Newbie coming back
It's been almost a year that I'd said hi for the first time, followed by a long silence. I've not been inactive about my life, but I've not got there either. I'll get there someday!
Today I'm here because it's one of those days where I'd like to crawl under a table and not come out again. And it's not even that bad. Ahead of me I have a journy to London, possible light shopping to follow, really easy travel to my lodgings over the weekend. I'm going to a concert in Hyde Park of possibly my number one favourite singer and songwriter Paul Simon. Then a nice and relaxed day's travel back on Monday and there's nothing to it.
...I'm bricking it right now! I'm so, so nervous and I know I don't have to be. The weather's going to be just fine and I don't even have to run around for wellies, I don't have to worry abou work because that'll wait until Tuesday, but I'm. On. Needles. And I know it's unrealistic.
It's possibly because I'v finally drawn up a timeline of things I want completed by Decembre this year. I'm having another go at my PhD and the sheer amount of planning for the next 6 months that I have done scares the willies out of me. Possibly because I can see how much time I cannot afford to procrastinate from now on and I know that so far I have worked in 2 minute spurts followed by 20 - 30 minutes play time.
It's not all bad. I'm not depressed at the moment, just very, very stressed. I know I'll relax by the time I get to sit down to a nice sashimi dinner tonight. But at the moment I'm just going "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" Even though I like train journeys!
Anyways, I won't have internet over the weekend, but I'll be back on Monday and I'll try to have 30 minutes a day from now on to say hi, and what is going on.
Stay safe, stay focused, be happy.