Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
everything is taking longer than I thought it would...
but I've been consistently working and that's something I haven't done for a week or more...
After 7- 8 years of dropping in, dropping out, dropping the ball, having the hammer dropped, I may actually have an undergraduate degree by May afterall..
It is nearly the end of the year. I can't post without saying that have initiated a separation from my husband and he has gone away today. It happened quite suddenly and it doesn't seem to be appropriate to go into much detail, but as you would expect I am quite low . I still care about him and hope we can sort things out, but had to draw a line. I am quite scared I have made a mistake, but at least trusting my decision for now rather than berating myself.
Doing some things I planned has helped: making dinner, doing dishes, checking data, sending data off, doing banking and bills. Now the hard part - I need to ring our good friends who invited us to spend New Year's Eve with them and tell them what has happened.
Not much else today - will have a nap, do exercises and maybe some cleaning if I have the energy.
Thinking of you. Not sure what to say, as I don't know all the details, but I know some part of it. Nor do I have any fantastic advice because I'm still crying over my heartache. I just want to say I know it absolutely sucks. But I'd like to think it'll work out. *hugs*
Thank you for your kind thoughts and hugs Katia. Don't think I can talk about it much on a public forum, don't know that I fully understand it myself anyway. We have had our share of problems over the years but I had really hoped things were getting better.
Hi everyone as 2010 is winding down. New year. New opportunities.
Read a nice quote today: Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.
We know what many of us here think about . . . so keep coming back :)
Basics:
Exercise:
Projects:
Project S: DONE
Project G:
Project N: DONE
Banking before 3 pm DONE
Project C:
Project O: Done.
Reading for Today: The reading for today was a good reminder for me that simply working the steps won't be an automatic cure for any of my issues and that if I start thinking -- oh I've been coming here for 6 months and I am still procrastinating, it's not working -- I remember that I am laying foundation and changing the thinking and habits that got me to where I've been.
Here's the excerpt from my reading today:
1. Laying the Foundation. The groundwork has been laid. Do you not see that? Don't you understand that all you have gone through was for a purpose?
There was a reason, a good reason, for the waiting, the struggle, the pain, and finally the release.
You
have been prepared. The same way a builder must first tear down and dig
out the old to make way for the new, your Higher Power has been
cleaning out the foundation in your life.
Have
you ever watched a builder at construction? When he begins his work, it
looks worse than before he began. What is old and decayed must be
removed. What is insufficient or too weak to support the new structure
must be removed, replaced, or reinforced. No builder who cares about his
or her work would put a new surface over an insufficient support
system. The foundation would give way. It would not last.
If
the finished product is to be what is desired, the work must be done
thoroughly from the bottom up. As the work progresses, it often appears
to be an upheaval. Often, it does not seem to make sense. It may appear
to be wasted time and effort, because we cannot see the final product
yet.
But it is so important that
the foundation be laid properly if the fun work, the finishing touches,
is to be all that we want it to be.
This
long, hard time in your life has been for laying of groundwork. It was
not without purpose, although at times the purpose may not have been
evident or apparent.
Now, the foundation has been laid. The structure is solid. Now, it is time for the finishing touches, the completion.
It is time to move the furniture in and enjoy the fruits of the labor.
Congratulations.
You have had the patience to endure the hard parts. You have trusted,
surrendered, and allowed your Higher Power and the Universe to heal and
prepare you.
Now, you shall enjoy the good that has been planned. Now, you shall see the purpose. Now, it shall all come together and make sense. Enjoy.
Today,
I will surrender to the laying of the foundation - the groundwork - in
my life. If it is time to enjoy the placement of the finishing touches, I
will surrender to that, and enjoy that too. I will remember to be
grateful for a Higher Power that is a Master Builder and only has my
best interests in mind, creating and constructing my life. I will be
grateful for my Higher Power's care and attention to details in laying
the foundation - even though I become impatient at times. I will stand
in awe at the beauty of God's finished product.
The other reading I read today is a reminder about honesty and integrity and how not being impeccable with our promises to ourselves and others can be damaging. So telling the truth - even to ourselves like keeping deadlines or getting things done we want to complete and not lying to ourselves is important. But not meeting deadlines can involve other issues and can lead to lying if one is not careful.
2. Telling the truth is a pretty hard thing. —Thomas Wolfe
Lying
can be like sailing choppy waters. The more we lie, the higher the
waves get, and the harder the sailing. When we lie, we feel we've failed
ourselves and others. We have to work hard to cover up our lies, and
the fear of someone finding out is always with us.
If
we ask God for courage to tell the truth, we can be like the sailboat
on a clear and calm day. We can enjoy the small waves and the light warm
breeze we've given ourselves. Honesty is a good habit, and is easy.
With a little faith in our own worth, we can choose the calm waters'
honesty and apply our creativity to new, growth-oriented activities
instead of covering up old mistakes.
Done:
Up prayer and reflection
French study
Lots of admin - it is now in a bit of a mess as I have tried to do several bits at once and it is all muddled. I've made several phone calls and need to note the advice I've received.
Dealt with mail and emails
Show up (done) Feeling anxious,panicky, did not complete even 10% of what I "thought" I could do.This triggered the "downward spiral". Need to remember what I "did" do, grateful for the less than 10% that I did. Also the miracle of Did not use food, alcohol, etc. - that is a miracle right there, I forget, did not shut down, , how ungrateful I can be, I never dreamed this would ever happen for me, and yet it did, when I think but for the grace of God, I "catch" myself sooner when I start this road, with a little help from HP, got on a phone meeting as they read:
Acceptance from p. 449 of Alcoholics Anonymous, the Big Book of AA
And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation--some fact of my life--unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
God help me change my thinking, get out of my head, and be willing to do the next right thing, and remeber to be grateful for all you have given me.
Thanks for being here PA (ers). May your day be full of acceptance, gratitude and grace.
Back in the office today and not that happy about it :) I've read email and started my todo list. I have coffee now, and I'll finish up that list and get busy!
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
- Meditation (60 minutes) - Never got to my meditation today. It's 10.30pm where I am now, and I still have to finish some work, so I think I'm gonna let it slide..
Treason... checkin' it
everything is taking longer than I thought it would...
but I've been consistently working and that's something I haven't done for a week or more...
After 7- 8 years of dropping in, dropping out, dropping the ball, having the hammer dropped, I may actually have an undergraduate degree by May afterall..
Feeling hopeful..
Findingaway check in
3.40 pm Friday
Thanks for starting the thread lennon.
It is nearly the end of the year. I can't post without saying that have initiated a separation from my husband and he has gone away today. It happened quite suddenly and it doesn't seem to be appropriate to go into much detail, but as you would expect I am quite low
. I still care about him and hope we can sort things out, but had to draw a line. I am quite scared I have made a mistake, but at least trusting my decision for now rather than berating myself.
Doing some things I planned has helped: making dinner, doing dishes, checking data, sending data off, doing banking and bills. Now the hard part - I need to ring our good friends who invited us to spend New Year's Eve with them and tell them what has happened.
Not much else today - will have a nap, do exercises and maybe some cleaning if I have the energy.
(((findingaway)))
Thinking of you. Not sure what to say, as I don't know all the details, but I know some part of it. Nor do I have any fantastic advice because I'm still crying over my heartache. I just want to say I know it absolutely sucks. But I'd like to think it'll work out. *hugs*
Thanks Katia
Thank you for your kind thoughts and hugs Katia. Don't think I can talk about it much on a public forum, don't know that I fully understand it myself anyway. We have had our share of problems over the years but I had really hoped things were getting better.
Hope things get better for you too.
tracy-la dec 30 check in
Hi everyone as 2010 is winding down. New year. New opportunities.
Read a nice quote today: Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.
We know what many of us here think about . . . so keep coming back :)
Basics:
Exercise:
Projects:
Project S:
DONEProject G:
Project N:
DONE
Banking before 3 pm DONEProject C:
Project O: Done.Reading for Today: The reading for today was a good reminder for me that simply working the steps won't be an automatic cure for any of my issues and that if I start thinking -- oh I've been coming here for 6 months and I am still procrastinating, it's not working -- I remember that I am laying foundation and changing the thinking and habits that got me to where I've been.
Here's the excerpt from my reading today:
1. Laying the Foundation. The groundwork has been laid. Do you not see that?
Don't you understand that all you have gone through was for a purpose?
There was a reason, a good reason, for the waiting, the struggle, the pain, and finally the release.
You
have been prepared. The same way a builder must first tear down and dig
out the old to make way for the new, your Higher Power has been
cleaning out the foundation in your life.
Have
you ever watched a builder at construction? When he begins his work, it
looks worse than before he began. What is old and decayed must be
removed. What is insufficient or too weak to support the new structure
must be removed, replaced, or reinforced. No builder who cares about his
or her work would put a new surface over an insufficient support
system. The foundation would give way. It would not last.
If
the finished product is to be what is desired, the work must be done
thoroughly from the bottom up. As the work progresses, it often appears
to be an upheaval. Often, it does not seem to make sense. It may appear
to be wasted time and effort, because we cannot see the final product
yet.
But it is so important that
the foundation be laid properly if the fun work, the finishing touches,
is to be all that we want it to be.
This
long, hard time in your life has been for laying of groundwork. It was
not without purpose, although at times the purpose may not have been
evident or apparent.
Now, the foundation has been laid. The structure is solid. Now, it is time for the finishing touches, the completion.
It is time to move the furniture in and enjoy the fruits of the labor.
Congratulations.
You have had the patience to endure the hard parts. You have trusted,
surrendered, and allowed your Higher Power and the Universe to heal and
prepare you.
Now, you shall enjoy the good that has been planned. Now, you shall see the purpose.
Now, it shall all come together and make sense. Enjoy.
Today,
I will surrender to the laying of the foundation - the groundwork - in
my life. If it is time to enjoy the placement of the finishing touches, I
will surrender to that, and enjoy that too. I will remember to be
grateful for a Higher Power that is a Master Builder and only has my
best interests in mind, creating and constructing my life. I will be
grateful for my Higher Power's care and attention to details in laying
the foundation - even though I become impatient at times. I will stand
in awe at the beauty of God's finished product.
The other reading I read today is a reminder about honesty and integrity and how not being impeccable with our promises to ourselves and others can be damaging. So telling the truth - even to ourselves like keeping deadlines or getting things done we want to complete and not lying to ourselves is important. But not meeting deadlines can involve other issues and can lead to lying if one is not careful.
2. Telling the truth is a pretty hard thing. —Thomas Wolfe
Lying
can be like sailing choppy waters. The more we lie, the higher the
waves get, and the harder the sailing. When we lie, we feel we've failed
ourselves and others. We have to work hard to cover up our lies, and
the fear of someone finding out is always with us.
If
we ask God for courage to tell the truth, we can be like the sailboat
on a clear and calm day. We can enjoy the small waves and the light warm
breeze we've given ourselves. Honesty is a good habit, and is easy.
With a little faith in our own worth, we can choose the calm waters'
honesty and apply our creativity to new, growth-oriented activities
instead of covering up old mistakes.
How can I smooth my waters right now?
tracy-la
katia 12/30
Packing to move 500 miles away. Don't want to go but I must. Busy!
-Vitamins/Fe1
-Email FJ
-Declutter mail
Just trying to show up right now. Craziness here!
Rexroth Check In
Thanks for starting the thread lennon
Done:
Up prayer and reflection
French study
Lots of admin - it is now in a bit of a mess as I have tried to do several bits at once and it is all muddled. I've made several phone calls and need to note the advice I've received.
Dealt with mail and emails
Todo:
Sort out admin
Regards Rexroth
Vic 12/30
Show up (done) Feeling anxious,panicky, did not complete even 10% of what I "thought" I could do.This triggered the "downward spiral". Need to remember what I "did" do, grateful for the less than 10% that I did. Also the miracle of Did not use food, alcohol, etc. - that is a miracle right there, I forget, did not shut down, , how ungrateful I can be, I never dreamed this would ever happen for me, and yet it did, when I think but for the grace of God, I "catch" myself sooner when I start this road, with a little help from HP, got on a phone meeting as they read:
Acceptance
from p. 449 of Alcoholics Anonymous, the Big Book of AA
And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation--some fact of my life--unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
God help me change my thinking, get out of my head, and be willing to do the next right thing, and remeber to be grateful for all you have given me.
Thanks for being here PA (ers). May your day be full of acceptance, gratitude and grace.
Just_me 16:05
Today I want to take it easy as I am still sick.
- expert opinion
- brush the cat
- prepare dinner
- empty dishwasher
- check e-mail
Thanks for letting me share
Journey 9 am
Back in the office today and not that happy about it :) I've read email and started my todo list. I have coffee now, and I'll finish up that list and get busy!
Jo
Never have an ordinary day! - Pepperidge Farm (lol)
Hi everyone! Here it goes
Hi everyone!
Here it goes for today:
- Exercise (90 minutes) - DONE
- Meditation (60 minutes) - Never got to my meditation today. It's 10.30pm where I am now, and I still have to finish some work, so I think I'm gonna let it slide..![Frown Frown](/sites/all/modules/tinymce/tinymce/jscripts/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/images/smiley-frown.gif)
- Work on thesis - 4 hours - DONE
- Freelance writing - 2 hours - DONE
- Post office, grocery shopping - DONE
- AA - DONE
I hope you all have a good day!
Hugs,
Luke
egfraz
12/30
Laundry
Prep for Day
Article 1Article 2
Article 3
Fold Clothes
Apply for one WCJ
Article 4
Article 5
Apply for one TWJ
Running
Take out trash
Sort Papers
Clean DeskArticle 6
Article 7
NA for Grad School App ProcessRead for FM Article (1 source)
Print CRF
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I have done today
Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meetingThings I will do today
1. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting2. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meeting3. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
4. Go to the 8 p.m. face to face NA meeting5. Make bed
6. Wash dishes7. Take shower8. Get dressed9. Send out Al-Anon literature for today10. Post Al-Anon literature for next week
11. Declutter 1,000 e-mail12. Get library books
13. Go to the Vocational group at 2:30
14. Go to my storage unit to inventory my storage
15. Prayer and meditation morning and evening
16. Eat brunch17. Eat dinner18. Test my blood sugar twice19. Call for PA Check-ins at 10:30,1:30, 3:30, 4:30Thanks for letting me share