Hello, I would like to introduce myself to P.A.
I am so glad I found P.A. I have been a C.P. most my life . In the last 3 years my life has really become unmanageable.
I suffer from Major Depression and Anxity Disorder with some Agraphobia thrown in. I tend to isolate and have no social life now . :-(
I have a long list of projects to do but instead I suff the web and play on line games. I feel very overwhelmed most the time when it comes to getting things done.
It took me 4 weeks to get around to writing this. I have started making lists instead keeping all these projects in my head. It's becoming a very long list. It's turning into a couple of lists.
I lie to others constantly to cover my C.P. I feel ashamed and guilty about my of lack of taking action.
I tend to sleep alot instead of dealing with stuff that needs to be done. Then I end up on line saying I will just check my email but end up on line for hours.
I have stopped exercising and started putting on extra weight. I don't procratinate when it comes to eating.
I use to love to swim. Some people don't realize that people can procrastate on things they love to do.
I want to also acknowlege some of the steps that I have taken to start getting better.
1. I made P.A. my home page.
2. I have attended 3 P.A. meeting in NYC.
3. I have started making lists instead of keeping it all in my head.
4. I pray to my H.P. for help.
So I have made some progress but I feel I need a lot of support but have a hard time reaching out. I realze I can't do this alone.
I am looking forward to making new friends so we can help each other.
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Hang in there
Sounds like you are taking positive steps for yourself. Wishing you strength to stay with it.
Welcome, kjeep coming back.mVic
Be confident. Stay focused. One thing at a time.
it sounds like you came to the right place. You've been going to the NYC meetings already--so you're well on your way to recovery, it looks like :D
I would like to say that i used to cover for my procrastination also. I try to do that less. I tell my boss i was "not focused." That's my euphamism / code word. It gets us talking about things that are closer to things i really need, instead of about some unrelated, made-up situation. Cuz i know my boss really does want to help me be productive, if he can.
"Some people don't realize that people can procrastate on things they love to do."
Yep, that was a key for me. That's when i knew something was really going on with me. I procrastinated on things that no one else wanted me to do--just my own fun things i had looked forward to.
also about doing it alone. I know i struggled with that for a long time. I still am tempted. But too many failures, i just have to admit i need this fellowship. These people. They are to me a gift from god. I was just praying thank you for PA in the car this morning.
"I am looking forward to making new friends so we can help each other."
And THAT is why this fellowship rocks!
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb