Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Thanks FindingNewStrength for the happy starter!!!
Late checking in, didn't want to all day, so I'm happy to "show up."
We went over friends' house for lunch on Saturday, & it was extremely hard with being laughed at and slammed for my "obsession" with dogs. I thought these people were understanding, guess not.
Did nothing today. Hoping I show up at work tomorrow. Usually when Sundays go unplanned, Monday I like to take off, then Monday turns into Tuesday, etc. Anyway, I did relax and spend time with my Yoffee and stay abstinent (which wasn't easy today!!)
Wishing you all good things!!
♥"Careful the wish we make, wishes are children. Careful the path they take, wishes come true..." From "Children Will Listen," by Stephen Sondheim.♥
Please do not leave advice. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
This is the 69th (har har) day that I have followed through with the following:
I'm making a pledge to quit using the dating site(s) and Facebook for 90
days. I had written this on my 43things account, but I wrote that I
wanted to avoid dating sites for a full six months, so I think 90 days
is reasonable for a dating site. I also have a penchant for looking at
and stalking certain people repeatedly on the dating website and online,
which has prevented me from sanity. Just all out stalking certain
people has been all out crazy; if I'm not stalking one person, it's
another person. During times I've tried to quit the dating site
before, I have visited people's dating profiles, even while not
registered on the dating site. So part of my whole thing with quitting
dating sites is also quitting stalking people's profiles that I've tried
to date in the past. If I accidentally load a dating site, b/c I
accidentally clicked on something obviously that doesn't count. You can
hardly hang a cat on the Internet without hitting a dating site ad.
Intention is everything.
In other words:
90 days away from dating sites and facebook
90 days of not stalking people's profiles of people I've tried to date in the past
90 days of not stalking people online that I've tried to date in
the past. (I am now back on day 32 for this).
No Internet chat, aside from employment or twelve-step. This
includes not stalking people on AIM or other chat networks, whom I've
tried to date in the past. I just want to take a step back and get
sanity and focus on MYSELF. (I'm on day 2
of this.)
56 days of exercise: All I need to do is exercise for 30 minutes a
day: walking, swimming, hiking, biking, running, jogging, karate, yoga,
a dance class. Anything of those for at least 30 minutes. And nothing
else. I can do the running plan, but I assure myself that each day
that I show up to run, I will be okay, if all I do is ultimately choose
to walk. Whatever I feel comfortable with when I do. That way I don't
intimidate myself.
I did not create this world, nor did I create myself. I do not know what
the outcome of my life will be, or even what will happen to me next
week. If I try to manipulate reality and arrange circumstances to suit
myself, I become frustrated and unhappy I cannot control reality, but I
can change myself to be more in harmony with it.
When I accept an action or time plan or my top 6 action tasks [or whatever works to prioritize tasks and keep commitments] and follow it, I am slowly adjusting my mind and my body to what is best for my health and well-being. I have tried
the other way--adjusting my day, my tasks to the whims of my mood or my impulses --and the result is disaster and chaos in my life.
In PA, we follow a program which is sound and which has worked for
thousands of compulsive procastinators like ourselves. We stop trying to
make everything go according to our desires, and we start learning how
to live in the real world. With the guidance of our Higher Power, we
find our place.
I trust Your guidance.
Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations
MY BASICS: checking in; support calls(1x); affirmations;gratitudes;reading; check calendar AM; check calendar PM; listen to positive recording for 20 minutes; write down my 6 most important tasks; voicemail; exercise; manage A; manage D; use master list; use timer; track time on sheet and/or iPhone application
Affirmations (said aloud as well):
I choose to show up and start my top 6 tasks, 15 to 30 minutes at a time. I complete my top 6 tasks -- in 15 to 30 minute periods.I embrace the pain or feeling the pain while I do these tasks.
I know that if I have that old feeling of pain or anxiety while I am working on my top 6 - I will embrace and love that pain since it means that I am doing something important.
And remember . . . if I am feeling resistance or "shame" or "screwed up" or procrastinated at something lately, it's probably just the Dynamics of Human Change doing its checks & balances . . . I am going to keep going!
After my 1 year anniversary, I experienced significant relapse. The recovery I had attained (and I really HAD attained a good amount of recovery) evaporated, almost overnight - only to be replaced by apathy and a complete lack of willingness.
This is where I have been for the last 4 months.
In the meantime, fear and dissociation (common experiences for me when taking action, or contemplating taking action) have regained a foot-hold while my recovery has been on "vacation." I had stopped having certain fear-based, dissociative reactions while working in this program. I was able to take action much more consistently, and with joy - rather than fear. I had to work THROUGH the fear, be humble, reach out (a LOT), and pray to get there -- to that fearless, productive place.
Well...after my 1 year anniversary, I STOPPED being humble, reaching out, and praying. And, in the meantime - while I wasn't paying attention - the fear crept back in. I hadn't realized that would happen, but - hey? What else did I expect? I mean, really. Stop expanding, and what's predictably going to happen?
You retract.
So, here I am...sort of back at the starting point I was first at over a year ago. C'est la vie!
I prayed this morning. And I asked God to move me in the direction of forward motion, in each moment, and every moment. And that, when I slipped - and I will - to help me regain my footing in the next moment, and continue to keep putting my best foot forward. Moment by moment. It's the best I can do right now. It's far more than I HAVE been doing these last 4 months...
So - my to-do today? Pray.
When I feel fear ... pray.
When I start to dissociate ... pray.
When I feel overwhelmed ... pray.
When I want to stop ... pray.
When I want to turn on the t.v. ... pray.
When I accomplish a task, any task - no matter how small ... pray, & give thanks.
This is my to-do today. Pray.
Thank you God, for the life I have and all the blessings in it.
Help me to make each action this day one that brings me closer to you, and my highest good, moment by moment. Action by action. Breath by breath.
Amen.
(Thanks for reading.)
Yours in fellowship - MC
"[People] need to be connected to each other. Courage comes out of relationship; it doesn’t come out of willpower."Peter Block, author of Servant Leadership: Choosing Service Over Self-Interest.
I'm having real trouble this weekend. There is one large task that is freaking me out as soon as I think of it - the reasons why go way back and are largely down to procrastination 18 years ago leaving me in the situtation I'm in now. I feel so bad about it, I don't even like writing any information about it. So i'm going for baby-steps.
Tasks for today
bring files from downstairs up to the study and put in bookcase DONE
hope4meandu day 7 here
Thanks FindingNewStrength for the happy starter!!!
Late checking in, didn't want to all day, so I'm happy to "show up."
We went over friends' house for lunch on Saturday, & it was extremely hard with being laughed at and slammed for my "obsession" with dogs. I thought these people were understanding, guess not.
Did nothing today. Hoping I show up at work tomorrow. Usually when Sundays go unplanned, Monday I like to take off, then Monday turns into Tuesday, etc. Anyway, I did relax and spend time with my Yoffee and stay abstinent (which wasn't easy today!!)
Wishing you all good things!!
♥"Careful the wish we make, wishes are children. Careful the path they take, wishes come true..." From "Children Will Listen," by Stephen Sondheim.♥
fudoshin: day 69 : 1:33pm
Please do not leave advice. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
This is the 69th (har har) day that I have followed through with the following:
I'm making a pledge to quit using the dating site(s) and Facebook for 90
days. I had written this on my 43things account, but I wrote that I
wanted to avoid dating sites for a full six months, so I think 90 days
is reasonable for a dating site. I also have a penchant for looking at
and stalking certain people repeatedly on the dating website and online,
which has prevented me from sanity. Just all out stalking certain
people has been all out crazy; if I'm not stalking one person, it's
another person. During times I've tried to quit the dating site
before, I have visited people's dating profiles, even while not
registered on the dating site. So part of my whole thing with quitting
dating sites is also quitting stalking people's profiles that I've tried
to date in the past. If I accidentally load a dating site, b/c I
accidentally clicked on something obviously that doesn't count. You can
hardly hang a cat on the Internet without hitting a dating site ad.
Intention is everything.
In other words:
the past. (I am now back on day 32 for this).
includes not stalking people on AIM or other chat networks, whom I've
tried to date in the past. I just want to take a step back and get
sanity and focus on MYSELF. (I'm on day 2
of this.)
day: walking, swimming, hiking, biking, running, jogging, karate, yoga,
a dance class. Anything of those for at least 30 minutes. And nothing
else. I can do the running plan, but I assure myself that each day
that I show up to run, I will be okay, if all I do is ultimately choose
to walk. Whatever I feel comfortable with when I do. That way I don't
intimidate myself.
12step chatroom mtg Sundays @3:30PM NewYork; 8:30PM London
12step meeting in PA meetings chatbox today
New York: 3:30PM Sunday, NorthAmerican Eastern Daylight Time
London: 8:30PM Sunday, British Daylight (Summer) Time
Sydney Australia: 6:30AM MONDAY, Australia Eastern Standard Time
To find meeting in YOUR timezone, go here:
http://timeanddate.com/worldclock/fixedtime.html?month=3&day=27&year=2011&hour=19&min=30&sec=0&p1=0
For help entering meeting chat, go here:
http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/2473
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tracy-la check in sunday march 26
Finding Our Place
I did not create this world, nor did I create myself. I do not know what
the outcome of my life will be, or even what will happen to me next
week. If I try to manipulate reality and arrange circumstances to suit
myself, I become frustrated and unhappy I cannot control reality, but I
can change myself to be more in harmony with it.
When I accept an action or time plan or my top 6 action tasks [or whatever works to prioritize tasks and keep commitments] and follow it, I am slowly adjusting my mind and my body to what is best for my health and well-being. I have tried
the other way--adjusting my day, my tasks to the whims of my mood or my impulses --and the result is disaster and chaos in my life.
In PA, we follow a program which is sound and which has worked for
thousands of compulsive procastinators like ourselves. We stop trying to
make everything go according to our desires, and we start learning how
to live in the real world. With the guidance of our Higher Power, we
find our place.
I trust Your guidance.
Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations
MY BASICS:
checking in; support calls(1x);affirmations;gratitudes;reading;check calendar AM; check calendar PM; listen to positive recording for 20 minutes; write down my 6 most important tasks;voicemail; exercise; manage A; manage D; use master list; use timer; track time on sheet and/or iPhone applicationAffirmations (said aloud as well):
I choose to show up and start my top 6 tasks, 15 to 30 minutes at a time. I complete my top 6 tasks -- in 15 to 30 minute periods.I embrace the pain or feeling the pain while I do these tasks.
I know that if I have that old feeling of pain or anxiety while I am working on my top 6 - I will embrace and love that pain since it means that I am doing something important.
And remember . . . if I am feeling resistance or "shame" or "screwed up" or procrastinated at something lately, it's probably just the Dynamics of Human Change doing its checks & balances . . . I am going to keep going!
tracy-la
Vic 3/27/11
Show up (done)
1. Look at calender 2. plan 3. surrender 4. live and let live 5. be grateful
Good Morning
I have now been in this program 1 year, 4 months.
After my 1 year anniversary, I experienced significant relapse. The recovery I had attained (and I really HAD attained a good amount of recovery) evaporated, almost overnight - only to be replaced by apathy and a complete lack of willingness.
This is where I have been for the last 4 months.
In the meantime, fear and dissociation (common experiences for me when taking action, or contemplating taking action) have regained a foot-hold while my recovery has been on "vacation." I had stopped having certain fear-based, dissociative reactions while working in this program. I was able to take action much more consistently, and with joy - rather than fear. I had to work THROUGH the fear, be humble, reach out (a LOT), and pray to get there -- to that fearless, productive place.
Well...after my 1 year anniversary, I STOPPED being humble, reaching out, and praying. And, in the meantime - while I wasn't paying attention - the fear crept back in. I hadn't realized that would happen, but - hey? What else did I expect? I mean, really. Stop expanding, and what's predictably going to happen?
You retract.
So, here I am...sort of back at the starting point I was first at over a year ago. C'est la vie!
I prayed this morning. And I asked God to move me in the direction of forward motion, in each moment, and every moment. And that, when I slipped - and I will - to help me regain my footing in the next moment, and continue to keep putting my best foot forward. Moment by moment. It's the best I can do right now. It's far more than I HAVE been doing these last 4 months...
So - my to-do today? Pray.
When I feel fear ... pray.
When I start to dissociate ... pray.
When I feel overwhelmed ... pray.
When I want to stop ... pray.
When I want to turn on the t.v. ... pray.
When I accomplish a task, any task - no matter how small ... pray, & give thanks.
This is my to-do today. Pray.
Thank you God, for the life I have and all the blessings in it.
Help me to make each action this day one that brings me closer to you, and my highest good, moment by moment. Action by action. Breath by breath.
Amen.
(Thanks for reading.)
Yours in fellowship - MC
"[People] need to be connected to each other. Courage comes out of relationship; it doesn’t come out of willpower." Peter Block, author of Servant Leadership: Choosing Service Over Self-Interest.
(MC)
Thank you for your beautiful, honest share.
Interestingly enough, the thought "maybe I don;t need to "show up" anymore started to pop up in my mind more and more.
I feel so connected to everyone by the "human condition" in one form or another here.
I believe the person with the most recovery today is the person who woke up the earliest.
(hug) v
I can do all things through HP who strengthens me, and for this I too must pray.
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank FindingNewStrength for starting this trend.
Things I have done today
today
1. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting2. Morning prayer3. Went to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meetingThings I will do
1. Test blood sugar twice2. Cook and eat brunch3. Make bed
4. Wash dishes
5. Go to the hospital to get a doctor's statement
6. Go to the 3:30 p.m. online PA meeting7. Eat dinner8. Evening prayer
9. Take shower10. Get dressed11. Go to the 6:30 p.m. face to face DA meeting12. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting13. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone NA meeting14. Evening prayer
15. Read Step One in the 12&1216. Finish Step One in Al-Anon
17. Send out Al-Anon e-mail for today18. Post Al-Anon literature for the rest of the week19. Go to the 9:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting20. Clear off tables near and on the computer
Thanks for letting me share
Happy Sunday to
Happy Sunday to all.
I'm having real trouble this weekend. There is one large task that is freaking me out as soon as I think of it - the reasons why go way back and are largely down to procrastination 18 years ago leaving me in the situtation I'm in now. I feel so bad about it, I don't even like writing any information about it. So i'm going for baby-steps.
Tasks for today
H.
FNS Checkin
FNS CI
FNS CI
Start time 11:40
Goal - Work 9-5 pm with breaks
Work competed 0 hour(s) 40 mins
MITs
Spreadsheet
Job hunt (20 mins)
Paperwork mountain(10 mins)
Study (20 mins)
Finance - (10 mins) Form & call bank
Tax (10 mins)
Email M
Teeth/Floss/Interdental/ Mouthwash (10 mins)
To do
CI (20 mins)
Tidy living room (20 mins)
Tidy bedroom (40 mins)
Washing up (40 mins)
Clean kitchen (40 mins)
Laundry (20 mins)
Lunch (1 hour)
Morning routine Dressed/Breakfast (0 mins)
Evening & Tomorrow
Yoga 5 pm
Bank
Battery for fire alarm
Teeth/Floss/Interdental/ Mouthwash (10 mins)
Time spent
11:40 - 12:00 CI
12:00 - 13:20 Kitchen/ washing up
13:20 - 13:40 Laundry
13:40 - 14:50 Lunch
14:50 - 2:00 Teeth