Tuesday, 7 September, 2010

Week of 9/5

WORK

find (and print) French worksheets
confirm registrations on ALEKS
finish Michael’s LR
research and send activities to Windham
sign up Josh for PE and art (?) classes
sign up Tyler for math strands classes
check into classes for Windhams
look up Ema's fee breakdown
search for robotics
send ed/career syllabus to Pagan
send links to Nasco, Delta, etc. to Rausch
report broken Brain Gym link
submit new POs –Williams, Windham, Rausch, Ollis, Shapiro, Bratz, Cann, Overby, Pagan
LRs and RSs – Williams, Strout, Pagan, Rausch, Gomez and Fabyan (11)
Study Island sign-ups!
Rosetta Stone sign-ups!
set appointment time windows
print maps by location
look through new student paperwork
add course titles to notes for HS students
adjust RC and or transcript for Sara, Stephanie and Michael
spreadsheet - new students
decide on HQTs
compile email contact list
check on drop slips
log in computer info.

HOME

pay BILLS!
add 10 numbers
ask Jeff about benefits
sweep stairs
water lawn and mow
buy stamps
hang closet door curtain
sort boxes in office
vacuum
laundry

J and I drove 3 hrs to his dr appt this morning and he had a mini crisis (all ok now)- but now he can't drive home and I was planning to work in the car. :-( I have a major work deadline at 0430.  What to do, what to do? 

I think that praying the Steps, Serenity Prayer and AA's Step 11 prayer most days diligently, pays deposits against days like this. Even though I failed to pray as we dashed into this day, I got help when I ran into that awful procrastination-prone wall of fearful indecision.  It occurred to me that we usually stay overnight at a lovely hotel with great staff, who perhaps would let us "camp" in the lobby until I get past this deadline even though we are not staying overnight with them this time. 

It was scary to ask (J wouldn't even come in until after I asked lol!) but they were delighted to be helpful, and so here we are!  I am just posting this now to share the experience, strength and hope, and now I am off to work on the project due in 1 hour!  Blessings to all. Thanks for sharing the journey into recovery with me today.

Had a good laugh yesterday while I sat at the pool watching the kids play. I had found on the web some worksheets used for OA and thought I'd revise them for PA. I did this back in March 2010.

One was a worksheet called "The ABCs" A = Abstinence (where you write out your abstinence),

B = the plan (write out the plan or powerful took to aid you in attaining your goal of sustaining abstinence for life) and C =

Compulsive (honest appraisal of trigger procrastination behaviors that lead you to "pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization."  

 So I read it all over and what I wrote. I also reread what the abstinence was to be. It said "an abstinence that you can sustain throughout your life with all life's challenges until the day you die. Make it livable, attainable and sustainable, i.e., something you are able to commit to now.

What did I write back in March 2010? Something I couldn't stick to for a week. It had such thinks in there like "get to work by 6:30 am every day"; "stick to my daily schedule"; "no chatting at work for more than 5 minutes"; not spending more than 30 minutes a day on the internet/TV/personal emails/writing my blog (combined). Oh and more that I won't go into.

 My perfectionism, my wanting to be very productive all the time, my other need to control my day -- all are refective in that.

Still working on an A that I can do every day till I die whether I am sick, my kids are sick, whether I am stuck in an airport for a day or on a soccer field all day for a kid tournament or stuck in some work meeting that goes 3 hours longer than expected.

I redid "A". 1. It is now "use electronics moderately" - email, Internet, TV, etc." [old brain says NO internet for 30 days - not realistic since I need it to work :)]

 2. plan to plan daily - even if for 1 minute. {This doesn't mean writing the plan -- which I may not get to, just planning to plan as I think I could do that every day no matter what. The plan can be a tool but I know it will need to be flexible and I will also want to build in as many routines as I can since that helps me but those are tools for me and not Abstinence.]

3. look at my calendar every day - even if for 1 minute. 

 4. thank the universe every day for being alive and be grateful for my life even when I don't feel it. [luckily I am a pretty positive person except when it comes to critiquing all my shortcomings]

 Tracy 

• prop to NP
• OMF cart
• 2006 info
• call for NE appt tomorrow
• ck bank acct 

vic: love the quote by spurgeon!

started with non-MIT today :(

:) ci (took long today, maybe 30 min)
next up: dailies

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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

   Show up (done) Think it through 

Here it is = here is where I can make my own luck.Thanks for the starter and  for being here, I have not found luck anywhere else..

"Many men owe the grandeur of their lives to their tremendous difficulties.' Charles H Spurgeon

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank Edge for starting the trend.

Things I will do today

1. Post and send Al-Anon literature for today

2. Post Al-Anon literature for the next two days

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

5. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

6. Go to the 11:00 telephone PA meeting

7. Prayer and meditation

8. Get my altar ready

9. Clear the couch

10. Clear the tables

11. Clear the floor

12. Have my friends visit me at 1:00 p.m.

13. Go through my storage boxes to put things up

14. Finish the assignment from my DA Sponsor

15. Call my DA Sponsor

16. Make bed

17. Wash dishes

18. Fix and eat brunch

19. Fix and eat dinner

20. Take shower

21. Do hair

22. Get numbers caught up

23. Write answers for questions for Steps One

24. Read Business book

25. Read Computer book.

26. Call for PA Check-In's

That's all I have.