Procratination has just about ruined my life. Iam in my early 30's, stuck in a dead end shitty low paying job. Looking back, I can see how many years ago I procrastinated at University while studying caused me to drop out. Ive been stuck in one dead end job after another. The past cant be undone, I acknowledge that yet I still procrastinate about improving my life. I can easily see all I have to do is apply for another, better job & do some study to get industry certifications, yet iam totally paralysed.
If I try to apply for a job, all I can do is freeze up, I get anxiety & panic attacks. I self sabotage myself by saying I am not good enough for the position, and there is no point applying.I say to myself I will do it later, or when I get more experience. I feel paralysed, and wont act unless everything is perfect. But it never is, and I never do, and its been going on for years. Only recently I have become more self aware of how bad my procrastination problem is.
Only recently my life has reached a tipping point, where iam overwhelmed by the depression, negativety and anxiety in my life. I KNOW I can make things better but I keep on procrastinating. Its a vicious circle, the more I procrastinate, the more depressed & anxious I get, and then I keep procrastinating.
Ive started seeing a psychologist, on dealing with my anxiety, procrastination, perfectionism & depression.
Anybody going through something similar?