Hello, I'm new here :)
Hi, I am Kate, I'm 26 and just recently graduated college in early December. With all of this free time now, I'm supposed to be looking for a job. (I told myself I'd wait a week after I graduate before looking for a job, and then told myself I'd start looking after christmas, then said I'd start tomorrow...you know how this goes)...I'm having trouble getting going now and this seemed like the place to turn to.
I have been diagnosed with and have delt with ADD/ADHD, depression, anxiety, perfectionism, all or nothing thinking, etc.. for a long time. ...Even though I've grown in the past years and feel great now about my life (after having seen therapists and got on medication) I StiLL have the kept some of the same thought patterns and the habit of escaping from things. I am trying to get a job and also need to get healthy again and get back in the gym, but no matter how much I plan it or how really really ReAlLY bad I want it, I find myself everytime sitting on my bed, eating bad food, watching tv, escaping.. ("okay ill give u this ONE more day, but tomorrow I'm serious, no more of this sitting around anymore..Getting a job and getting healthy is what you want more than anything!")..
It doesnt even have to be big things..Sometimes I avoid getting in the shower just because its something I HAVE to do..I guess thats the reason I resist, but either way, I find myself not getting up to do it. This, along with some negative self talk, has gotten me to a state where I feel paralysed in my tracks. I've got the lists..oh the lists...but no action behind it..I have recognized myself in so many of pro's articles and figured this would be a great place to reach out to people for some encourgement and help..
Thank you for listening, really, and I hope your day was successful :)