Thursday, 25th April 2013

Review previous problems to see if they are problems for the new stuff.

Write test plans.

Keep my inner sullen teenager awake and irritable.

Wrote a long thing, then got lost on the Internet and lost it all. So instead of writing it all again, the universe knows how happy I am to be in a choir right now and I must remember to carry that joy with me today.

Today I have already

• Had a sensible lie-in
• Eaten breakfast

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self.

We reviewed our fears thoroughly. We put them on paper, even though we had no resentment in connection with them. We asked ourselves why we had them. Wasn't it because self-reliance failed us? Self-reliance was good as far as it went, but it didn't go far enough. Some of us once had great self-confidence, but it didn't fully solve the fear problem, or any other. When it made us cocky, it was worse.

Perhaps there is a better way - we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.

We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68 AA Big Book. http://anonpress.org/bb/Page_68.htm

(too long. put this in my bookmarks instead, but do only in a designated break. until then, tolerate imperfection)

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) sched
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am appt
:) sort tasks
:) j task
prj task, skip
call nona
:) client h - recommendation, in prog
pud new xray sensor
pud norton
pud recyling
pud pu usb drive
pud disk - install - run hd tune
pud disk install - bill4
:) ka wrk - email and do pdf, progress
pu wrk - iDev
pud fan
jd hp nb install hw
kuf wrk - recontact
p wrk - rtn
client ku sat?
later: g wrk
later: ht task
:) put away clothes
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw

9:18am
It's been 0days 20hrs 57min since i last got distracted (shopping, email).
It's been 0days 20hrs 57min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (60min)
It's been 1days 04hrs 37min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (5hrs 21min, before that 5days abstinence)
It's been 1days 04hrs 37min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (5hrs 21min, before that 5days abstinence)
It's been 1days 04hrs 37min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (5hrs 21min, before that 25 days abstinence).
It's been >31 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 166 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~266 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 11days 14hrs 59min since i last relied on self. (14 days before that)

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

not binged on work.

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

Taking breaks when i got overwhelmed to think over my options. That led to wise decisions (i believe--God grant me wisdom).

productive day with few distractions.

Did some good web devel which will help later too.