Anxiey and procrastination
Does anyone have major anxiety issues creating procrastination problems rather than the other way around?
Over the last decade I experienced multiple losses and felt inundated with all there was to do. I was working 24/7 and always doing something in one area at the expense of something else in another one. I was anxious most of the time and I started avoiding things to deal with feeling so overwhelmed. Of course, that only made matters worse and the anxiety/procrastination cycle started.
I’m continually attempting to combat the problem by doing things like setting aside days/hours/mins (!) for certain tasks or giving myself rewards for getting things done. I’ve tried a hundred organizational strategies but each idea only works once or twice before anxiety kicks in! I start to feel short of breath, hot and sweaty, and panicky. I often end up doing some calming activity like watching TV.
I KNOW that the keys to (my) success are exercise, good diet, proper rest, socializing with friends, getting support, laughing, helping others, chunking work, and just jumping in and getting started. I can picture these things working for me but I can only manage to focus on a few before I feel paralyzed and weighed down.
I’m so frustrated with myself. I feel considerably better when I finally get something done or when I go out and interact with others but it’s like trying to walk out of quicksand to get myself started!!! Then, once I do get started and have a few good days, I can’t seem to keep up the momentum.
If I did, things would be so much better! It’s crazy-making! In some areas, things have actually eased up the past couple of years. I still feel sad, but I also laugh with my sons & dad a lot, enjoy good movies and so forth. If anything, though, the anxiety has gotten worse! Lately, it even feels like an ordeal just to go out to the store or make a phone call. This makes no sense to me!
Anxiety/depression --> Procrastination --> Try new strategy --> Only temporary fix --> Anxiety/depression --> Procrastination --> Work pile-up --> Ignore overall health to catch up --> Anxiety/depression
It’s a vicious cycle and I’m afraid I’ll never break it. Any thoughts?