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Thursday 15 October 2009
a good day to all and thanks for being here
serenity courage wisdom
The most basic
precept of all is to be aware of what we do, what we are, each minute.
Every other precept will follow from that.
~ Thich Nhat Hanh, Zen master
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OCz CI 16:50
Such a good day I hadn't find time to CI...
A minute to thank God. thank you for another day!Share big pending list with managerInstall WsS equipmentRequest remaining BaMPlace PO for BaM (16x350 + 2)Meet Proc Mgr about PX mtt renewalSend HR info to CRodSend GaP Apstld draftLive one step at a time!
Agnus 4pm
Howdy, strangers. <<sheepish grin>>
I've been missing in action for awhile: life just got too big and scary for me to do anything but hang on and pray. Things are setting down now, vacation is straight ahead (YAY!), and I am s-l-o-w-l-y getting ready for it. I put our personal tax return in the mail a whole day early yesterday!
Scary MITs I keep needing to put off because I can do nothing about them today: J's medication/surgery, corporate tax return, selling excess furniture, painting my office, creating a minimalist budget, my work schedule after vacation.
Other stuff I can do in next 24 hours:
TODAY - finish business class homework,
dinner, Big Book meeting,bedtime9:30pm.More like 10:30 but progress anyway.Notify house-sitter of new departure time.FRIDAY - AP final report narratives, clean out Inboxprogress; buy granddaughter's bday gift, pet and trip food; dust, vaccuum, laundry (jeans); pack for trip, change bedding, print out house-sitter notes; bed by 9:30pm. Then...VAY-CAY!! yay!
Recycler CI 4pm EST
Hi Pro Buddies!
This morning at the gym I did my cardio, stretches & ab exercises.
At work this morning I answered emails, and edited some database entries. At lunchtime I ate something out of the freezer, then updated my budget record. After lunch I have worked on projects from my assignment list.
Tonight I hope to do some prep work for the weekend. I'm not sure if I will get to update my CI.
5:55pm. I'm going to post as I work on things. Company is coming this weekend, so I need to make some progress ;)
6:25pm. 1st swipe at Zone 1 is completed. I've started a load of clothes in the washer.
7pm. I put the first load of clothes into the dryer, and have started a 2nd load in the washer. I need to start the dishwasher next.
7:30pm. I folded & put away most of the first load from the dryer, and have put the second load in the dryer. I have started the dishwasher. That's it for tonight! :)
Have a great night, everyone! :)
Recycler
Recycler
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
8's ci 12:50 pm
getting stuff done, but more to do.
buy tonercreat document and printJourney 1 pm
Good afternoon! PC issues kept me from checking in this am, so I'm doing it now. So far so good today, I have several tasks to complete this afternoon. See ya later.
Jo
"You've got to trust your instinct, and let go of regret. You've got to bet on yourself now, star, 'cause that's your best bet." - from All Mixed Up by 311
GeorgeSmiley 11:30 AM
A decluttering day
Today I'm giving myself time just to clean up, both the computer and the work space.
I got a huge gift yesterday. Project U is being delayed a month (which was why the editor wasn't badgering me for it!) so I'm ahead on it YAY! editor and I had a great discussion on first draft.
I will need to do some work on other projects today but Cleaning is MIT#1-2-3.
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Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church (1948-2009)
The Hero's Code:
Show Up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.
mj bd ci
My list for today:
Celebrate my birthday with family.
Meet w/ union rep.
make dentist appt.
buy son tx.
,-*'^'~*-.,_,.-*~Happy Birthday Mamajama!~*-.,_,.-*~'^'*-,
"You've got to trust your instinct, and let go of regret. You've got to bet on yourself now, star, 'cause that's your best bet." - from All Mixed Up by 311
thanks for the birthday wishes
Thanks, procrastinators, for the birthday wishes!
I did indeed actually have a good day. My attitude is positive, in spite of being in the process of dismissal from my job, partly because of unfair practices and school politics, partly, to be honest, because of my past procrastination.
A teacher just can't habitually procrastinate on planning, prep, and grading, and hope to keep a job. So, I'll be substitute teaching in another district (Thanks, higher power, for the instant postiive feedback - I got the letter of invitation from the other district today)...
That will probably work out better in the long run, as well as give me more time for creative pursuits, instead of lugging home piles of papers, lugging them all back ungraded the next day....I've been doing that a long time, and/or feverishly grading them all in a marathon last minute effort.
People keep asking me how I'm doing. There is a lot of sadness and grief...when a teacher loses his/her job, it's like a divorce, except that the school always gets to keep the kids.
I'm smiling, getting through day by day, and it isn't just because I'm heavily medicated. Higher power is holding me up, guiding me, making sure I get that "Way to go" message.
Thank you all for being out there, for showing up,paying attention, and speaking the truth.
Happy birthday mamajama!
one step at a time!
10/15
Good morning all
it's Thursday and there are two days left to complete all my tasks. I feel a bit off track right now, spent a lot of time on program items this week, can anyone tell me what happened to the phone draft of the promises, I can't find it anywhere. It was a lot of work and I hope it's not lost. Could use some help with finding it as we are still working on the editing.
Today I travel and have a task that I have been procrastinating on-finally figured out this morning the cause is if I make a mistake in the app. it will be a year b4 I can reapply and I can't break it down into smaller steps, it's done on line and I don't have the luxury of stopping and starting it must be completed in one sitting, talk about dread it is so present with this one. So I need help from my HP and will surrender the task to a power greater than myself and surrender the outcome. I will move forward even though in this instance imperfection is not an option.
Spirit
kromer 9:20 CI
OK, yesterday I had a bit of a hard time concentrating, but today I will try to make better
MITs are:
1)
Mail slides2)Download relevant datasets (will do this next)
3)
1 hr studying linear algebra
4)
Email MG, TL,re: NLP, DR,LL5)
Schedule for pilot6)
Harambee prepMedium-priority tasks are
1)
Talk to folks about biosensor2)Get sLDA working (30 min) (will do this before Harambee if I have time)
3)Get GSEA working (1 hr) (will do this when I finish MITs)
4)Deacon notes (30 min) (plan to do this after evening bible study)
Other tasks are (I won't get through all of these, but I maybe can do a few):
1)Finish looking into Sertoli cell sorting (I'd love to do this if I have time)
2)Finish reading about Sertoli cell culture
3)1 hr studying regression
4)Work on training compendium
5)Annotate RA pathway and brainstorm how I could use
6)Work on Scales website
OK, I'll start with something easy--making a schedule for the pilot. Then, I'll talk to people about how to mail slides, and download relevant datasets. Then, I'll take care of emails and do studying.
Vic 10/15
Show up, (done) make plan, ck in
walked store and volunteered at church library yesterday, and e-mailed my summary report (5:05) they were still there, so I still tried to sabotage myself, but HP was there. Today, do hard copy of report, drive into office. Make plan.I can try to do the 1.show up,2.pay attention, 3. Be honest, let go of results today
The truth is when I try to be aware of what I do/who I am each minute, I judge everything and feel bad about myself/my life and I want to shut down and give up. So the truth is I need do whatever I can to keep me going, even if it is imperfect and even if it is only “showing up” and trying to pay attention and not judge self. I am not where I want to be, but I am not where I was or could be. And I am not alone. Thanks for being here.
2pm ck in . well, once again down to that sick feeing, like I want to throw up as I think of my procratinating but at the same time I get more paralyzed. Talked to a sponsee, did work around house, etc. all avoidance- now my level of self loathing is off the charts. No one would understand but people here. I prayed but feel such shame and self loathing that I feel too ashamed to ask my HP for help. So, all I have is now:
Print final report . it does not have to be perfect/tools :
. Visualisation. Visualise the task being completed and how good it feels to have it off your list and out of your head.
2. Break it down into small steps. (But don't overanalyse; that's another form of procrastination.)
3. Exercise brute-force willpower (for now)
Lost again
I finished my report and drove it to the attorney's office. I got there at 6:30pm (it is a 25 mi drive one way from my house) and the office was closed and they had no drop off box. I just felt hopeless, again. What was I thinking? I assumed if no one was there (which they often are that late) I could drop it in the drop off box. I don't "think" they need it and I did e-mail a summary report and it usually takes 2 weeks to do and I did it in one, but all those ideas are mere excuses that don't make up for my pattern of doing things. The same thing might have happened next week.
Why do I keep doing this to myself? It's like the "day after" a food binge, or drinking, or any thing I pick would pick up. The guilt, remorse, fear, self condemnation, etc.I thought I would be different after I got substance recovery and I am, but this stuff is like the guy in the Big Book who spends a year with Dr. Jung, only to leave and come back bewildered about picking up. I don't know if I am making any sense. I am afraid now that my failures may be bringing others down and maybe just showing up isn't so great after all. Maybe I should be paying more attention and praying.
I keep getting stuff connected with prayer:
http://healingscripture.com/HealingRecord.shtml
http://healingscripture.com/Prayer.shtml
@vic
I think you should be annoyed with them because you drove all that way and found they don't have a stupid drop-off box! Don't all lawyers have those?!
Jo
"You've got to trust your instinct, and let go of regret. You've got to bet on yourself now, star, 'cause that's your best bet." - from All Mixed Up by 311
i been there, vic
first off, i think showing up is HUGE! That part of your recovery has always encouraged me, because, it seems true to me. We procrastinators dont show up. That's a huge part of our problem--the espace / avoidance / demand resistance. Overcoming that at least puts us in the game!
"80%of success is showing up" -Woody Allen
I have found that quote to be way more true than i would have guessed before PA. There are a lot of things in my life that just need to get done, any old way. mediocrity. I am not a fan of mediocrity. But somethings that's all they need, and to give them more takes away from other more important things. For these things, i just need to show up.
Everyone here has had setbacks in recovery. I think it is part of our problem to think that we will "go to PA (or some other thing) and get cured." We are not ones to think that recovery will be a long road with many setbacks, and that at the end of each year we can look back and think we've done a little better than last year.
Many, many times i have felt that way--"i guess i'm not recovered after all." When i'm feeling that way, when i'm in the midst of it, it feels so obviously true. But out here, in the "sane" world, i can see that it is an exaggeration. Did i just fail at something, like i always have? Yes, that might be true. But where does that urge to just disregard all the progress i've made in the last year, because of one recent failure? I dont know, but i think it's part of the syndrome.
It would be sad to log into PA and not see your "show up (done)" every day ! :)
take heart! John 16:33
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
Thank you Jo and Clem
You are so right, we need to look at the progress, I love the saying "Grace Grows best in Frields of Gratitude". I suppose just like I needed to plan not to eat/ drink/ I need to learn more about planning not to sabotage. As usual, I learn more form my failures than I do from my sucesses.
Showing up against my will truely is a testimony to the promises in recovery. Thank you.
CL daily overcoming
another day, another day to day, to turn my life and will over to god and just obey.
7am quiet time. - DONE
wko - DONE
fix dir problem - DONE
bible study @work - DONE
1:35 daily tasks - DONE
1:40 work plan
1:50 work
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
Hope-Faith CI 5:15
Good Morning All
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