Grocery and cook dinner
Call Clelaning service
I aml not sure if this is where I check in?
Show up (done)
Great starter, I pondered on how strange it is that .today it accually has signficance in my life because of showing at PA. Thank you PA friends.
Grieving over the shocking loss of a friend, unexpected. How I wish I could have had one more time to talk both with my mother in law and now this person, I wonder if it is the result of my procrastination.The pain of not moving on my intention to connect and now it is too late is almost unbearable. Needless to say, not getting much done. But grateful I can still show up.
((((Vic)))) I'm so sorry.
I think that in most cases deaths, especially unexpected ones, leave the survivors with a sense of unfinished business, and longing for one more chance to connect. I am certainly no expert, but I feel this is a natural part of grieving our loved ones. Please don't beat yourself up over the 'one more' potential connection that was not realized. Relationships are, I think, the sum of everything we have shared with people, and the thoughts and feelings that remain strong even in death. Peace to you.
So sorry to hear.
♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥
11:00 AM: My recent personal, professional, and financial setbacks created a lot of self-doubt for me and made me question aspects of my identity. However, a couple of humiliating experiences yesterday made me realize that I can't let people or circumstances buffet me about just because my self-esteem is bruised and my troubled mind is preoccupied and absent. I can take a different approach to tasks, but I have to be present in my life and have to try as hard as I can to measure twice, cut once, and move on.
On the personal front, because I am more cognizant than ever of my own failings, I have been going overboard trying to give others the benefit of the doubt. This has not made me more self-assured, it has just made me tolerate unacceptable treatment from people who don't care about me in the interest of 'going with the flow'. Time to re-inhabit myself and live in the clear eyed present.
On the task front, I am also not operating in the clear eyed present. One thing I need to try to comprehend is precisely why 'the stack' of unfinished tasks, be it at work or elsewhere, seems so daunting. I got a call about an overdue report today that has been lying untouched in my to do pile for a couple of weeks. Under stress, I quickly took a look at it, and realized my input would take all of 5 minutes, and then it would be gone forever. So I did it. Why did it seem like such a mountain yesterday, though? Certainly I was not in touch with the reality of what it *was*, only the fear and trepidation of what it *might* turn out to be.
I know some of my tasks are 'bears' for me, and I have to wrestle with them to get them done. The question is, why do I allow *all* my tasks to weigh on me the same way? If I only had overdue 'bears', the soul crushing weight on me of unfinished work would be alleviated tremendously and I would undoubtedly *feel* a lot better. I need to suit my mental state and speed to the task at hand, not to the hardest possible task I dread.
Today's goal: Don't fight any sleeping bears, but clean up as much of the distracting underbrush as possible. It will make the *real* bears easier to see and tackle another day.
Back to report later.
I relate to every thing you shared, from giving too much "benefit of the doubt" to how every, every task weighs so heavily on me, which I could not put into words (until you said it) but knew something was wrong with my thinking.
Also, putting thing off forever and then when I finally do it, it either isn't so bad, takes only a short time, or I see that I've worked through something or learned a new skill that I didn't think I could do.
I honestly can't believe how this "procrastination" has such a hold on me.
Please keep coming back and posting.
Thanks for the feedback, Hope. Sometimes when I manage to gain a moment of distance and clarity (...when I was young...I caught a fleeting glimpse...out of the corner of my eye..), I have to shake my head. WHY do I make this harder than it is?
I recently heard someone share that it's not their fault - it's the disease. I really liked hearing that, and I'm trying to put these hurtful thoughts & actions off myself and onto this crazy behavior.
Prayers and recovery,
Hi group! Thanks for a great threadstarter, Lucky - like Rex said, this is such a happy memory, an encouraging story Mom and Dad would read us kids when we were little. :-)
This morning I got so upset by the neighbors' barking dogs - 2 yappers next door bark endlessly and eventually set off 4 large dogs in other yards, and it was mayhem for 20 solid minutes. I was literally shaking and felt I had to go confront the next-door lady whose 2 yappers always start it when she leaves them outside and ignores them. It took me an hour to calm down enough to get back on track. :-(
Today I think I can:
Things I got done.
1. Went to the 8:30 and 11:00 PA meetings
2. Paid my bills
3. Took my shower
4. Got dressed
5. Got my numbers caught up.
Things I will do
1. Empty two storage boxes
2. Post some Al-Anon literature for next week.
3. Prayer and Meditation
4. 12-Step literature
5. Read a book from the library
6. Practice some Accounting.
7. Do my PA check-in at 4:30 and 7:30.
8. Go to my 8:30 p.m. telephone DA Action Group
9. Eat Brunch
10. Cook and eat dinner.
That's all I have
Last night I avoided caffeine and was in bed by 11, set alarm and got up on time. Yes! Otherwise, a pretty regular Tuesday. Here goes:
Really need to cut the grass or get some exercise. I've been losing weight thanks to spending so much time on music. (It's hard to sing, play and eat at the same time, fortunately.) But I still need to exercise. And I'm hearing jungly noises from the backyard. Worried about stumbling over a lost tribe there.
Thanks Lucky for starter, I was thinking about a card I once got just like this, PERFECT!!
Doing better today, thank you for your support yesterday, you're amazing!!!!
I got a call from a cardioligists office, someone looking for p.t. person into possible f.t. It was a real good talk. I worry that I talked bad about my current employer, saying "I get in trouble for being nice to the customers," but it's true, but maybe shouldn't have said to her. Also that I could interview & be late coming in....doesn't give the best impression. Maybe it's good, so they see I'm not perfect, but maybe good enough... Even though I don't know what the word "good enough" means. We'll see. Ah yes, if it's the right fit, there's nothing I can do to ruin it, HP's in charge!!
Today really need to focus here and hustle to do extra, to keep my muscles flexed for a possible new position.
Been procrastinating about doing my girl's nails and brushing. She has very sensitive paws and I got this electric thing for her nails "Pedi Paws" and tonight I need to try and use them, gently and delicately in hopes that she can tolerate and I can keep her nails shorter.
-Yoffee brush and nails
-10 mts of exercise
-get on chatbox to help clean
scripture study and prayer
Biennial review project
Overdue Training project
take req. online courses
webinar - 9pm
Lucky, the thread starter is SO appropriate because I was listening to Ozzy's Crazy Train this morning lol.
I feel much more rested today, I felt tired yesterday, still tired from Sunday at the zoo with the grands. It was fun, but they wore me slap out. I was at the gym at 6:10 this morning and on the road to work at 7:40. That's a little earlier than Friday but I still need to improve on this. And, I think I must have been abducted by aliens again because I was totally ready to walk out of the house at 5:40, but when I got to my car it was 5:55. How does that happen? Anyway, we're off to a good start and here's the list:
OK, I'll just start at the top and work down. I forgot to bring my lunch so I'll have to go out.
4 pm Well, my schedule flew out the window after lunch. and I'm a bit annoyed because something I did for the BIC last week is incorrect - after I went over it with her twice AND had her check it when it was done. Now she's saying I must have 'misunderstood' and it has to be redone. I'll get this finished before I leave today and postpone the rest.
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
So far today have had prayer time, checked on expts, checked on email
Here are tasks for the day, MITs in bold, next priority in italic
For today I have lots of reading:
*Talk to G re:chip, follwup reading (2-3 hours)
*Print e.o stuff (30 min)
*Start ckit reading (2 hrs)
Some expt planning:
*RA prep (1 hr)
*Write up plan, ask about B's paper (1.5 hrs)
Some data analysis:
*Doc b.t, t.h and e.r. stuff
*Study Perl and start QC scripts (have made good progress on this)
And some chores and social stuff:
OK, having a little bit of a hard time deciding what to start on. I think I'll start with the Perl.
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.
The things I have done today
1. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting
2. Posted my share on the 7 a.m. meeting's topic.
3. Put out some Al-Anon literature
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 8:30 telephone PA meeting
2. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meeting
3. Prayer and meditation
4. Read 12-Step literature
5. Call a friend to bring some things to a charity
6. Take shower
7. Make bed
8. Wash dishes
9. Eat breakfast
10. Cook and eat dinner
11. Clear couch
12. Clear tables
13. Clear floor
14. Do my personal homework
15. Empty two storage boxes
16. 1:00 telephone meeting of CLA
17. 8:30 telephone DA Action Group
18. Read a library book
19. Get caught up on my numbers
20. Get dressed.
21. Pay one, maybe two bills.
It sounds like you have a great plan !
Just doing one thing, can make you feel positive.
If there is a setback, the support is so important.
It sounds like you are getting support.
As they say the future starts now:
Thanks Lucky for the starter which takes me back to childhood and happy times.
Up prayer and reflection
x Take printer to church
x Some shopping and bank on way back
Home and plan - at the moment I feel all over the place - I've started and still feel all over the place
x Wash up - from lunch yesterday
Check what is left in the top cupboard which I started emptying yesterday - I've started and am finding it hard to move stuff
and extras -
two loads of washing
book appointment for Friday typhoid jab
keep trying to sort things out
rest - I'm feeling muddled
above and still feel muddled and
had a great tidy up an sort out which has resulted in a worse mess or so it feels
prayer and reflection
bed and sleep
Up by 6.30 :)
Check in :)
Check in w/S :)
Confidence exercises :)
Pack wash stuff :)
Leave by 7.15
Read some of book
Pray & read bible
Work on assessment form :)
Pod check :)
Use task rotation :)
Paper - In progress
Tasks - In progress
Contracts: Sign/Scan/Copy - In progress
Contracts: Post - In progress
Lawyer/contract filing - In progress
Bible index - In progress
Bible filing - In progress
Archive bible filing - In progress
Books back inc D & E :)
Tidy & plan :)
Pack sellotape and pen :)
Leave by 1.50 for docs :)
Email & social sites - Part done
Look for ITW recs for M
Cancel bank card
Dog face wash
Floss/brush teeth/wash face/moisturise
Shut living room window
BED straight after check in!
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