I want to thank my Higher Power for this day, this fellowship, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I did today
1. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting
2. Went to see my therapist
3. Went to my therapy group.
4. Ate breakfast and lunch
5. Went to the library and got a book that was held for me,
6. Went to the school bookstore and got a couple of books for school.
7. Went to class
Things I will do today
1. Take shower
2. Make bed
3. Wash dishes
4. Put literature away
5. Put books together
6. Eat dinner
7. Eat snack
8. Get dressed
9. Get numbers caught up
10. Go to work
11. Meditate for a few minutes
12. Get my sleep apnea stuff ready for tonight
13. Go to the 10:00 p.m. telephone DA meeting
14. Do hair.
That's all I have
Thanks Lucky, great starter!!
Depression still getting the best & the worst of me. House getting dirtier and dirtier doesn't help. All I do is watch tv when I'm home. Haven't given my girl a bath (she cries and can't take it because she never cries), used the pedi paws for her nails (her feet are so sensitive) or brushed her. Don't want to go food shopping after work, but I have to. I'm lucky, someone offered to give me a ride home. Have plans with cousins on Sunday, hope they fall through (as usual).
I'm not fighting my procrastinating at work, so I'm bored. Don't do well with bored. I also know all I have to do is log into chatbox, but I refuse. Self-hatred abounds.
No workout this week. Will commit to 10 minutes today no matter what and Sunday??!!!
Take good care all!!
♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥
Hey, Hope, sounds like a particularly bad patch. Here's some unsolicited advice which sometimes works for me: you could just try to do *one* little thing today, as an icebreaker. In your case, maybe something for your pup would be easiest to start with. Maybe take her to get a bath, so she benefits and you don't have to deal with the crying. Or just brush her. (I think the PediPaws takes some getting used to, by the way, for you AND the pup.) Those are just some random ideas, worth what you are paying for them. But if they help...? Peace to you, in any case.
(from OA Recovery Site) How to love ourselves
DAY ONE~ ~ STOP ALL CRITICISM ~ ~
CRITICISM NEVER CHANGES A THING.REFUSE TO CRITICIZE YOURSELF.
ACCEPT YOURSELF EXACTLY AS YOU ARE.EVERYBODY CHANGES.WHEN YOU CRITICIZE YOURSELF,YOUR CHANGES ARE NEGATIVE.WHEN YOU APPROVE OF YOURSELF,
YOUR CHANGES ARE POSITIVE
DAY TWO~ ~ DON'T SCARE YOURSELF ~ ~
DON'T SCARE YOURSELF.STOP TERRORIZING YOURSELF
WITH YOUR THOUGHTS.IT'S A DREADFUL WAY TO LIVE!FIND A MENTAL IMAGE THAT GIVES YOU PLEASURE( MINE IS A WATERFALL),
AND IMMEDIATLEY SWITCH YOUR SCARY THOUGHT TO A PLEASURABLE THOUGHT.
DAY THREE~ ~ BE GENTLE AND KIND AND PATIENT ~ ~
BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF.BE KIND TO YOURSELF.BE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF
AS YOU LEARN THE NEW WAYS OF THINKING.TREAT YOURSELF AS YOU WOULD
SOMEONE YOU REALLY, REALLY LOVED.
your pa friend (s)
10:53 AM: Made pretty good if not stellar progress yesterday. Just want to continue to build on that.
Goal 1: 11 AM-1:30 PM: 9 cases in 2.5 hours.
Back to report.
12:53 PM: Struggling today. Managed only 1 case in the last hour and a half, and not because it was long or difficult. Diverted my attention to several non-work items, things that are somewhat important but not urgent. Will try to clear the cobwebs and refocus.
Goal 2: 1 - 2 PM: 4 cases in 1 hour.
Got up close to on time today and got exercise out of the way after breakfast. We'll see if that makes a differents in the overall productivity for the day. It feels pretty good, I can say right now. Today:
I am touched, moved and inspired reading your shares today, thanks everyone! With my Higher Power's help I will be fully present to these realities du jour:
Good morning! I got to the gym at 6:15 again today. Obviously I need to get up 15 minutes earlier but it's hard to get back in the habit of getting up early! I'll set my alarm 10 minutes earlier next week. Traffic was extremely good so I still got to work 15 minutes early but with school traffic my commute is going to be longer very soon.
This is quite doable.
BTW, my weight was down 1/2 lb. this morning. Hopefully the new workout routine is helping. I'm pretty tired of exercising like a maniac and eating right (most of the time) and still not losing weight!
Update 3 pm. OK, obviously i need to put an hour in my schedule every day for unplanned trouble/problem type stuff. I'm doing pretty good at working reasonably hard lately, but the lower priority stuff keeps dropping off the end of the list and never gets done.
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
Busy day today! I've had trouble focusing this week, so I have kind of a backlog. So, I'm tempted to just panic and say that there's no way I can finish my work. But that's clearly foolish: I can just work slowly and steadily on my backlog and it will get smaller (even if it doesn't disappear).
*Work on expt (1 hr)
*ChIP followup reading/writing (1 hr-ish) (have started this)
*Write up reading so far (2 hrs) (have done an hour of this)
*Run t.h and e.r. (1 hr) (working on this now)
*deal w/ last 2 week's emails, email a couple of friends (1 hr)
*Backups (30 min)
*Finish making index, script to calc. and make histogram (working on this now)
*ckit reading (2 hrs)
*Ref mgmt (1 hr)
OK, going to start witha little work on script (30 min) to help me settle down to work, then I'll write up reading so far, then I'll work on ChIP followup.
Show up (done) Some day.........when kids are grown, ....maybe my Fridays will look like the pic.(everyone here is invited) In meantime, even "I" can see that showing up for my high maintence teens is quite am accoplishment. Yesterday stopped teen son's teen friend from "blowing his head off", all because PA and my "showing up" all I did was "be there" HP did the rest. Thank you PA friends for helping me "show up" one more day.
That's pretty amazing Vic!
what a great example of the Power of Presence, and everything this program is about: being there for the next person in need. We never know who that is or where they might show up - only that we'll miss it if we're not fully present in our own lives. thanks for sharing that powerful story.
I think what you wrote says it all:
" Power of Presence, and everything this program is about: being there for the next person in need. We never know who that is or where they might show up - only that we'll miss it if we're not fully present in our own lives. "
In fact that was helped me define my food abstinence. I would ask myself, if I eat this can I .....be used by my hp if it comes up.(after 8 years in OA and searching for what food abstinence was) I suppose that is how I can define my "procrastination recovery" same way, and that is when my hp helps everything else fall into place for me.
thanks for the starter lucky! i didn't achieve much yesterday (mit-wise) so today i'm giving it another shot:
Up prayer and reflection
Bath and wash hair
Wash up and tidy kitchen
Deal with mail
Out to midday ceremony
All of above
A great deal of tidying up and sorting out
Sorted lists for going away and everything else
Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep
It's 5.30 in the morning here!
Yesterday was a washout - I have to travel to visit my parents today and am completely unprepared, but I did manage to make a tasklist just for the first part of this morning and to get up at this hour!
Up by 5 :)
Check in :)
Redo bug screen
Pack - remember phone charger
Quick room tidy
Wake C 7.15
Money to C
Remeber what your cute little train had to keep telling himself as he traveled the tracks.!! You are not alone.!
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