Intro to PA
I am currentlly 19 years old and stuck in a rut. I have yet to complete my highschool diploma and have currentlly been unemloyed for a few months. I cannot stand the way I am currentlly living, but cannot seem to do anything about it.
I struggle to stick with ANY sort of routine, I always find myself waiting for the day I will finish my classes and attend university. I have never had an issue with the difficulty of anything in school, but I have not been able to fully apply myself for years and I am unsure why. I feel silly even writing this... I mean it really should just be a matter of getting up everyday and doing what needs to be done (like everyone else seems to be able too).
If i were to analyze myself I'd say that I proboblly set the bar too high and subconsiouslly know I wont achive my goals. There really is a part of me that belives there is no goal that can be considered outrages, but how would this mentality mesh with a seemingly unmotivated person?
I am in no way lazy and I belive that, I worked for almost a year as a roughneck on an oil rig, it was demading in every possible way and I was able to overcome that, so why should only 4 or 5 months of school leave me compleatlly frozen.
I really need to sort my life out soon. If I am out of full time school for another year I have no clue what I will do and if I can cope..
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I can relate to the high expectations making you disappointed in yourself for no good reason whatsoever. I expect most people on here can. This might also apply.
School could be paralysing you because you're just sick to death of it and want to get out. I was like that when finishing off my last bit of education - I was desperate to move on with life, but felt just so drained of energy when faced with the reality of having to spend another 3 months doing what I had been doing for the past 4 years that 3 months turned into 5 months, and then turned into 8 months as my examiner wasn't available for another 3 months after that because I'd missed the deadline. Horrible.
You might want to check out this post too . It's about anonymising your username and details (changing them will work "after the fact") in case you want to be a totally secret procrastinator. It's probably paranoia, but future jobs, etc. might be Googling for you, and you never know what Google's going to throw up!