I am new and thankful to be here (my story - thank you for listening)
I am so happy that I found this website. I read many stories and saw myself in many of them.Here is my story: I used to be a very hard-working person until about 3 years ago when I became unemployed and felt isolated and rejected. It took few months for me just to give up doing anything and let myself be taken care of. Now it's been few years in this situation and state of mind ('path of least resistance' or whatever they call it). Since then, many opportunities have opened but I keep on hiding and postponing to do my job search. The situation is getting progressively worse and I am scared. I fell into a mode of total avoidance and postponing - not scheduling appointments, coming with excuses to miss social events, not being able to get out of the bed in the morning because of the anxiety of what I need to do during the day (and I know I am not going to do it unless there is a deadline I cannot avoid). I am so confused! I used to work 2 jobs, go to school, and be independent. Now I have left myself in the total care of my significant other. I know deep in my heart that I am not lazy, but I keep on procrastinating, waiting for a better day that I know is not going to come.
I hope that by discovering that this might be a mental condition rather than plain laziness will help me get more motivated to do things. I just need some support, because every time I mention my feelings in front of a friend or significant other I get yelled at: 'wake up,get over your fears, you can do it, organize yourself, make a to do list (have hundreds of those)', etc.
Thank you all for listening!