Thursday 10th January

9:33pm : it's been 33 min since i last went off plan. Today i was binging on my MIT ( Most Important Task ). Yes, that so resembles productivity that it takes Wisdom to know the difference. But i was not CHOOSING to work on my MIT, i was obsessively, impulsively working on it. This has nothing to do with intensity or focus, but rather freedom / choice vs bondage / slavery.

:) ci
:) quiet time
pj task
l task
k task
sort tasks
do tasks

12:05am : wow it's been 2.5 hrs since i last checked in. I did read TWO introductions to Ephesians, and they WERE interesting. I should have read 1 today 1 tomorrow. But i did healthily put of reading of Ephesis itself til tomorrow, so that's progress.

12:19am : stuck. prayed. felt trust in god. Got desire to surf wildly. Had strength and wisdom to read "15 points for an alcoholic to consider when confronted with the urge to take a drink" Posted that in chat. Came here to post, then urge to surf came back as i was writing this. But i shall post:

Sobriety, the magnificant obsession,
is the most important thing in your life, without exception. You my believe your job, or your home life, or one of many other things come first. But consider if you do not get sober, and stay sober, chances are you won't have a job, a family sanity or even life. If you are convinced that everything depends on your sobriety, you have just so much more chance of getting sober and staying sober. If you put other things first you are only hurting your chances.

That is so helpful to me.

Another, similar concept that is very important to me. Everything depends on my surrender of my life to God. I lose nothing. I gain everything. I can give up my need to be impulsive, turn my back on that part of myself. And i gain a life of serving God, doing his will.

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank Eleanor for starting this trend.

Things I have done today

1. Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

3. Went to group therapy at 9 a.m.

4. Gave my insurance cards to be copied

5. Went to individual therapy at 10:30 a.m.

6. Went to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Do numbers

2. Cook and eat lunch

3. Get tomorrow's forum ready

4. Look for some garbage bags

5. If find some garbage bags, take out some old canned goods

6. Put in some new canned goods

7. Warm up and eat dinner

8. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

9. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

10. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone OA meeting

11. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

12. Do my 11th Step inventory

13. Wash dishes

Thanks for letting me share

Work 6 [Please, just freakin' do it!!! If you can do 2, you can do 6] [so far 1 done]

Start job app at some point today, but only after work is completed

Walk 1/2 hour 

1/2 hr stretching, 1/2 hour toning [so far 15 min. done]

Bible/Prayer

Keep track of: water, meals, supplements, breathing

Lit/Insp. Reading/Dinner 5-6:30pm

(call first by 4:30, okay to do 1 day early? yes)

(FRIDAY: GO IN PERSON TO GET EXTENSION in writing, Transfer rent money when received, Call to get phone extension)

NO LONGER A PRIORITY:

New project: just do what you can each day, at least $50 [so far $45 done]

Hello all,

Gosh you all seem to have a lot to do - and knitfisher sounds like you have an awful lot to deal with, I'm not sure how I'd get anything done when going through that.. but I guess keeping busy is important, and there are things that can't be put off unfortunately.. and so I begin - today rather than avoiding what I have to do (and therefore not being able to fully enjoy anything else I'm doing! - very common) I aim to have some sense of achievement at the end of the day. I'm sorry if I'm writing too much here - I think perhaps I should just be writing a list!? I'm all for words of encouragement throughout the day - or just at the end of the day and I'm not 100% certain if this is the right thread for this? Anyway sorry don't want to stop anyone from getting on with what they need to do!!

So here goes:

I have a big animation project that I've been delaying and could screw up if i don't get on with it. As it's been laying dormant for a while today I revisit it and revise what I need to do, prioritise and get on with it. That's quite vague but once I've done that I can list the steps I guess.

Hoping to put in a few hours, so here I go! Good luck everyone. Dotty 

Thanks EleanorBE for starting this thread

Today is high risk as I have no concrete plans, so:

- at least 1 hour SP broken down into 20 minute periods

- one

- two

- three

- email T

- email one of Ki, D, Je, N, A, KB, KM, C 

- limit mws to one hour over the day

- stretching/rehab exercises 

- plan supper

- cook supper 

I am already so tired. Had about 5 hours sleep with a 2 ish hour break in the middle. My mum is very very ill and I have been warned that she is not long to be with us. She has been in a lot of pain that they are struggling to control with higher and higher doses of pain medication. They are going to try a pump one which controls pain but also depresses breathing so there's a risk that might cause other problems.

I know I should be with her the whole time, but even now my procrastination means that I have several things that I need to get done, including two tax returns by the end of the month including my own. Besides, I'm not sure I will do any good being camped out because she doesn't seem to rest when someone she knows is there. I plan to go after lunch which is when visiting starts anyway. I will call the nurses in a bit to find out how she is. She was more settled when I called this morning, and finally not in pain even without the pump. A blessing at least.

• Shower (30 m)
• Call Hospital
• Invoicing (15 m) Ha not even slightly  mins!
• prepare chq for paying in
• Canx Orth appt (5 m)
• Call J (5 m) 
• 4 poms work for F (2 hrs)
• 2 poms inv for A ( 1 hrs)
• Email F to explain (consider withdrawing from work) (15 m)
• Email P to explain (10 m)
• Email A
• Pack emergengy bag (15 mins)
• Make notes of contact details for clients and give to DH (5 mins)
• EAT LUNCH
• Leave at 2pm

Lots of errands. Here's the plan: 

• Sprouts, gas, TA, PoF, haircut (?), RA
• Study - 4 hours
• DD - s/s, library
• Dinner, meditation, read 30 mins + 10 household chores 
• Plan Friday