Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Last night didn't get much done cuz I was zonked from my headcold. Feeling a little better today.
Things to do. . .
I'm not sure yet! But I do have some chores -Vitamins -Dishes in sink -Empty dishwasher -Laundry (Connor's)- washing -Laundry-drying
-Laundry-putting away
Not sure about HW or other stuff yet for tonite. . .
client #2: follow up with producer on regional thoughs & new assignment
biz dev: send contact info, perhaps twitter leads to "handmade" woman
PERSONAL / ERRANDS
pa contribution
return call: JM
babysitting for saturday
eyeglasses replace lenses
cable bill
call SS re error
college-money stuff for kids
DAILY RENEWAL
I'm powerless over impulsivity in response to any sort of emotional tweak.
I can't manage my life. I quit. I'm out of management. I'm listening for guidance and information from Higher Power, I'm open to doing whatever it might suggest for me, and I'm willing to follow instructions.
I want to be sober today. This is what sobriety looks like, as best as I can see it today:
Inner Circle behaviors (bottom lines, abstinence requirements) — just for this one day, I'll do whatever it takes to abstain from:
sleeping to avoid work/reality
using my sexuality to avoid work/reality
working without a clear plan -- a prioritized to-do list, a time-boxed calendar
working outside the PA Chatbox -- e.g., failing to bookend each task
staying in vague, unstructured time during business hours
impulsive decisions about what to do, or work on, during business hours
perfectionism: seeking immunity from disapproval/judgment. Typically I alternate between (1) avoidance and (2) unbounded research, editing, rumination until I feel total mastery over the subject; together, these mean I can take 10x-20x longer to complete a project than a "civilian" would. I'm not sober if I'm exceeding my time estimates more than 3x-4x.
Middle Circle (gray area; potentially signs of decline in spiritual condition)
working without a timer and without recording hours
working without trying to estimate how much time a task will take
working without trying to define scope of a task/project
Isolating
dishonesty
not communicating with people when plans change, when conflict or potential conflict arises, when I've done something I feel shame/embarrassment about
Outer Circle / top lines:
3 phone calls a day
daily prayer
daily meditation
5 minutes stepwork each day
3 Meetings / week
regular exercise
Doing whatever's necessary for me to experience my work process as one of choice and freedom.
Only higher power can keep me sober, but I need others to connect to higher power — and other people can help me see things I won't otherwise see, and can help me be accountable.
this is just for today. I can stay abstinent for the rest of today, and I can do my best on all the other stuff for the rest of today. Tomorrow's not my concern.
I turn my will and my life over to walking whatever path the truth — the dharma — reveals to me.
In the 24 hours ahead: I intend to write quick spot inventories if/when fear and anxiety arise, then turn them to another person and to HP.
* 1 load laundry
* 1 hour cleaning
* Stretch
* Get envelopes
* Mail stuff - keys and tix payment
* E-mail R
* Figure out payment to student loans - like, really
if I don't finish any of these today, I will do them tomorrow.
In fellowship - MC
"[People] need to be connected to each other. Courage comes out of relationship; it doesn’t come out of willpower."Peter Block, author of Servant Leadership: Choosing Service Over Self-Interest.
Checking in. Did my gratitudes today & being here is always one of them. The fellowship and remembering that I cannot do this alone is a daily blessing.
I am working on building more structure in my life and remembering the discipline that comes with working a program. This is part of my structure, checking in here.
Will check in later! tracy-la
Reading for day:
Compulsive Procrastinating is Hell
When we fall into the trap of compulsive procrastinating, it is as though we
are driven by some malevolent, diabolical force against which we are
powerless. We know with our minds that we should stop procrastinating and take action, but by
ourselves we cannot. Procrastination may start out pleasantly enough - just a
taste here and there - but it eventually becomes torture.
Because we know what we are doing to ourselves, we feel guilty while we
are procrastinating. Sometimes we procrastinate by doing relaxing things and numbing ourselves with TV, Internet, etc. Sometimes we procrastinate by doing lesser important tasks due to fear we have about certain dreaded tasks. Procrastination can be insidious. We hate ourselves because we cannot stop. The more we procrastinate,
the more uncomfortable we become mentally (and often physically since it can affect sleep and the way we eat). Paperwork may pile up. Tasks that are relatively simple take on an overstated importance just because they have been delayed.
Our minds begin to race along
old, negative, and irrational tracks. Anyone who gets in our way can be
the object of our anger. We lose control, we are separated from our
Higher Power, and we are in Hell.
Let us not forget every day that the first compulsive procrastination act opens the gates of Hell.
Lord, deliver me from the Hell of compulsive procrastinating.
Adapted "From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations"
Yesterday was a productive day, so today is busy but not too panicked.
Need to:
*Check on expts (inc. restoration)
*Finish orders *Finish rough draft of write-up
*MH emails. deal w/ email
*Coverslip and observe slides, email DR *Prioritized list of expts
*Organize papers/notes
*Finish sections of presentation on Dazl & Kitl & synchronization
(doing a little bit of this now)
*Go to workshop
Back from walk , listened to Explorers of the Infinite, interview with MariaCoffey . Going out for my walk feels like a mini version of what she talks about, feel alive, then back in house, feel dead. Need to connect, go on chat line and cla action line. My fault, waiting for my son to wake up and he got up late to do his home school work, now do not feel like doing it. Oh well, only way my feeling will change is by getting rid of negative feelings and doing it baby steps.
"[People] need to be connected to each other. Courage comes out of relationship; it doesn’t come out of willpower."Peter Block, author of Servant Leadership: Choosing Service Over Self-Interest.
Still working from home due to ice and snow. I could probably have made it in today but I'm a weenie about driving in this mess. I might make the trek downtown tomorrow, but we'll see.
I've had a very productive couple of days. Monday wasn't that great because I was stressed out by the weather and making prep for living without power and water - which didn't happen thank goodness! But I've done really well working from home Tuesday and Wednesday and planning to do the same today. Yesterday, I didn't get as much done as I wanted on my top priority project because I got bogged down in something else. I'm training someone on the project management that I did last year and I want to do a really good job of it - but the truth is, it is HIS project this year not mine so, while I need to support him and guide him, I need to do my own work and back off a bit on this one. There is one more question I want to get answered for him today, and then I will let go. I will. . Really, I will.
I've been getting up at 6, and I'm going to have to retrain myself to get up at 5 next week, but 6 is fine for this week. I've done email and checked my calendar, and made my todo list. Now I'm going to prioritize the list, and make a schedule for the day. After that, I will exercise, get cleaned up and dressed, and have breakfast. I should be back online and working at 9. I'll check in then, see y'all later.
Update 10 am - I decided to dial into a conference call that wasn't required, but I was interested. I exercised but I'm not dressed yet, going to get dressed now in 'work from home' clothes, then I'll work on my top priority project for two hours.
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
Well, it took four hours but I did indeed get in 2 solid hours of serious work on my top priority project. There's nothing else that can be done on this today. Now I need to do some administrative work to prepare for my 'on-call' week coming up. Should take 1-2 hours.
Update 4:30 admin stuff done. now I'll take a break and then do some research on two open low priority issues. I'll work on that for 30 minutes only.
Did I say 30 minutes? ok, an hour. I'm done with work for the day. packing up the lappy for tomorrow. Going to make dinner, do dishes and fold about 1/2 load of laundry, then I'll be done. I'll try to make it into the office tomorrow, but I'll wait until it's light before I leave, so I may exercise at home again.
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
I AM STILL NOT ABLE TO START SORTING THINGS OUT. I KNOW THAT I HAVE TO START WITH A LIST BUT EVEN THIS FRIGHTENS ME. SO MUCH TO DO, SO MUCH TO WORRY ABOUT AND I AM AFRAID TO SEE IT IN WRITING. I HOPE THAT IT IS OK TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU. I WILL TRY TO HAVE AN EXTRAORDINARY DAY. NOT SURE IN WHAT TIME ZONE YOU ARE, I AM IN THE UK.
You're in the right place! There are people in all time zones here and several folks from the UK that post regularly. If you are overwhelmed, start small. If you want to start with making a list, work on on the list for just 5 minutes. When you are ready, work on it for another 5 minutes. If making the list is too overwhelming, spend the 5 minutes on a task that needs to be done. When you're ready, do another 5 minutes.
5 minutes doesn't seem like much, but as Clem says, 5 minutes is infinitely more than nothing. Take a moment to enjoy your success when you complete your five minutes. Many of us have forgotten how to feel successful. You can build on that feeling of success and continue to accomplish your goal.s
Good luck!
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
there are many times i can not make a list because i would be overwhelmed.
i do the same thing. pick one thing. do it. if i make it thru that, pick another thing. do it. blinders on. sometimes that is the only way i can make progress.
wishing you recovery lilyann, even small steps, even a start.
We do not give advice but share our experience, strength and hope - take what you like and leave the rest:
I found by keeping my list short (2, maximum 3) of next steps, I got "push and kick started". Sometimes I feel like this one motorcycle my husband had, even though it had an electronic starter, half the time it did not work, , it still had to get push/kick started, but once he got it going, it was the best!!)
So right now my list is:1. change, 2 go for walk 3. write the next 2 or 3 things when I get back.
I stayed up late last night so I could attend the phone step meeting, which was great... the only downside was it begins at 2am where I am, so I didn't get to bed until way after 3am, and so I was late getting started today... it was worth it though!
Here are my to-do's for today:
Work on thesis - 6-7 hours DONE
Meditation - 1 hour - DONE
Meet friend for lunch
Misc errands/grocery shopping - DONE
I've been making a point of avoiding television since I started here, but I'm giving myself permission to watch a game tonight!
Evening OA meeting - Missed this.... :o(
I hope you're all having a good day... I'll check in again later!
Evening Work
Send in December invoicesCreate new landing page
Roll out menu bar updateSet up redirect
Pay Visa Card
Transfer Paypal
Submit press release
Email C
Give medication to cat
QT with SO
Bed by midnight
katia 1/13
End of the week for me :)
Last night didn't get much done cuz I was zonked from my headcold. Feeling a little better today.
Things to do. . .
I'm not sure yet! But I do have some chores
-Vitamins-Dishes in sink-Empty dishwasher-Laundry (Connor's)- washing-Laundry-drying-Laundry-putting away
Not sure about HW or other stuff yet for tonite. . .
1/13
lennon, thanks for starting the thread!
Work 8AM-5PM:
-Figure out fix for low
-Test low r
-Test high r
-Test add c
After Work 5PM-Sleep:
-Make pro/con chart I talked about with J
-Lift
-Document stuff for insurance
-ask mom about acctn
-read contract
-plan to go over bank statement w r [DONE]
-reread saying no article
-reread ng contract article
-find receipts for printer
-Buy stud finder, broom, packing tape from homedepot
-Buy mattress bags from uhaul
-put up j's mirror
-move mattress to garage
-clean up office
-deposit
1.13 Ian's list & renewal
Journaled some over here: http://bit.ly/eQM5AI
TO-DO LIST
FIRST THINGS FIRST - RECOVERY
morning prayerjournalingdaily renewalto-do listWORK
PERSONAL / ERRANDS
babysitting for saturdayDAILY RENEWAL
MC's to-dos
Hi all -
doing:
* 1 load laundry
* 1 hour cleaning
* Stretch
* Get envelopes
* Mail stuff - keys and tix payment
* E-mail R
* Figure out payment to student loans - like, really
if I don't finish any of these today, I will do them tomorrow.
In fellowship - MC
"[People] need to be connected to each other. Courage comes out of relationship; it doesn’t come out of willpower." Peter Block, author of Servant Leadership: Choosing Service Over Self-Interest.
Thursday with the Scribbler
get upat 6 (slept in until 7:30, as usual.)make bedexercise(two days in a row!)sweeps
coffee, paperhealthy breakfast
checkinsMorning
Update QuickenMusic marketingSend querycall 2 re: investorsAfternoon
Healthy lunchCall 2 re: multiunitDo 1 BNDo 2 CIOEvening
clement ci
thanks for this place, and yall and HP.
:) fix browser
:) 12:29-1:37 banking 1h 8min i had all kinds of computer problems
:) bible study (forgot. 1/2 hr late :( )
:) branches
:) tc gz
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
thurs check in tracy-la
Hi Everyone,
Checking in. Did my gratitudes today & being here is always one of them. The fellowship and remembering that I cannot do this alone is a daily blessing.
I am working on building more structure in my life and remembering the discipline that comes with working a program. This is part of my structure, checking in here.
Will check in later! tracy-la
Reading for day:
Compulsive Procrastinating is Hell
When we fall into the trap of compulsive procrastinating, it is as though we
are driven by some malevolent, diabolical force against which we are
powerless. We know with our minds that we should stop procrastinating and take action, but by
ourselves we cannot. Procrastination may start out pleasantly enough - just a
taste here and there - but it eventually becomes torture.
Because we know what we are doing to ourselves, we feel guilty while we
are procrastinating. Sometimes we procrastinate by doing relaxing things and numbing ourselves with TV, Internet, etc. Sometimes we procrastinate by doing lesser important tasks due to fear we have about certain dreaded tasks. Procrastination can be insidious. We hate ourselves because we cannot stop. The more we procrastinate,
the more uncomfortable we become mentally (and often physically since it can affect sleep and the way we eat). Paperwork may pile up. Tasks that are relatively simple take on an overstated importance just because they have been delayed.
Our minds begin to race along
old, negative, and irrational tracks. Anyone who gets in our way can be
the object of our anger. We lose control, we are separated from our
Higher Power, and we are in Hell.
Let us not forget every day that the first compulsive procrastination act opens the gates of Hell.
Lord, deliver me from the Hell of compulsive procrastinating.
Adapted "From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations"
tracy-la
@tracy la
These are awesome. Thanks for posting them.
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
kromer 10:20 CI
Yesterday was a productive day, so today is busy but not too panicked.
Need to:
*
Check on expts (inc. restoration)*Finish orders
*Finish rough draft of write-up*
MH emails.deal w/ email*
Coverslip andobserve slides, email DR*Prioritized list of expts*Organize papers/notes
*Finish sections of presentation on Dazl & Kitl & synchronization
(doing a little bit of this now)
*
Go to workshopVic /13/11
Show up (done)
Never did "feel" like doing anything yesterday, but did some,stuff anyway and did not shut down, and for that I am grateful.
Too cold/windy/yucky to walk yesterday, but starting with walk today while at least it is sunny, still cold and windy.
ck in later. Thanks for starter len, grateful for pa.
ck in
Back from walk , listened to Explorers of the Infinite, interview with Maria Coffey . Going out for my walk feels like a mini version of what she talks about, feel alive, then back in house, feel dead. Need to connect, go on chat line and cla action line. My fault, waiting for my son to wake up and he got up late to do his home school work, now do not feel like doing it. Oh well, only way my feeling will change is by getting rid of negative feelings and doing it baby steps.
Hi Vic!
I love your little penguin guy! Sooooo cute!
Hope the New Year finds you well!
Hugs -
MC
"[People] need to be connected to each other. Courage comes out of relationship; it doesn’t come out of willpower." Peter Block, author of Servant Leadership: Choosing Service Over Self-Interest.
(MC)
Thanks and same for you in snowy Boston!!
Journey 7 am & updates
Still working from home due to ice and snow. I could probably have made it in today but I'm a weenie about driving in this mess. I might make the trek downtown tomorrow, but we'll see.
I've had a very productive couple of days. Monday wasn't that great because I was stressed out by the weather and making prep for living without power and water - which didn't happen thank goodness! But I've done really well working from home Tuesday and Wednesday and planning to do the same today. Yesterday, I didn't get as much done as I wanted on my top priority project because I got bogged down in something else. I'm training someone on the project management that I did last year and I want to do a really good job of it - but the truth is, it is HIS project this year not mine so, while I need to support him and guide him, I need to do my own work and back off a bit on this one. There is one more question I want to get answered for him today, and then I will let go. I will. . Really, I will.
I've been getting up at 6, and I'm going to have to retrain myself to get up at 5 next week, but 6 is fine for this week. I've done email and checked my calendar, and made my todo list. Now I'm going to prioritize the list, and make a schedule for the day. After that, I will exercise, get cleaned up and dressed, and have breakfast. I should be back online and working at 9. I'll check in then, see y'all later.
Update 10 am - I decided to dial into a conference call that wasn't required, but I was interested. I exercised but I'm not dressed yet, going to get dressed now in 'work from home' clothes, then I'll work on my top priority project for two hours.
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
Journey 2:15
Well, it took four hours but I did indeed get in 2 solid hours of serious work on my top priority project. There's nothing else that can be done on this today. Now I need to do some administrative work to prepare for my 'on-call' week coming up. Should take 1-2 hours.
Update 4:30 admin stuff done. now I'll take a break and then do some research on two open low priority issues. I'll work on that for 30 minutes only.
Did I say 30 minutes? ok, an hour. I'm done with work for the day. packing up the lappy for tomorrow. Going to make dinner, do dishes and fold about 1/2 load of laundry, then I'll be done. I'll try to make it into the office tomorrow, but I'll wait until it's light before I leave, so I may exercise at home again.
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
I AM STILL NOT ABLE TO
I AM STILL NOT ABLE TO START SORTING THINGS OUT. I KNOW THAT I HAVE TO START WITH A LIST BUT EVEN THIS FRIGHTENS ME. SO MUCH TO DO, SO MUCH TO WORRY ABOUT AND I AM AFRAID TO SEE IT IN WRITING. I HOPE THAT IT IS OK TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU. I WILL TRY TO HAVE AN EXTRAORDINARY DAY. NOT SURE IN WHAT TIME ZONE YOU ARE, I AM IN THE UK.
LILYANN
@lilyann
You're in the right place! There are people in all time zones here and several folks from the UK that post regularly. If you are overwhelmed, start small. If you want to start with making a list, work on on the list for just 5 minutes. When you are ready, work on it for another 5 minutes. If making the list is too overwhelming, spend the 5 minutes on a task that needs to be done. When you're ready, do another 5 minutes.
5 minutes doesn't seem like much, but as Clem says, 5 minutes is infinitely more than nothing. Take a moment to enjoy your success when you complete your five minutes. Many of us have forgotten how to feel successful. You can build on that feeling of success and continue to accomplish your goal.s
Good luck!
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
on being overwhelmed
ditto vic!
there are many times i can not make a list because i would be overwhelmed.
i do the same thing. pick one thing. do it. if i make it thru that, pick another thing. do it. blinders on. sometimes that is the only way i can make progress.
wishing you recovery lilyann, even small steps, even a start.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
(LillyA)
We do not give advice but share our experience, strength and hope - take what you like and leave the rest:
I found by keeping my list short (2, maximum 3) of next steps, I got "push and kick started". Sometimes I feel like this one motorcycle my husband had, even though it had an electronic starter, half the time it did not work, , it still had to get push/kick started, but once he got it going, it was the best!!)
So right now my list is:1. change, 2 go for walk 3. write the next 2 or 3 things when I get back.
Lucca's to-do list, Thursday
Hi everyone!
I stayed up late last night so I could attend the phone step meeting, which was great... the only downside was it begins at 2am where I am, so I didn't get to bed until way after 3am, and so I was late getting started today... it was worth it though!
Here are my to-do's for today:
I hope you're all having a good day... I'll check in again later!
Hugs,
Lucca
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting2. Take nap3. Go to the therapy group at 9 a.m.
4. Go to individual therapy at 10:155. Give my Insurance information to the mental health center6. Go to the Internship between 1-57. Eat brunch8. Declutter 1,000 e-mail9. Eat dinner
10. Do homework11. Take shower12. Get dressed13. Make bed
14. Wash dishes
15. Post and send out Al-Anon literature for today16. Read Chapter 1 on textbook
17. Test my blood sugar twice18. Do numbers19. Went to the 9 p.m. online EA meetingThanks for letting me share