Wednesday 22nd May 2013

Feeling SUPER un-motivated/bored, but I will work anyhow

I will start by:
Finishing organization
R8, S8 plan
Ask about MC and tT animals

OK, above tasks are almost done, just waiting for some input from others. While I'm waiting on that, I will
*Email G
*Microburst proposal

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
:) take cards 2sch
:) sort tasks
:) *capture all * tasks here
:) j task
prj task, skip
:) 12pm 1pm mtg
brk: zen neg
brk: OK rwcs pare down
brk: CWS emergency kids
brk: put all assundry firefox tabs in rtm brk todos
brk: pool - 30min
brk: * renew mbbc - 30min
brk: *record 7:20 fri night - 15 min
brk: new outgoing busi msg
brk: iphone apps
brk: *kal - 1 hour, fri
brk: * busi form added 5/14/2013 - 20min, fri
:) *** lc got thru notes and capture
:) ** lc get descript
*lc sign form
lc read man
**client bos - recom
h wrk - recommendation - continue - 4hrs
*pud raid - 4 hrs
g wrk - 4hrs
pud av i - 5 hours
pud disk - rtn shipping problem - 30 min
pud disk - rtn installed - 30 min
pud disk install - bill4 when done, thu, after cking all ok - 15 min

*tx - 4hrs
*nativ - 20 min
pu wrk - iDev - 2hrs
bill client ku wed
kuf wrk - recontact - 15 min
later: ht task
put away clothes
:-( reflection
:-( pre-plan tmrw

9:10am :
It's been about 13hrs since i last got distracted (about 8pm 5/21 extremely distractible, includes 8hrs sleep).
It's been 1days 23hrs 34min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (19min 9:14-9:36pm (3min phone ckin) 5/20 ffs forum; abs his: 4days,3min,1day,6hrs old,new)
It's been 5days 06hrs 53min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (2hrs 1min, 12:16-2:17am 5/17 qtweb; abs his: 13,1,1,5 old-new)
It's been 5days 06hrs 53min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 1min, 12:16-2:17am 5/17 qtweb; abs his: 5,14,8 )
It's been 13days 07hrs 26min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (3hrs 14min, 11:30pm-02:44am 5/8-9 raid work binge, abs his: 25,14).
It's been 57 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been >57 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 193 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~293 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 33days 14hrs 17min since i last relied on self. (abs his: 14)

9:19am : reflection on Day Counts : the most important one is relying on God not self. Relying on God is going to be the lynchpin, the foundation, on which everything else is based. And it will keep me in relationship with God which is a joy. And it ensures my afterlife in heaven.

11:09am next day : i completely fell apart last night. No, it's not complete. It was of a certain duration, and not longer which would have been worse. The failure was *bounded*. My remorse and self recrimination should be similarly bounded.

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

That my mtg went well and i have a chance to teach. Thank you God for that opportunity. It is a good gift to me! :D

Thanks for starting, Mole

Contact:

• Financial advisors
• Mum re visit
• DOBs re lunch