Thursday 9th May 2013

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

Ideally I'd like to commit to longer, but I know how I am
about commitment, so I want to proceed gingerly.  I just want to
think of this as one more week, and do that for now.   The
commitment
is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of the following
format: running, jogging, a combination of running-walking-jogging,
swimming, walking, attending a fitness class (something that requires me
to leave the house), stationary biking, biking, dance class, aerobic
class, yoga, karate (or other martial arts).  I am doing this because:

1. My main reason for continuing is that I want to move forward with
   my running/jogging plan.  I made some progress last week of running 2
   minutes, walking2 minutes, repeating that seven times, but I want to
   finish that week within a timely period and move on to running 2 minutes
   and walking 1 minute (times 10).  The ultimate goal is to be able to
   run/jog for 30 minutes.  I want to run a marathon at the end
   of this year or January of next.  (I have always wanted to run the
   Honolulu Marathon; I don't even know if this is something I can do, but
   I
   want to do it.)  I have year after year pledging to do a second
   marathon
   and have not, b/c I did not make headway on my running plan.
2. I feel that running or exercise will force me to own up to other
   commitments in my life, because challenges in the running sphere force
   me to have other commitments in my life met so that I can exercise
   unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
3. I want to feel good about myself when I go outside, and
4. I don't trust myself to exercise at the end of the day or at some
   point before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it.  
5. Being accountable to others by making a commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself. 
6. The objective is to stick to the running plan by doing at least one
   training unit per day of the 28-week running plan I came up with, which
   is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan.  
7. practicicing being on time with this commitment, will assist me in being on time in other areas. 
8. It will also help me to practice willpower for other activities that require energy.
9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable in what I am doing, b/c I am
   not constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be
   running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have
   done those things last night.
10. Exericse helps me to avoid feelings of not  being adequate, because
    I have confidence in myself as a person interacting with others.
11. I want to build trust in myself by committing to something small
    that positively affects my whole life.  Since I'm making a promise here
    to do it, that's going to help me to keep my promise to myself so that I
    have faith in myself that at some point during the day I will exericse,
    instead of feeling like crap because I don't even trust myself to get
    to the gym or go on a walk.
12. Exercise makes everything tighter, which makes me feel more comfortable with myself and helps me to be able to live with myself.
13. I want to be able to wear the clothes in my closet, and throw out the ones that are not useful to me.

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So I have completed a week's worth of the following as of today:

(run 2 minutes/ walk 2 minutes ) X 7 + run 2 minutes

The question is now whether or not to move on to running for one minute and walking for one.  They increased the gym price to twenty dollars, but I was very lucky to receive a twenty dollar discount.   I am going to make the most of this by participating in my reading assignments.

 show up (done), plan, exer

thx jalla

 "Learning New Behaviors

Sometimes we'll take a few steps backward. That's okay too. Sometimes it's necessary. Sometimes it's part of going forward.

Life is a
Gentle Teacher. She will keep repeating the lesson until we learn. It is
okay to become frustrated. Confused. Angry. Sometimes it is okay to
despair. Then, it is okay to walk away and allow the breakthrough to
come.

It shall.

Help
me remember that frustration and confusion usually precede growth. If
my situation is challenging me, it is because I'm learning something
new, rising to a higher level of understanding. Help me be grateful,
even in my frustration, that life is an exciting progression of lessons".

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Take shower

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Eat breakfast

5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

6. Go to my appointment with my sleep doctor at 9:45

7. Clear tables

8. Pick up stuff off the floor

9. Shred material

10. Get medicine ready for the next two weeks

11. Cook and eat dinner

12. Test blood sugar twice

13. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

14. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

15. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone OA meeting

16. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

Thanks for letting me share