial resistance to the urge to "use". "Bearing the seed" means by resisting i am sowing seeds. In my case, with procrastination, iam sowing the seeds of productivity, by resisting going off plan and doing my Most Important Tasks and Next Right Actions. "Bringing his sheaves with him" because when i have resisted going off plan, and done the MITs, i will reap a harvest of productivity--namely, completed tasks. Most Important Tasks, even. And then i will reap "shouts of joy" because i have been productive, and my MITs are done.

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

Well i set out to do a blog post, then did one on another topic. Off plan. Good topic, just off plan.
And i let that go on for 2hrs, when i only was expecting to blog for 15-30 min.
Had a hard time deciding what to do, that's why i decided on the blog.

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Good appt at 1:15.
Completed all my errands.
Better Dom task than usual (2nd time)
Better (faster) morning than usual.
Good family time.