Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Please do not leave advice or feedback. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
Yesterday I walked for thirty minutes, so I'm going to be continuing this thing today. Thus far I've walked 9 minute and 46 sec today. My goal is to run for thirty minutes straight.
The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.
Abstinence from relying on self.
We reviewed our fears thoroughly. We put them on paper, even though we had no resentment in connection with them. We asked ourselves why we had them. Wasn't it because self-reliance failed us? Self-reliance was good as far as it went, but it didn't go far enough. Some of us once had great self-confidence, but it didn't fully solve the fear problem, or any other. When it made us cocky, it was worse.
Perhaps there is a better way - we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.
We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68 AA Big Book. http://anonpress.org/bb/Page_68.htm
(too long. put this in my bookmarks instead, but do only in a designated break. until then, tolerate imperfection)
:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) sched
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
:) j task
prj task, skip
:) pud disk - ariv tue - on sched
:) file unemp (47 extra min cuz of something unexpected)
pud norton
pud fan
jd hp nb install hw
:) ka wrk - rtn kb trk
ka wrk - sym
ka wrk - email re: pdf write
kuf wrk - recontact
ebands - tue
p wrk
client ku sat?
later: g wrk
later: ht task
put away clothes
reflection
pre-plan tmrw
10:55am : pre-plan this morning for today:
It's been 0days 13hrs 31min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0days 15hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (22min, before that 14hrs abstinence)
It's been 0days 15hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (3hrs, before that 2days abstinence)
It's been 1days 03hrs 29min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (3hrs, before that 8days abstinence).
It's been 16days 22hrs 31min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (6hrs).
It's been 156 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~200 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 1days 17hrs 35min since i last relied on self. (14 days before that)
2:51pm : came off an online bender at 2:37pm. I should know there's no "quick check".
It's been 0days 00hrs 14min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0days 00hrs 14min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (45min, before that 17hrs abstinence)
3:07pm for all those that are struggling, from my quiet time today:
"1:2 My brothers and sisters, consider it nothing but joy when you fall into all sorts of trials, 1:3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance. 1:4 And let endurance have its perfect effect, so that you will be perfect and complete, not deficient in anything." - James 1:2-4
1:14am (early next morn) :
It's been 0days 00hrs 01min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0days 00hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (56min, before that 15hrs abstinence)
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
not gone off plan at very end of the night.
stayed on plan, meaning did things in the order of my plan.
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)
(4:48pm) ty for recovery today.
Got very deep into some technical stuff that is very useful helpful for me and now well understood.
With things/people I can not change, I must remember, the 3 c's, I did not cause, cannot control or cure others. However, I can contribute , either positively or negatively, and most important, I have choices, Today I choose to be grateful.
pm sometimes my HP just wants me to do something else, My HP did for me what I could not do myself ..grateful.
X amend s article
X edit s testimonials
X finish and send talking points
X finish and send presentation
X design s article
I finished everything but I ended up not going to work :( I also saw am at the training and I could tell he was disappointed in me for not sending him the report (weeks overdue) but he didn't say anything about it. It was just awkward. Will have to finish and send it soon, feel so guilty.
The only good thing about yesterday is that I passed by my grandparents' and spent some time with them.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
i am trying to clear the decks so that I can start the week on a positive note.
7.30 cafe - write to p or z or C
9-12 write with poms - allow for some longer breaks but stick to them.
Lunch
2.30 -4 m with L
4.30 -5.30 walk w B
eat
7 -9 tower
9-10 H's
check in
bed by 11
THINGS I DID WELL TODAY
i did a couple of things not on the list..pruning back and putting cuttings out.
Wrote well.
wrote to C
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
keeping myself disciplined about pom breaks is proving very difficult. It is okay or better if I don't come into the house. I mad physically going to put anything I could get online with to bed - tuck it in with a bear or something and put a do not disturb sign on the door. It is me disturbing it that is the problem, not the other way round.
I wish I could learn to accept failure without judging myself
i need to get meals sorted -can't keep having boiled eggs and soldiers.
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR
lovely surprise seeing G -
brief glimpse of L and winkles and will spend time with them tomorrow. Being around small children feels life affirming (in small doses)
fudoshin: 21 days of exercise: day 3: 2:05pm
Please do not leave advice or feedback. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
Yesterday I walked for thirty minutes, so I'm going to be continuing this thing today. Thus far I've walked 9 minute and 46 sec today. My goal is to run for thirty minutes straight.
clement ci - day 156 attempting abstinence, 76 from self
Abstinence from unplanned time.
Abstinence from relying on self.
Perhaps there is a better way - we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.
We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68 AA Big Book. http://anonpress.org/bb/Page_68.htm
(too long. put this in my bookmarks instead, but do only in a designated break. until then, tolerate imperfection)
:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) sched
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
:) j task
prj task, skip
:) pud disk - ariv tue - on sched
:) file unemp (47 extra min cuz of something unexpected)
pud norton
pud fan
jd hp nb install hw
:) ka wrk - rtn kb trk
ka wrk - sym
ka wrk - email re: pdf write
kuf wrk - recontact
ebands - tue
p wrk
client ku sat?
later: g wrk
later: ht task
put away clothes
reflection
pre-plan tmrw
10:55am : pre-plan this morning for today:
It's been 0days 13hrs 31min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0days 15hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (22min, before that 14hrs abstinence)
It's been 0days 15hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (3hrs, before that 2days abstinence)
It's been 1days 03hrs 29min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (3hrs, before that 8days abstinence).
It's been 16days 22hrs 31min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (6hrs).
It's been 156 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~200 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 1days 17hrs 35min since i last relied on self. (14 days before that)
2:51pm : came off an online bender at 2:37pm. I should know there's no "quick check".
It's been 0days 00hrs 14min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0days 00hrs 14min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (45min, before that 17hrs abstinence)
3:07pm for all those that are struggling, from my quiet time today:
"1:2 My brothers and sisters, consider it nothing but joy when you fall into all sorts of trials, 1:3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance. 1:4 And let endurance have its perfect effect, so that you will be perfect and complete, not deficient in anything." - James 1:2-4
1:14am (early next morn) :
It's been 0days 00hrs 01min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0days 00hrs 01min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (56min, before that 15hrs abstinence)
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
not gone off plan at very end of the night.
stayed on plan, meaning did things in the order of my plan.
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)
(4:48pm) ty for recovery today.
Got very deep into some technical stuff that is very useful helpful for me and now well understood.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
VIC 4/15/13
Show up (done), exer, plan
Beautiful starter Jalla, thank you.
With things/people I can not change, I must remember, the 3 c's, I did not cause, cannot control or cure others. However, I can contribute , either positively or negatively, and most important, I have choices, Today I choose to be grateful.
pm sometimes my HP just wants me to do something else, My HP did for me what I could not do myself ..grateful.
Elvira's Monday
photograph & post finished hatrungo churchpost ribbonget stampsMonday
readingstidyemail d, d, m & esave photos dlook photos for a j of fphotos of b and bpharmacyphoto shop printinggift a jshoppingrehab excercisesmonday 15 april 2013
people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily
zig ziglar
pack ebay shoes
post office
buy ink and colour paper
email solicitor
drop notes off arrange lift
read sol notes- anything to correct/return
print out emilas case
Hamlet's checkin
am going to try a concept-based list rather than task-oriented list -- although will still try to includhe some tasks by way of reminder
1. activate on health -- exercise, meditation, healty eating
2. activate on not feeling overwhelmed by the quotidiants of life --declutter, go to bank, pay rent and ticket, get medicine
3. activate on overcoming isolation -- note to melissa to volunteer, accept greendrink invite, connect with a person or 2 on list
5. activate on writing something every day -- start one of the several blogs
6. respond to verdant e-mail
7. cook
edge's ci
I need to finish these before I head out to work:
X amend s article
X edit s testimonials
X finish and send talking points
X finish and send presentation
X design s article
I finished everything but I ended up not going to work :( I also saw am at the training and I could tell he was disappointed in me for not sending him the report (weeks overdue) but he didn't say anything about it. It was just awkward. Will have to finish and send it soon, feel so guilty.
The only good thing about yesterday is that I passed by my grandparents' and spent some time with them.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting
2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting3. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting
4. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting
5. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line
6. Cook and eat breakfast
7. Take shower8. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting
9. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting
10. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line
11. Get dressed
12. Get my perscription medicine
13. See my former co-worker at the hospital
14. Eat dinner
15. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.
Thanks for letting me share
Mole's check in
Thank you kind jalla, for starting the thread.
i am trying to clear the decks so that I can start the week on a positive note.
7.30 cafe - write to p or z or C
9-12 write with poms - allow for some longer breaks but stick to them.
Lunch
2.30 -4 m with L
4.30 -5.30 walk w B
eat
7 -9 tower
9-10 H's
check in
bed by 11
THINGS I DID WELL TODAY
i did a couple of things not on the list..pruning back and putting cuttings out.
Wrote well.
wrote to C
THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER
keeping myself disciplined about pom breaks is proving very difficult. It is okay or better if I don't come into the house. I mad physically going to put anything I could get online with to bed - tuck it in with a bear or something and put a do not disturb sign on the door. It is me disturbing it that is the problem, not the other way round.
I wish I could learn to accept failure without judging myself
i need to get meals sorted -can't keep having boiled eggs and soldiers.
THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR
lovely surprise seeing G -
brief glimpse of L and winkles and will spend time with them tomorrow. Being around small children feels life affirming (in small doses)
LC's wonderful treatment and gentle conversation.
beautiful crisp evening