Hello, this is my first post :).
Hello, fellow comrades:
I'm very happy to be here. I was just accepted in the forums :D. Thanks a lot to Pro for the service :).
I had read a lot of stories in this forum and they are very near to my experience, some very touching. I have a similar story on my own. To make it fast, I'm 34 and since I remember I procrastinate. When I was a kid school was not a problem. I did my homeworks during my way in car to school. The problem came in university. I couldn't never get rid of the habit (or addiction) of doing everything important at the very last minute.
While in my 20s I slept 12-14 hours a day and surfed the Net like 6 hours daily. I just didn't want to think of having to do things done. The more important the stuff was, the less time I dedicate to it. It has costed me a lot of stress, I have nightmares of me still in kinder and elementary while generations of kids finish their grades. It has costed me not earning as much money I could do with my career because I have not graduated yet. I can't get access to superior grades, although I have the knowledge, I don't have the document that says I know.
I've been depressed since 12, I was treated for it at 30 with medicine. I felt suicide from 12 to 31 which consumes a lot of thinking-brain-energy, and suicide feelings are a magnificent food for procrastination. Thanks to medical treatment I could finish my credits in University but I have a lifetime of bad discipline habits. I'm trying to graduate again (have tried 4 times but procrastination came into my way and for that a lot of people has a very bad image of me, I can't blame them, they must think I'm the happiest lazy ever so proud of wasting other people's time).
I need to graduate. I need good habits and I can't fail this time. I'm doing my thesis with "the team of my dreams". My tutor is superb, subjects are what I want to focus on, there's camaradery among students, I'm so happy to be there. But I'm doing work so slowly! You know how it is! It's a "just 30 internet minutes" that end up being "time to sleep, tomorrow I will compensate for sure". Nightmares, blaming and self-esteem at night. Tomorrow the same.
I need to change. Everybody here, we need to change for the goods of our very own existences.
Somewhere I read that laziness is resting before being tired for working hard. I've been thinking on it lately to prepare mentally for work (why is it so hard?) and resist the urges to rest before work.
I hope to be helpful here; seems group help is effective in getting a more productive life for everyone :).
I wish all of you good sleep tonight after a long day of work and satisfaction.
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Thank you very much
Thank you very much Clement, Journey and Overdue for the welcome :D. I feel very well here, reading through posts and relating. Clement: I still have to check out the chat. Already posted my Checklist and... it works :). Thanks a lot for the advices.
I hope to see you guys in Chatroom sometime, although I don't chat very often (perhaps I should try, why not :) ).
:D
Fear is only a thought and as a thought you can ignore it.
hi AllOfTheAbove
yep i think you found the right place. you say you've browsed around a bit, but just in case, here's my standard text on our main hang-outs:
The most popular tools here are the Daily Check-ins at http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/forum/6 (you can see today's on the right sidebar), and chat at http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/chatbox which is also in a tab at the top.
Use the tools however they work for you. Check-in is the more permanent, concrete to do list - accountability place to start your day and refer back to and keep yourself on goal.
The chat is an ongoing motivational tool to help you stick to your check in. It's also a place to "talk yourself thru things." And, while working, ppl can hear chat beeps going off. we call that "beeps of solidarity" because it's comforting to know that we're all in this together, that people are in chat working thru their issues just like you, even if you're not reading the actual posts.
more info on the mechanics of checking in is at url: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/2471
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
Welcome All!
Be confident. Stay focused. One thing at a time.
welcome alloftheabove
totally know the cycle yer talking about. sounds like you have some cool opportunities ahead and i hope you'll join us in the chatbox as we all try to move forward together here :)