Hello, this is my first post :).
Hello, fellow comrades:
I'm very happy to be here. I was just accepted in the forums :D. Thanks a lot to Pro for the service :).
I had read a lot of stories in this forum and they are very near to my experience, some very touching. I have a similar story on my own. To make it fast, I'm 34 and since I remember I procrastinate. When I was a kid school was not a problem. I did my homeworks during my way in car to school. The problem came in university. I couldn't never get rid of the habit (or addiction) of doing everything important at the very last minute.
While in my 20s I slept 12-14 hours a day and surfed the Net like 6 hours daily. I just didn't want to think of having to do things done. The more important the stuff was, the less time I dedicate to it. It has costed me a lot of stress, I have nightmares of me still in kinder and elementary while generations of kids finish their grades. It has costed me not earning as much money I could do with my career because I have not graduated yet. I can't get access to superior grades, although I have the knowledge, I don't have the document that says I know.
I've been depressed since 12, I was treated for it at 30 with medicine. I felt suicide from 12 to 31 which consumes a lot of thinking-brain-energy, and suicide feelings are a magnificent food for procrastination. Thanks to medical treatment I could finish my credits in University but I have a lifetime of bad discipline habits. I'm trying to graduate again (have tried 4 times but procrastination came into my way and for that a lot of people has a very bad image of me, I can't blame them, they must think I'm the happiest lazy ever so proud of wasting other people's time).
I need to graduate. I need good habits and I can't fail this time. I'm doing my thesis with "the team of my dreams". My tutor is superb, subjects are what I want to focus on, there's camaradery among students, I'm so happy to be there. But I'm doing work so slowly! You know how it is! It's a "just 30 internet minutes" that end up being "time to sleep, tomorrow I will compensate for sure". Nightmares, blaming and self-esteem at night. Tomorrow the same.
I need to change. Everybody here, we need to change for the goods of our very own existences.
Somewhere I read that laziness is resting before being tired for working hard. I've been thinking on it lately to prepare mentally for work (why is it so hard?) and resist the urges to rest before work.
I hope to be helpful here; seems group help is effective in getting a more productive life for everyone :).
I wish all of you good sleep tonight after a long day of work and satisfaction.