Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Wednesday 21st November 2012
As I reflect on my procrastination\ compulsive task avoidance and other addictions, I am grateful to have come across the H.O.W. concept in recovery.
Honesty, Open-mindedness, and Willingness.
I think this is literally saving my life. (This concepted is also mentioned in Bill's story on p. 13 -14 as willingness, honesty and humility in the AA Big Book.)
So a thought for today:
Can we be grateful for our procrastination and other addictions? Why could we be grateful?
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@ clement - grateful for my procrastination
Thanks for your comment, it's good to hear your thoughts and actions on this. I am slowly coming around to this way of thinking, no matter how deeply painful this and my withdrawal process is at the moment as I grapple with finding my HP\G.O.D. (good orderly direction\ group of 'drunks' & derelicts \ get out devil ...).
thanks jack
I relate to that deep pain that you feel. That's one thing that's great about this fellowship, that we have that shared experience.
And i just read in my bible reading today that god wants me to depend on him. He doesnt want me to do it by my own power. So it confirms for me that the failure and pain serves a purpose in my life, for me to turn to God and depend on him. And this is the same point of step 1 2 & 3 of AA.
And i pray for you jack that god will lead you along your journey, however long and whatever turns it takes.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
CI DO it now 340
check web site
andy check in 11/21
routing
check in on PA
Gather files for C copyGather files for BC copycheck air pressure
gas in car
take movies back
assign projects to myself in Lread
a. SNSAb. SMoc. G
lunchwater plantsclean dead plant
create spread sheetEmail about spreadsheetchatbox reminder
please read pro's post from today here
http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/chatbox_usage#comment-58111
(reply on THAT thread if you have questions)
clement ci - day 14 attempting abstinence
I am grateful for my procrastination, because facing my severe limitations has humbled me before God, forced me to turn to God systematically for help, made me a more generous and forgiving person, and more tolerant for those with a different struggle. In short, it is just one tool God is using on the journey of growth into himself that he's planned out for me.
7:57am : It's been 1min since i last went off plan. I went off twice for 1 min each. Cumulative 25h 17m in the last 13 days.
8:00 am : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. For 1 min again. That's 3 min today, Cumulative 25h 18m in the last 13 days.
:) quiet time
:) plan
:) S
:) do tasks
9:20pm : a job opportunity arose today so i shifted tasks to go for it. And had some family issues. And then i spent about 1hour off task. just kinda slipped into it. It's ok. But i'm not back on task yet...
10:40 pm : Hi i'm clement and it's been 2 min since i last went of task. Hmm that actually made me feel better. I had 20 min on task then 40 min addicted game-play off task. But i am not off task now, altho i feel strong withdrawal symptoms.
10:45 pm : Hi i'm clement and it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. And i think with this one i finally figured out what is so magical about saying that. It screams new beginning. Even if it has been 1 minute, it firmly draws a line between past and future. My off-task was in the past. My future starts now with me being on-task.
10:49 pm : Hi i'm clement and it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. new beginning. And i can see by my 3 recent episodes that i'm not in good shape. And i had no plan, but one came to me and it is:
quiet time
microburst cover letter
that will work, i know it. but i still dont want to do it. Which is how i know i'm an addict. I want my hit over my life goals. Textbook description of addiction behavior. Akin to a junkie who needs another hit and it's all they think about. Altho the junkie is worse, cuz they can be listening to their boss tell them they are close to getting fired, and still all they think about is their next fix. But mine is not that strong. It's only when the goals are at some distance, not when they're staring me in the face.
10:56 pm : it's been 8 min since i last went off plan. Wisdom from my quiet time already :
For, being ignorant of the righteousness of God, and seeking to establish their own, they did not submit to God's righteousness. - Romans 10:3
This is at the core of my problem. I am thinking about this as something I do, rather than turning it over to god. Well i'm willing to turn it over, God, but i still find myself grasping at it. I as you to do the rest. And i feel a release of it from me. Thank you.
11:11 pm : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. New beginning. I can sense that the moment i realize i'm off plan, that's the moment the new beginning starts. Before that 17 min on plan.
11:14 pm : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. Mind wandered and started daydreaming during that last post. Clearly i am weak this eve. And the quiet time is going very well. Back to it.
11:16 pm : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. New beginning. That one was different. More subtle. I'd be lost without this form, checking in, new beginnings, and this idea of abstinence.
11:18 pm : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. Apparently God has provided an infinite supply of new beginnings ;)
11:29 pm : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. At least i was on plan for longer that time. But no matter. I have a new beginning starting right now.
11:54 pm : it's been 1 min since i last went off plan. New beginning right now. But i was on plan for longer, 25 min. The stretches are getting longer tonight. That's God working on me. Cuz my quiet time went very, very well. Very productive. I'm gonna plan for tmrw.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
Journey 7:30
ugh, holiday season stress is starting to set in. I will focus on the positive and enjoy spending time with my family.
Yesterday was good, work-wise, but I didn't do any Christmas planning or laundry last night after work. I did eat my veggies, but forgot to take my vitamins or have quiet time. I've already decided that the month of December will be the month to reinforce habits that I've previously built but have let fall by the wayside lately: Floss daily, meditate daily, keep caffeine consumption to a minimum, eat those veggies and fruits, and take my vitamins and meds daily. Daily meditation/quiet time is the foundation for all those other habits and I've been blowing it off thinking 'I don't have time', instead of thinking of it as an MIT.
So, today, my most important work thing to do is prepare as much as possible for this weekend's test. Personally, dinner, dishes, laundry, Christmas, quiet time.
Now, exercise for 45 minutes, then have a healthy breakfast. I will check back if I get stuck, otherwise, have a productive and enjoyable day everyone!
Jo
Let your purpose rule your day - Steve Chandler
@salamander yay for kitties!
Let your purpose rule your day - Steve Chandler
@journey re kitties
Thank you, journey. They are beautiful and strong little things. I am looking forward to supporting mum as she brings them up!
"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." (Anais Nin)
Vic 11/21/12
Show up (DONE), CAL, EXER
Thanks for starter Jack. My "issues" and addictions keep me on my knees, looking up, and that is where I need to be to live this life happy, joyous and free.
Praying for willingness to be willing.one more day.
jay's wednseday 20 nov
pay v bill
change listings
hang/put all listings togetrher ready with packing stuff, check enough sellotape ect
2 hours work on asscces prep (2 hrs max for 3 days =6 hrs) DO NOT WASTE TIME 'DRIFTING' AROUND ON THIS 1 hour then break then another hour
print out conditions
make list for doc tomorrow
sick diary
power. read and phone them
phone PH
phone den hos?
post r's letter
postcard to jc post
p.o.-soon
bank-soon
shopping-make list
pilates, strech back
browse l'woods order
hoover living room
bath & groomimg
start to change sleep pattern to later
Rexroth Check In 09.07
Done:
Up prayer and reflection
Checked emails and posts
Todo:
x Finish letters - priority for today - done and it was so difficult and they are not perfect but they are done
Possibly some other admin but not instead of letters
x Out for some food shopping between showers
x Tidy kitchen for workperson coming this afternoon - he is here and nearly finished
x Sometime conversation with friend if she phones - she did and it was a long difficult and emotionally exhausting conversation which was also very constructive
x Put on washing machine
x Write journal
x Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep
Report in at 15.04 Done above and can't wait till worker leaves to crash out for a while.
It is 22.25 and I am in bed and very tired.
Good Night Everyone Rexroth
Regards Rexroth
Hypatia's check-in
Haven't checked in for some time as it's been so busy at work I haven't had time to procrastinate! But I also havne't had time to work on my longer term responsiblities, or even keep my desk under control. So here goes
ring car company - busy, message lefte-mail Hcomplete job diaryclear deskget H's resultsphone H's mumH.
ms wednesday
Thanks for the start Jack, and thanks as always pro.
Much to do today. already feeling some resisatnce. going to work with bursts and internet blocker.
specifics
gymreply to emailconstants
Wednesday
readingstidyaccountscontinue with editing doc 3get readyHIOgo U finish edit so faremail kemail eemail m finHIOwrite fdiary for appt dmeetingbankinggo to appointment dgo to b clinictext amhealthy dinnerdecide igym/pooljournalrehab excercisesHIObed earlyEleanorBE's Wednesday list
Thanks Jack! Not sure I can think of how to be grateful for my procrastinating - but it's almost worth having it because it feels so much better when I do less of it!
Here's Wed
- Do C.D. paper
- Send C.D. paper to bd.
- Get up J's ref emails
- Do J's ref
- Send J's ref
- Rewrite opening to LA chapter
- Make new project/task/writing schedule up to Dec 14th
- Write to GB re no Thurs
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Write up J's obs
- write to J with time for meeting
- Meet with TW - 1.00
- ES meet - 2.00
- SL meet - 3.30
- If time, start work on other refs
- Write to J
Phew, one of those days where lots of unplanned stuff cropped up so this list doesn't look much like my day at all. Quite a bit to transfer to tomorrow .
Salamander's check in - Weds 21 Nov 2012
Thank you, Jack, for starting the thread.
I would appreciate it if anyone who feels moved to comment on my post here would write to me privately rather than post in reply to this post - so I can still edit this post here. Thank you!
Follow Morning RoutineScrub 1/4 of kitchen floorYIPPEEEEEEE!!!Then
Spot clean dining room carpetHoover downstairsOpen out dining tableScoop cat traysAnd
Best wishes to my fellow procrastinators with your days ahead.
Thank you to Mole for the suggestion about doing one tile at a time for my kitchen floor. Maybe I don't need to break it down quite that far but if I do 1/4 of the floor, I might want to do more. And if I don't, then at least I did 1/4, which is more than I have done for weeks now... Win/win!
"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." (Anais Nin)
Jack's check-in for the day