Sunday 19th May 2013

X cook & healthy lunch 

X return thing to hardware store

X manage SUS - cancel tomorrow?

two loads of laundry -- jeans, sheets, etc.

maybe sort and take dry cleaning?

X put away clutter, liv room, kitchen

Gnothi Seauton ~ Know Thyself

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 10am church
:) sort tasks
:) *capture all * tasks here
:) j task
sun:
:) prj task - 15min
bku lt - 15min
:) :) :) :) *lyr & rev song
pool - 15min x2
*rent van - 30min
*h wrk - recommendation - continue - 4hrs
*client bos - recom
*pud raid - 4 hrs
*tx - 4hrs
g wrk - 4hrs

break: iphone apps

mon:
* uninst solid savings from gina
pud disk - new one
pud av i
*kal
* busi form added 5/14/2013
pud av i
* renew mbbc
pud disk - rtn
pud disk install - bill4 when done
*nativ
pu wrk - iDev

bill client ku wed
kuf wrk - recontact
later: ht task
put away clothes
reflection
pre-plan tmrw

12:37pm : god really came thru for me this weekend. I got only 6 hours sleep on fri night, and i fasted for 30 hours. Then i worked on the video and prep for church sat night til 2am. That included 1 hour of procrastination :( . As it was, some things just coincidentally worked out saving me an hour and/or improving the video. I set my alarm for 6:30 to have enuf time to get to church and set up, but i slept right thru it. Somehow, miraculously, i woke up at 8. That turned out to be just enuf time, to the minute, to get ready extremely fast, get to church and set up. Nothing was wrong with the setup, so that was streamlined. So i really got lucky last night and this morning, or, God was looking out for me and wanted everything to go smoothly, so he nudged the physical equations of the universe so it would work out.

12:57pm :
It's been 0days 00hrs 33min since i last got distracted (5 min at 12:24 daydreaming).
It's been 0days 14hrs 44min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (31min 9:42-10:13pm 5/18 youtube; abs his: 4days,3min,1day old,new)
It's been 2days 10hrs 40min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (2hrs 1min, 12:16-2:17am 5/17 qtweb; abs his: 13,1,1,5 old-new)
It's been 2days 10hrs 40min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 1min, 12:16-2:17am 5/17 qtweb; abs his: 5,14,8 )
It's been 10days 11hrs 13min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (3hrs 14min, 11:30pm-02:44am 5/8-9 raid work binge, abs his: 25,14).
It's been 54 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been >54 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 190 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~290 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 30days 18hrs 02min since i last relied on self. (abs his: 14)

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

Remembered to raise the volume on my PC for the song.
Been closer to X.
Not gotten overwhelmed at tasks.
Trusted God more. In fact, i wish i had, and wish i will, trust him completely.

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

That when i got overwhelmed at tasks, i isolated the hi prio ones i could do today.
And that when i continued to be overwhelmed, i did 2 at random, which felt extremely uncomfortable.
For the revelation about the shape God, the Potter, has formed me, the lump of clay, into at this point, and how he was worked on me somewhat so far, but is continuing to work on me.
For the incredible promises in the Bible that i can place my trust in.
Step group / Step work.
Revelation and church today. Revelation Song by Kari Jobe. Beautiful.
Video technology and the opportunity to be creative.
Miracles of 1. sleeping thru alarm but getting up with barely enuf time anyway, somehow, and 2. that nothing went wrong with technology at church today so i did not need a lot of time.

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

7. Test blood sugar twice

8. Cook and eat breakfast

9. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

10. Wash dishes

11. Put clothes away

12. Take shower

13. Get dressed

14. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

15. Go to the religious meeting at 2 p.m.

16. Clear table

17. Go through my mail

18. Type three questions for tonight's meeting

19. Eat dinner

20. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

21. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting

22. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

23. Go to the telephone PA workshop at 9 p.m.

Thanks for letting me share