Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Tuesday 28 December 2010

28 December, 2010 - 3:19am - Lucca

Hi everyone.... here's my list for today:

* Exercise - 90 minutes - DONE

* Meditation - 45 minutes - NEVER GOT TO MY MEDITATION TODAY Frown

* Thesis - 5 hours - ONLY DID THREE HOURS Undecided

* Clean apartment - 1 hour - DONE

* Post office / grocery shopping - DONE

I hope you all have a great day!

All the best,

Lucas 

‹ Monday 27 December 2010 Thursday December 30, 2010 ›

Findingaway check in

findingaway - 29 Dec 2010 - 5:26am

12.30 pm Wednesday

Back home again after Christmas visiting.

Not so much urgent stuff to do but still want to get some things done before the weekend.

Struggling with some difficult family stuff which is holding up joint projects. I just have to do what I can on my own, but feeling sad and anxious.

Done today:

  • exercises
  • banking
  • some emails
  • started laundry

Would like to do:

  • quotes for flood damage items
  • finish unpacking
  • finish laundry
  • 2 hours work on data project - not done Frown
  • cleaning job
  • make bread
  • make dinner

Thank you all for this site.

9.30 pm. Today did not go so well. I am planning for tomorrow and will try again. 

Rexroth Check In and Out

Rexroth - 28 Dec 2010 - 5:03pm

Spent day relaxing and now for bed and sleep.

Night Folks

Rexroth

tracy-la's dec 28 check in

tracy-la - 28 Dec 2010 - 4:22pm

Hi Everyone,

 

Taking day off work. Took morning off to read and relax. Will spend the afternoon unpacking and organizing my closets given that we moved in less than a month ago.  

 Finished 2 boxes. Will keep at it this afternoon since it will help me in the new year. 

Basics: 

tracy-la

Ian's journal / to-do list / daily renewal 12.28

ian_wnc - 28 Dec 2010 - 1:47pm

Intense feelings of "O god, I'm screwing up, I'm failing" ... I don't want to experience them, and chose this mornign to spend hours randomly investigating / downloading music rather than deal with the problems mounting in front of me.

What I don't want to do is contact the client who's surely getting very frustrated with me. And rather than either do the work and get caught up or ... well, whatever the fuck else I might do to actually face reality, I'm just sinking into paralysis, pulling the blanket over my head and hoping the world doesn't come get me, at least not right this instant.

This does NOT work. Maybe sponsor can talk some sense into me.

TO-DO LIST

FIRST THINGS FIRST - RECOVERY

  • call 1 - sponsor
  • morning prayer
  • meditation
  • journaling
  • daily renewal
  • readings
  • call 2
  • call 3
  • exercise
  • meeting

 

WORK

  • client #2: note to other consultant
  • client #2: creative brief, requirements, rough prototype
  • client #2: write microcontent

 

PERSONAL / ERRANDS

  • buy gift for brother

DAILY RENEWAL

  • I'm powerless over perfectionism, procrastination, intensely uncomfortable feelings (fear, despair, etc), and the various substances and behaviors I've used to cope with those feelings.
  • I'm powerless over under-earning, under-being, hiding from reality, living small.
  • I can't manage my life. I quit. I'm out of management.
  • I want to be sober today. For work issues, these are the inner-circle behaviors I want to avoid:
    • sleeping to avoid work/reality
    • using my sexuality to avoid work/reality
    • working without a clear plan -- a prioritized to-do list, a time-boxed calendar
    • working outside the PA Chatbox -- e.g., without bookending each task
    • staying in vague, unstructured time during business hours
    • impulsive decisions about what to do, or work on, during business hours
    • failure to record hours with a timer during business hours
    • failure to estimate how much time a task will take
    • failure to scope a project
    • engaging in perfectionism: seeking immunity from disapproval/judgment via a strategy of producing nothing until I feel total mastery over the subject, and then chipping away at a deliverable until I'm certain it is unassailably perfect. I'm not sober if I'm exceeding my time estimates more than 3x-4x.
  • top lines / outer circle:
    • I want to do whatever's necessary — go to any lengths in taking any spiritual actions that may be necessary for me to experience my work process as one of choice and freedom.
  • Only higher power can keep me sober, but I need others to connect to higher power — and other people can help me see things I won't otherwise see, and can help me be accountable.
  • this is just for today; tomorrow I can go another way if I so choose.
  • I turn my will and my life over to walking whatever path the truth — the dharma — reveals to me.
  • In the 24 hours ahead, I expect that I'll be afraid of my wife's scorn and fear and anger, and that I'll want to lie to her to prevent the brunt of that discomfort from hitting home. I hereby declare that my intention is to release these ideas and live in the Steps, just for today.
  • obstacles ahead: (1) urge to avoid work; urge to "make up for" late delivery by being perfect.

(Ian)

vic - 28 Dec 2010 - 5:46pm

Ian, I can so relate to the feelings and thoughts you wrote about. First of all, I assure you, you are not screwing up or failing.

By "showig up" and releasing all the insanity in your head, you are now in the top 10% of the successful population.

 Try not to be so hard on yourself.

He is a man whom it is impossible to please, because he is never pleased with himself.
  —Goethe

Today, we have before us a small piece of the future. We can begin by treating ourselves decently. Maybe we can't feel a strong sense of personal approval yet, but we can give ourselves some basic respect. We can start by remembering we have the love of God. We can affirm at least one positive thing about ourselves. After some positive reflection, we will have more to give to others.

Today, I will give myself approval for at least one thing.

AA 24 Hr:

Meditation for the Day

Although unseen, the Lord is always near to those who believe in Him and trust Him and depend on Him for the strength to meet the challenges of life. Although veiled from mortal sight, the Higher Power is always available to us whenever we humbly ask for it. The feeling that God is with us should not depend on any passing mood of ours; we should try to be always conscious of His power and love in the background of our lives.

Prayer for the Day

I pray that I may feel that God is not too far away to depend on for help. I pray that I may feel confident of His readiness to give me the power that I need.

 With your work/client, have you ever tried the swiss cheese method? Send an e-mail instead of call, do things out of order, etc.

Keep coming back.

@vic - thank you, brother

ian_wnc - 29 Dec 2010 - 11:48am

appreciate the support and suggestions. These recent work days haven't been what I wanted them to be, but then I don't have the skill of wanting what's reasonably and realistically possible. That's something I need to practice, too, alongside the practice of treating myself with kindness, respect, compassion, love. 

You kicked off some writing for me — see http://bit.ly/g8rGK3

thanks again,

- Ian 

 

katia 12/28

katia11 - 28 Dec 2010 - 3:35pm

Prepping for the big move on Friday. Nerve wracking!

Things to do-
-Vitamins/Fe1/Fe2
-OB appt
-Find textbooks
-Take things from sunroom to go
-Find checkbook
-Write check
-Address envelope
-Wrap present

It would be real helpful if I knew what needed to be done specifically.

My Day Today

lennon - 28 Dec 2010 - 10:08pm

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

Things I have done today

1. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

2. Went to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

3. Went to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

4. Went to the 10:30 a.m. telephone PA Check-in

Things I will do today

1. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

2. Test my blood sugar twice

3. Eat brunch

4. Eat dinner

5. Put clothes away

6. Make bed

7. Wash dishes

8. Get sleep card out

9. Take shower

10. Get dressed

11. Post and send out Al-Anon literature for today

12. Post Al-Anon literature for the rest of the week

13. Go to my appointment with sleep doctor at 2 p.m.

14. Declutter apartment for 15 minutes

15. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone DA Step Study

16. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

17. Go to the 9:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting.

18. Renew my library books

Thanks for letting me share

Vic 12/28

vic - 28 Dec 2010 - 5:49pm

 Show up (done)Keep forgetting that I am still "powerless". I need to remember to pray for the power to do the next right thing, willingness to do it, grateful for what I do, put my program first and everything else will fall into place.

from AA 12x12: "We had always said, "Grant me my wishes" instead of "Thy will be done." The love of God and man we understood not at all. Therefore we remained self-deceived, and so incapable of receiving enough grace to restore us to sanity. "

Thanks for being here.

10:30am- so grateful for this site. Don't know where anyone is,..... everyone I called, e-mailed,, etc.no one home. Got on phone meetings, no one there....... Have to laugh at my My first thought: "I guess if something happened, I don;t have to worry about getting stuff done on my list" ha ha  so here is my list My next action: 1. dishes, walk at noon, Joyce myers (done) , c;leaned frig, wash, done.

Recovery is 3fold, physical, emotional, spiritual. Right now focusing more on spiritual.