Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Monday 28 September 2009

We will realize that we are enough; we will value ourselves and our contributions

from the P.A. Promises of Recovery


Valuing this moment, taking the next step ...

thanks all, for being here

 Lucky is baaaaack!

Thanks for your support on my last post (Clement, I checked out 'The Practice of the Presence of God' - awesome - though needless to say I'm very bad at it as yet!)

My housemate found me asleep at my computer at 4am Friday night after I'd been up procrastinating for 5 hours because I wouldn't let myself go to bed until I put the groceries away. She was VERY angry, but it led to a really helpful conversation the next day, and I agreed only to use the internet for essentials for the rest of the weekend, in order to get the urgent stuff done.

I was able to get my long task done for my housemate, borrow the money I need, and find my dogsitter's house key :) (although my room is still a total mess.)

So things are looking up - although there's a very long way to go yet - I'm struggling a lot at work this week (in that 'there's so much work I can't do any of it!' kind of way.

This is the difference between me and my housemate - and between me and my very tough and hardworking bosses - when they are faced with an overwhelming workload they do more. I do less. It's something that really makes me angry with myself.

Anyway, can't end on that bad note! I did have an awesome conversation on the train yesterday with someone I work with - she just casually assumes I'm capable of so much, and while I'm talking to her, I am. She's a HUGE inspiration to me. Everyone needs at least one person like that in their lives! I'm lucky I have a few :)

Sorry to have disappeared on you all - I missed you :)

Today's very brief tasklist is:

get on top of this work pickle somehow (because that is a SMART target, not)

write another begging email, this time on behalf of a third party!

pay D if an automatic bank transfer hasn't happened

do my ESTA application for my upcoming trip

Recycler CI 9:15pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

Welcome to the newcomers :)

My Check-In: This morning I walked to the gym, then did stairmaster, stretches, & ab exercises.

At work this morning, I went through emails & went to staff meeting. After staff meeting, I started working through my list. Others had some urgent needs, so I talked with them.

During lunchtime, I ate a lunch that was provided, then sent a card to a friend. After lunch, I worked on projects. At the end of the day, I updated my assignment list & highlighted it for in the morning.

After work, the weather temperature was hot, so I rode the train home. After eating a snack, I went to the local meeting of my other 12-step program. My sponsor is out of town, so after the meeting I came straight home. I have taken a melatonin & am getting ready to go to sleep.

Have a great night, everyone! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

New Here

Hello, I am new here.  I participate 3 to 4 times per week in AA.  My sobriety date is 5/2/08.  I have identified procrastination as one manifestation of my character defects.  I will look forward to seeing how I can interact with this PA community.

welcome spirited!

And congrats on 1 year + 4 months, almost five, if I counted right.  :D

"A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard


Welcome! :)

Welcome Spirited!

Welcome here (it is a good place!) and congrats on your sobriety!


Potential energy 2


I hope I get some of this done.  I have a long work day and reports due


Go back to work for afternoon/evening

finish daily notes

start re eval

****take all doc. to Q!!! don't forget!!!!

Prep. for tom.  and finish proj. as promised!!

Z./Home:     h.w.        z.  bk.                   z. pract. v            z. gm game   Pack lunches for tom.  uniform for tom.         pract. word list for tomm.                J. comes over tomm.

kromer 1:30 CI

So far today, I've finished my hw and gone to class, then come back to lab and have lunch.

This week is a busy one, so I need to focus. MITs for today are:
*Look at RT results (this got postponed until tomorrow, but I can do some prep work tonight)
*Talk to EA re: BrdU
*Order reagants
*Write up program milestones and career plans (will do this soon)
*Pick up books
*Ask SM to make phone calls(will do this soon)

*Summarize association data from papers I have
*Come up w/ scheme for aligning associations (want to at least make progress on this today)
*Look into CLICK chem

OK, now I'm going to ask JM about RT data and see if EA is around to talk about BrdU 

Ag ci 12:45

Been productive since about 9 but just pausing to claim my seat here, before we get on the road to J's cardiology appt - we'll learn how his ticker is doing which will determine all the next steps about how to address the liver and pancreas - sheesh. "If we'd'a known we were gonna live this long..."

No time to read everyone's posts as I usually love to do, or elaborate on today's plan but HP and I did make one for the week and my job is to stay in touch with Him and keep moving foward. I played a little freecell this morning during a long phone call and started a Solitaire right after, but busted myself and actually shut it down mid-game (pretty much a miracle for me).  I don't want to defy or diss the grace my HP is giving me to survive these days.

Thanks to everyone for the love and support. Keep coming back!  We never know when the miracle might be in the very next right thing we do...

go Ag

love that plan w/ HP!

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

Julesk CI

Hi guys

Monday AM and I have the day at home to work on my stuff!  Yay!

I have:

A small to-do list left over from the weekend

45 minutes taking ebay photos

45 minutes listing on ebay

45 minutes cleaning studio

45 minutes cleaning basement

clean bathroom floor (30 mins?)

45 minutes assess and sew pajamas.

So approx 6 hours of work, and misc breaks.

OK guys, thanks for listening!



Spirit 9/29

The computer is teasing me today and wouldn't allow my list. So I will try again.

  • review paper work
  • send copies to all parties to reveiw
  • confirm appts
  • review action plan for the week
  • breakfast
  • email forms to sb
  • deliver forms to att-
  • send form -jan
  • confirm rec of numbers
  • place all appts in calender


  • conf appt w/ p

Journey 11 am & update

Good morning!  I did not check in yesterday as I had a computer-free day.  The pc is where most of my procrastination tools lie, so once in a while I try to just stay away from it.   I got a lot of housework done too, I found myself cleaning stuff out of boredom. 

This has been a busy morning so far, been working with a group on a test and now have several voice mails that I need to return.  Why can't people just send email, grrr!  The BIC is out sick so I need to lead her meeting this afternoon and I'm pretty terrified about that.   Just realized I'm stuck sitting here trying to NOT call the dude and NOT prepare for my meeting.  

Checking in to bookend 1) cuppa tea 2) call the dude 3) prepare for meeting.

Update 11:19.  Took a break, now calling the dude who will not email. 

Update 12:30 Called the dude and also discussed the meeting with the BIC.  I'm doing a little more preparation before the meeting which beings in 36 minutes.  I'm sure I won't do a perfect job, but thanks to you guys I'll be as prepared as possible.

Update 2:00 meeting's over!  Now I just want to collapse and veg out the rest of the day . . but I still need to get some work done.  I'll take a 20 min. lunch break then get back to work


"A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard

GeorgeSmiley 9:27 AM + Plus updates

Lots to do today.

1) Rewrite Project M-9 very quickly   UPDATE: 1:30 Finished about 1.5 hours ago. Since then, lunch, and some work on Project U, but not writing it

2) Project T

3) Project P-11

But the biggest thing is to get at least 1/3 of Project U written.





Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church

The Hero's Code:

Show Up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

e's Monday check in

Have an Easy Fast for all of those who observe Yom Kippur.
Any holy day that involves giving up food awes me.

I am back from having spent a very busy, emotional, happy weekend with my son at college: busy, because I had lots of things to get done, so many that there was no time to procrastinate, emotional, because I realized that when I go to visit him it is because he no longer lives at home and probably will only make home a way in station, and happy because it was so wonderful to see him successfully becoming an adult. He is very much his own person and has his own interests and I think the world is his oyster.

I was pleased with myself because I was able to 'show up' for him by making the time to bake him banana bread, which was the sort of nurturing thing I would usually intend to do, but never cary off. However, I noticed that my not getting to an adequate number of AA meetings left me feeling wiggy: I have to first take care of myself in order to take care of others.

To that end: I want to take some quiet time today to look over my 4th step inventory. I will do my 5th step on Sunday and I feel like I have been avoiding looking at some dirty details. If I don't clean house I won't reap the benefits.

I also want to slow down and look at what needs to be done: so I am going to only set myself up for doing one task at a time. I will make my to do list in so I don't overwhelm myself.

peace out.

asking for help to do the next right thing

e 11:17 check back.

no real progress, but breakfast is eaten. The chatbox format is acting up on my computer, so I am going to work in here. now checking and then taking meds.
swish and wash-done
shift laundry-done
plan dinner-

1:03 check back: getting stuck on planning dinner....

asking for help to do the next right thing

e's back checking back

Things are going well today, very well. I went to get the dog back and as my friend was late coming home I sat in her driveway and dealt with some paperwork. Flylady had suggested putting together an 'office in a bag' and since I had a zippered binder with pockets available I did it. I have not lost anything since and I never work at my desk anymore. No more piles! (well, almost no more piles, just piles of things to file!)Most of that time was spent on figuring out new health insurance stuff and I feel much more on top of that now.

The bathroom feels good, the laundry is under control, the living room is in fairly good shape. I would like to focus on getting the dining room back into shape: it is my dumping ground. Also, the kitchen has a bunch of items which need to be put away in the basement properly, as does the laundry room. I notice that I am not big on putting things away, so I am going to adopt my old mantra: Don't put it down, put it away!

asking for help to do the next right thing

Babs CI 9.28.09 (9:13am)

Hi all!

Going to make to do list. Then check back.


11:12 update

So many little things to do. Made list of 15 things, have done 8 so far. Goal is to finish all 15 before end of work day.

Got thirteen done. I consider that an accomplishment! :)

Spirit 9/28

Good Morning All Smile

Well it is Monday but I have a lot of energy this morning,  probably the bi product of stress but I decided this wknd to let Source take care of all the obstacles I know must be crossed this week.

I am strangely optimistic that all is well and my goals for the week are already met.  I am going to give some thought to my day and post action plan b 4 9am.


re: Spirit positive

wow, spirit, your positive attitude is so encouraging to me. Happy overcoming!

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

CL daily overcoming (pray for the overwhelmed)

agnus & vic & others who are overwhelmed:

boy have i been there. i hate that panicky feeling that i can't get it all done.

looking back, i have gotten out of all those situations, one way or another. i'm still here. Not always by completing everything, unfortunately.

It seems so clear to me now when i'm NOT in a panicky mood: that every minute spent panicking is a moment NOT spent getting stuff done.

And for that, i pray that you all gain a profound sense of inner peace. I happen to believe that's something that can only be accepted from god, not something we can cultivate ourselves.

Psalm 23 has never failed to help me calm down.

I sometimes think about my overwhelming situation from god's point of view. What would he think if he saw me? And i imagine him admitting, yes, that there is A LOT of work. I can even imagine Him admitting the facts of the case, that, yes, my procrastination has got me here. But i also imagine him so filled with love and compassion for me, his child, going thru this situation. He would desperately want to give me peace and strength to face this trial, to want to go thru it with me. He would be so much more focused in a loving way on ME, and so much less on THE WORK, whereas i focus on the work almost exclusively.

God is a lot more loving and caring of me than i am of myself.

And one more thing. Right now in my life i do NOT feel overwhelmed. First of all, thank you God for these days of relative sanity. Also, tho, it makes me scratch my head. Because when i am overwhelmed it feels like "this is my life, all the time." The present situation so overshadows my whole world view that i never think "there will be another day that i am not so overwhelmed." I have never had that thot in the midst of the overwhelming feeling, but i am hoping that after today's realization i might just remember this next time.

Now onto my day.

I have had relative success recently. How?

- Lord, i implore you to give me the ability to pray without ceasing
- Lord, fill the void in the center of my soul so that i need nothing
- It's all His business

and yet i am oh so ready to take my success and pin it on myself as a badge of achievement.

I've gotten here thru daily overcoming in God's strength. I pray i will have the wisdom to continue daily overcoming in God's strength!

I think i need a dose of Brother Lawrence.

So, here goes.

UPDATE: (first of all, wow, i can be long winded).

second, i need to modify that last bullet:

- It's all His business, even the successes

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

CL daily overcoming

DONE @10:50 - took waaaay too long - quiet time
DONE @10:55 - quick check mtgs & email emergencies at work (none)

so nice failure to put in there with "dealing with all my successes" but hey i can be humbled.

i can overcome from now forward. I will step on that path now.

11am wko
11:45 make work list for today (surrender)

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb


Clement  it was worth checking in today just to read that,  thank you for the  share it was not too long winded for felt like a dose of fresh air when i truly needed it on Monday morning.

Having said that, as I was reading I was also reminded the only to cure anx is action and the best way to get going per this program is to lay everything out in a list action plan with deadline dates.  After I have done this I usually have a huge relief because it all seems much easier.  Decluttering my mind by forming the list and dates settles the monkey mind, just something you reminded, so i will review my list and figure out how to shift my time action plan so the most pressing items are done first.


re: Spirit's list

very true about getting the list down on paper and prioritizing it. It often has helped me.

Need to do that shortly here for today.

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

Vic 9/28

Show up (done) So much to do- I want to panic and then I really can't think. I was tied up this weekend. My older son starts cyber school and there are 18 lessons he needs to catch up on. I need to know them too, I need to call the place and get some sanity here. My older son has relied on me for so much and I need to get out of the codependent seat. The younger one said when he gets home we could do his homework. AGHHH! I feel like I am spinning.

Husband hates his job and wants me to get a job so he can quit. I got a job offer from my lold job and my codependency is insane enough that I am considering it.Help.

1. look at cyber school stuff 2. call school


prayers for you to make the right decision about the job and deal with school stuff!


"A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard

Thanks Jo ck back

Things are moving along. One of the things I told my son is we need to pray 2x a day for me to do this and he agreed. So things are in "divine movement". As long as neither one of us gets bent out of shape, we can do it.

Job- even if I wanted to, with the cyber school, it would nto work. My son comes first. It is too bad my husband hates his job, but I only have this one chance to help my son.

I need to walk now.before it rains.