Intro to PA
I am currentlly 19 years old and stuck in a rut. I have yet to complete my highschool diploma and have currentlly been unemloyed for a few months. I cannot stand the way I am currentlly living, but cannot seem to do anything about it.
I struggle to stick with ANY sort of routine, I always find myself waiting for the day I will finish my classes and attend university. I have never had an issue with the difficulty of anything in school, but I have not been able to fully apply myself for years and I am unsure why. I feel silly even writing this... I mean it really should just be a matter of getting up everyday and doing what needs to be done (like everyone else seems to be able too).
If i were to analyze myself I'd say that I proboblly set the bar too high and subconsiouslly know I wont achive my goals. There really is a part of me that belives there is no goal that can be considered outrages, but how would this mentality mesh with a seemingly unmotivated person?
I am in no way lazy and I belive that, I worked for almost a year as a roughneck on an oil rig, it was demading in every possible way and I was able to overcome that, so why should only 4 or 5 months of school leave me compleatlly frozen.
I really need to sort my life out soon. If I am out of full time school for another year I have no clue what I will do and if I can cope..